Being, space, time or so must be the thing to escape from our mind site when we try to grip each at understanding in logical term.

Love, affection, kindness are either these kinds of concept could be either so, when we debate, but to these we personally can have own understanding in referring own memory.

About me, love could be anytime possibly for us to have hopefully simultaneously it could be lost with so trivial reason, in terms of private life. It means so bitter.

Universality means either so abstractively understandable, but, concretely or to a extent around loving things, so practically, so hard to get essence, not just only to understand, these items problematically conceptual to make sense of reality for our mind so objectively, because real experiencing thing must be gotten only with losing important thing, that would be painfully sad or sorrowful, in survival of life.

Only love means both very notionally integral as ethical issue, and either very personally emotionally memorable items for all of us.

If we want maximally wonderful it, at an occasion, love must stay away from our own reality, on the contray to its case, if we don’t want it so feasible, it could be given in so rare opotunity never easy to obtain in a degree of usual effort or so in mind and acting, so honestly, that very enigmatically unsolved item in our life thing.

Factually, human’s mental, spiritual, emotional things are very necessarily able to be taken in our personal life, but at the same time, they could be so hard to keep for us in life.

Meanwhile, being, our cognition of mind, time, space or so in meaning, with field, place or these interrelation, these items are all so hard of which are to made sense, certainly these are never escaping from our mind so easily, in life of us, but loving emotion, trust, believing mind, to the other ones for us are neither so, morally, or ethically, but really feasibility to these would be another matter to us, so ironically.

Generally, in not so private life matter, what to deserve for us to quest is all so abstract matter, as item of concept, and its existence, all these could never upset our anticipation, at least questing these things are never making our mind so uneasy, but human mind things with love, affection, kindness and pitty or so are substantially different.

When we lose love, we get to be so mentally, wanting to devote ourselves to quest, inquire so abstract matters or items, and occasionally these things could aid our personal mind injury healed.

What does human mind mean?

How could we keep genuine questing and loving emotion compatiblly?

Where will we find the chance and field as the oppotunity we can sympathize, or empathize something related with other ones, and socially occurences or so in accordance with our mind holding thing as question to the ideal, and really feasible loving emotion?

Oh, God, You anytime gifts us everything we are never able to avoid, so whimsically, never altogether at arbitrary occasional choice, otherwise, very somtimes altogether with all these.

At each moment, we’d be obliged to be troubled in mind, by your cool choice!

When we want love, you’d burden us so heavy trouble, we’d have only infeasible chance to get it!

That act could be testing us as Your favor I wonder if that thing could be the truth or not, but I’d never reach that conclusion, eventually I anytime get stuck or held up never to come up with my so good idea.

But, very rarely, when I walk along the street or enter in forest or so, out of the blue, very good idea flashes in my brain and mind, then my heart palpitates and immediately I take my memopad from my shirt pocket, and write it down,

And if that moment’s mentality is so stable, I get so wonderful idea to synthcize abstract questioning ideas and my personal mind matter.

Then, all good idea and the hint to grip it, I try never to lose the chance to get, for finding that timing, I always try to be vigilant in watching and observing everything.

And, at these moments lasting, being, time, field, space, place, for my brain and loving thing, trusting thing, in human relation, affectionate and compassionate emotion must make harmonized fusion, just I anytime look for the chance to have it.

And only at very occasional moment, all ever so easily escaping those things could stay at my mind, and smile to me, taking a chance to get them all united.

In fact, only for that moment’s joy, I survive my life.

(to be continued)

(July. 27th. 2020)