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Being Myself who creates Poetries and it who creates Novels Part1

Poetry writing takes for granted to pop up the feeling where I write it so necessarily and naturally, why is it so?
But at the matter of fact, poetry is truly the thing only by myself I can create, and it is so intentional myself who can write it.
However, being myself who writes poetry must make myself who chooses the word for each moment to create something, then looking at that thing takes so tough desciplene.
Being myself who writed novel is always the client to all thing to the ones who are appear in that novel, then it could be left to them, then myself being as author can stay behind the scene as novel content, it could be so easy to me, but rather than being appearing of myself in anxiety, how it could be read by any readers or seen that scene in novel is consistently the matter be be anxious.


However, being myself who writes poetries with fictious intention can never be so tough, coz it means never so tough as in writing a novel with indispensable condition to make readred so natural, but at a degree of poetry, appeard myself would be so tough to look at so directly by myself.
But when I write it in so smoothe pace, the words must never be in disciplined when I read after writing.


But so interesting matter is that so toughly written masterpieces are never always so tough to read afterward, nor even if that thing had been created with so painful emotion, that thing is never always so seen when I read it afterward, at the matter of fact, sentence and its motivation to write is in no connection to us.
Thus, writing myself does never mean so much toward the presence of poetries nor novels as already written matters.
Therefore, I can conclude that the words are procreated by our human mind, but, from the beginning, writing with words or showing to anybody except myself who has written had been taken sure distance to being myself who have done so, so completely, in some so strange structure.


In some truth, we can predicate that mind and words are never so severed to each other, as so destined relation but simultaneously each of them would be said to be in so complete division, either.
It means so similar to what any salivas or tears or so wouled be no longer mine to my body, that thing must be so explicable to this fact.
Then, being myself is either being myself so necessarily and either that means perfectly something another it to being myself.
At some impression I have so privately, poetry creating myself is so close to true myself as I know to myself and novel writing myself is from the beginning the masterpiece and myself are set in sure distance, I can feel so.


Being myself when I create something always shows the vision to the world toward it so straightforwardly, but novel writing needs a divice to make any readers so conscious only to the world only novel can have, we need only the technic to create this device, and only it maked the novel world.
Thus, being myself who creates fiction is apt to be shown to diverse waver of mind or palpitation, at each time, but there must be the words procreated only by cooler mind, eventually being myself expressing words must have obivious distance to myself mind itself.
But if we try to explain that distance, it would be so hard to do so well and it must had never been present, otherwise we could say so either, any otherwise, we can only say that from the beginning only its distance must had been present to us, either.


Then if we suppose the all things, we could say that the world itself must be so hard to understand.
Surely the world thing may have been nothing but if we would never suppose that there would be something as the world, we must never bear any words from our mind, we can say only so.


Yes, oh how everything is so hard to understand for us, where is the reason to all things?


However, otherwise, known things or so completely necessary things has no need to be expressed with the words, then possibly the words themselves would manipulate us and control us so presicely as the ones who use the words.


But these words are never being myself to each one who writes them, then eventually being myself that thing must be just an illusion and truly myself must never be present and only these rules to make us write something and only meanings of them must be present, even if we predicate so vertically, or try to understand so, it must never be fault, neither.
Thus, for the ones who try to write the persons who appear in a novel, with words, that thing would never be so reaponsible but, if we do only those things, anybody would be so infatigue only with piling concocting only fictious matters with personalities, so gradually, we can condlude it.


But because that there is myself who doesn’t want to write even novels norpoetries then any other so diverse analytical myself must be needed to me moreover, it would be the truth to me either.
And also, its thing must evidence that myself is just myself but simultaneously is never myself, neither.


Yes, surely being myself is so tough to understsnd for us, but either the words which composes being myself or the world and its rule and law must be either so difficult to us, we can concled so after all.


(to be continued)
(March 3rd. 2019)