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Two Sheep's Accord Meets Crushing Part1

Everlasting swear to each other makes one unit conscious about the ones regard them as newly born wolves in community. But probably only a limited members around them could wish their future opportune and fortune, but almost other members around them are just indifferent to it. 


Destiny waiting for comming up of only purely lavable couple is not so warm hearted.


Then, eventually very many similar swears could have crushed sequel so necessarily.
Never yet, almost all lovably mutually ideal wishes and hopes could reach deadend, so necessarily.


Accepting own social setback and surviving it persistently in own option could be up to own couple's union in strength of decision.


Eventually by and large, very commonly only commonplace not in adventurous attempt in love by almost couples could survive so stably, and so challengeable love is not on that base, that would be very common aspect at any common society.


Eventually probably standard love could be made at this very commonplace reality of community and world aspect.


Then, necessarily, very deviantly kinky couples absolutely need so arrogantly impudent shameless inertia.


In other words, being shy and showing modesty must cause these wolves couple so many pitiless slanders, and spiritual torture by many ones with mass in mob mentality.


Eventually, epicurean grasshoppers must pull through these so severe initiation by mass, thus, their feast could have so annoyably pains taking blockage to crush with external factors, like these days' our global pandemic peril and breakthrough from it in turn.


Ultimately, very adventurous lovable couples as social gamblers necessarily need qualification at being capable to go against any kind of reality accompanying conventional ideas so plainly.


Consequently, very many couples could take so formally not so enjoyable manner in community, pretending good sheep, in necessity, according to the absorbing strength of pleasurable passion for getting so personally, that ecstatic demand of realization ㏌ sensation could make very many couples so pretend normal,( by the way, what is normal?) that sequel makes society offcial manner.


Then, if you look for the best partner in terms of society's unritten law, you should choose the most uncontrollable as if being the toughest negotiator as your partner, so sarcastically, you know!


That must be the safest strategy in terms of your following idea in stance, you see!


(to be continued)




May. 8th, Jun. 17th.   2021




Verb's Function Part7

                 Diagramic Summary and Development in Our Usage of verbs



                   Transitive verb's usage at the case of Causal verb's nature 


            Fundamentally, our mind regards only feasible things as precious and basically                        integral. At this term, this regulatory mind's nature is reacting either intransitive verb's              specifical mind holding picturing mode or aspect at the socially phenomenal phase.



                 Ultimately, showing publicly or not is one so grave first stage touchstone for us as                   the ones who use verb's function.


                  At this term, next order could generate.
                    〇Confessing     ⇨ Personally done
               〔
                    〇Manifesting  ⇨    Publicly


      Otherwise,


     〇Denial to get that Idea Opened only Stocking it on Mind.


                 Upper all things necessarily have relevance with next factors.


                   〇Feasibility or 〇Infeasibility
                      These two mutually make a pair in idea as relatively speculation.
                      Additionally, that assessment must have ethically subjective consideration.
                     From the beginning, these relatively speculatied mind idea and ethical                                     assessment are never severed together, so essentially.


                     By the way, ethical idea is based on another dimensioned speculation toward                          all former mentioned verb's usage, but it consistently accompanies with it.
                      Necessarily, ethical idea consists of idea of justice, idea of socially conventional
                      commonsense, lang, and usage by people in general.



                  Meanwhile, internally, evil-minded usage even usually good manner ones in                            society have in mind must be understood by our mind's reason and its regarding 
                   is anytime interpreted as the bad example at mind idea and its habit. A lot more                       its usage should be kept only immanently not publicly shown. Nevertheless, if                        the ideas are accumulated, frustrated mind could be made.
                       
                  However, for frustrated mind, how we can solve is another phased subject in                            another idea at next stage of mind idea.




(to be continued)



Jun. 7, 17th   2021




Object and Nature around Yearning to for Us Part1

Recollection works with our emotional mind's idea around now doing and future prospect picturing in uniting each other. That is what our mind so accidentally is coming up with in no expectant nor anticipant, because these predictably indwelling ideas are usually done at really scheduled or planned things.


Hence, very older days for us is certainly nostalgically pictured, but unexpectedly the thing could be rather so notinal, and not so realistic, but more recent and not so older things with what we feel it so lately as enough as recollective so concretely toward several years' length our own serial days are just what we can really feel some deeply joinning with now things.


It makes sure make us that what some so deeply considerably recollective picture and aspect in mind must guide us any older past things, nevertheless that is not jointed with now doing, now holding prospective imaginary idea or intentional idea or so. 
In other words, if we have so earnestly yearning to something, it must be directly relevant with now our directly doing acts, interesting things or so.


Amygdal manages either our breathing state's guiding, then its thing could evidence our emotionally held mind's idea and thought content, thus it must include our past things' interpretation and arranging around all memory as easily recollective or accidentally regenerated past things really occured to us so personally.


Certainly we remember any very older days' occurence so easily, but all these could be seen so indirect and even so tough things could be felt so only factual and either even notional. However, more so nearer past things could be directly tangible at mind accompanying direct questions even now we regard as not so com;etely solved nor still annoying our running careness and attention.


To be frank, very directly serially tangible recollective content accompanied with now held ideas must make us own directly sensed some stronger yearning to as our interest, anxiety and now own propositional consideration make one decisive tendency to recollect or remember, or so.


Thereby, now is absolutely jointed with relatively directly relevant all pasts' things specifically in range of at least several years.
Meanwhile severl decades earlier lifetime's events and our recollective ideas around them must be made so arbitrarily according to time span's conceptual understanding to serially running of context with earlier and later, older and newer or so in comparison.


Why I try to formulate so is caused from that I regard all our life timespan must have several watersheds at switching life stance, mindset resetting, and accidentally obliged to change our mind's attentive habit or so. In other words, we human as one presonality must have each very mutually differentiated featured life phase at so plural times according to the length as span's range.
In other words, it's as if the meaning of life is different before and after you have largely taken the helm of life.


Hence, just to the past things afterward changing stance could be felt so realistically yearning to, but them beforehand changing could be felt so notinally.
In other words, human mind and the aspect at recollecting to all past things we personally had really in life must be impacted by anytime now's mindset and now's stance at engaging ourselves, that truth could replace with the expression that our life runs along with unpredictably unexpected changes really we come across, and any life's time character must never be substituted to any other time, namely we all are consistently surviving completely specific featured situation and circumstance.


And that thing means that we survive not going, moving, turning back to any past time date, then we are obliged to have ceaseless introspective view around what we started and kept running and what we stopped and changed some content of doing or so. 
(to be continued)



Jun. 16th. 2021