Aren't you out of control to your mind terror?

How could have you come to terms with your mind screaming?

In world, what was your truly wanting and realized thing for you?

You think, it would be the best that someday all reality could carry on along with your holding ideal.
Nevertheless, that reality thought rearity could change so frequently and quickly.

If you could find so unchangeabel thing, it must be only shackle, chain, or cage.

World thing must go on changing itself so simply than we can expect.

It must head for against our mind demanding so personally.

Necessarily it could never be so close to what you'd kept to want.

You know it so well, but just you don't want to be noticed to it.

Anytime accepting all so severe reality in mind must need so brave will.

Howeve, you try to wrap world's all so dirty and noisy reality with somewhat so enchanting aspect, then rather you necessarily need world's so cruel and pitiless reality.

Because for you, world's so harsh reality must be nothing but a kind of roman, in spite of that these things are so difficult to watch so closely at the real sites.

Roman is kind of desire ri make us have illusion at looking at really happening thing.

Thud, thud, thud, thud.
Words and images run around roaring so.

It definitely shows you so difficult way to what you've looked at in your reality, but it must be what you've done until now.

Nevertheless, what you are now witnessing the site of now reality in aspect pf really embodied facts must be first encounter either for you, but you try to wrap them all with your mind holding roman and your bottom heart's terror. Of course, it must be so beautiful by itself.

In your ideal and thinking, contents' all these are so beautiful.
But reality could never be changed so much. Necessity itself must never be switched even if you try to work out to it, what you try must make is just only mind's satisfaction to your mind.

Kaboom, kaboom, kaboom, kaboom.
Your mind makes conversion you accept so composedly, or to say, rather you have nothing but that potion you engrave all cruelty in world in your mind to your memory so coolly.

It'd display your all so honestly the fact that these are just several factual truths.

Vroom, vroom, vroom, vroom.
Your sleep sinks so deeply, you'd never watch anything there. Or tosay, even if you'd watch something, it'd b e so quicly forgotten by your brain.

Reality thing once you'd be awoken up from sleepingmust assault your that moment's emotion at a stretch in no procrastination.
It could be so pitilless as it could be, it7d be either the roman of cruelty.

You think of so numerous terrorists who exist bat this world, probably on the contrary side of this globe, another mind's terrorists thinking about something like you must be present.

Of course, idea is not always so complecated, nevertheless idea is anytime coming up to your mind.

Idea must never die. And it must sink on the bottom of your mind unless it'd be embodied.

What numerous minds' terrorisuts at saying nothing, writing neither and just die are existing in this world, that could be one of meserable cruelty.

Nevertheless, they who could never say nor write anything must complaint nothing.
Because discontent could be what only the ones who could make them absorbed in somewhat they feel contradiction can have in mind, so senstively.

Tomorrow you'd make all things romantic with your mind's terror claiming that they are so beautiful.
Roman could never embody itself,because once it'd be embodied, it7d become never romantic thing. Thus, just roman must change nothing at reality. 
It is just one possibility.

Nevertheless, these so infinite pararelled condition must make world divided or disrupted.

World is so ugly, beautiful.

World makes every realty co-exist to each other. If you'd have a stance to welcom any coming ones to you and deter no one leaving you, any other one could not always be like you.

Have you been so depressed?
Are your gloomy at every beauty?

That object you feel so contradictory is what you have method to deal with.
Is your feeling's cause the world which is still so miserable at being emobodied at it is just now never done so?

Oct.21st. 2011, re-upped at jun.29th. 2018 at another blog, and the Japanese original's translated version is this. Translated into English at 26th. 2021