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Unfamiliar Common Fare

To me, first unforgettable parting to deceased was my father’s death of lever cancer thirty years ago.


Though, his death has been anytime so close to me for thirty years.


Now situation is completely either to me, never exceptional, because so many unfortunate ones die as victims of new corona virus.


Very seriously tough reality binds us in no given choice to anybody must impact my mind too, and emotion so much. And its real must influence my creation so necessarily.


Meanwhile, in my case, my deliberation in habit is disconnectedly still so lasting probably continuously to the future. Its character is so abstract, e.g. what does death mean to me, to world, and to being or so.


Though, my emotion could never be guided to reading famous literature as human’s legacy of masterpieces or so. Because now situation is inexpressibly so serious, then neither I can see it so objectively in cool vision, nor in sober state, coz I am never so strong-minded one.


But very remarkable one fact is that now our crisis is so publicly concerned to anybody in world, and it must mean so personal either to anybody.


I’m never so younger already, thus I’m either so anxious to my future, though I can persevere yet broken-hearted so far, it’s aging effect to either me.
But for very younger ones very different emotion would be held to anybody in their generation.


But only one thing we all have learnt that cos now situation must be very common to anybody, thus, for some very unfortunate, on the other hand for another so fortunate, that thing could never be possible.


Now I have so many good abstract ideas for writing, but they should be addressed with so considerable and precise passion, hence, I want to distinguish its so insightful content, and so realistic emotional content, as well as now I write, but these two things in differentiated typed writing to each other must be relevant at bottom of my mind.


In so tough situation, if we can share the same issue together, its matter could heal our mind exhaustion a little. At the matter of fact, so many fictions’ ideas I have now in mind, but sometimes light essay could be permitted to me for writing.


Philosophically, we can say our own body and spirit must be completely divided to any other person, though very unaccountably now very serious crisis could be seen to me either, so never divided to any other one from me in world. I can think its idea must be shared to anybody.
Coz in this so tough condition, either I feel impossibility to be strongly independent and to me, I feel that being so chicken-hearted is never so sinful emotion to anybody.


In conclusion, my father’s death is on my memory and it’s so close to my emotion, but now our common jeopardized situation is utterly never familiar to anybody.
That thing could be so noticeably different.


Only now, I can never have any anger, criticism nor resentment to anyone, even to never so favorable ones, of course we have no idea to get back fellowship again to them neither. Just I can never have so hostile emotion even to them.
Because, we all together confront common so weird enemy.


We have very longer spring together, and probably very heavy summer together so soon. Our enemy has no mercy nor no favor, thereby it must be overwhelmingly so fair to anybody, in other words, it is absolutely so materialistic and to it, we all are more fragile than them. Namely our surviving phenomena are all so occasionally exceptional, thus it must be so precious and not gettable to us, so essentially, and intrinsically. We all are witnessing very contrastive objection between so the ephemerally hot emotional and the durably very stubborn and sturdily obstinate and cold it.


Hence, no matter what assaults us so out of the blue, and even if we all are at hem of our stably keeping survival, we could be so gentle to anyone, in crossed same hard times for all in world!
(Apr. 23rd. 2020)


Memo: From tomorrow on I’ll go back to original orbit as much as possible, coz in several days my emotion was confused with anxiety and so sad news with today’s so popular actress in my country.
Abstractive ideas must be reaped so satisfied to me and completion I can evaluate.