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Mirage Out of the Blue Floating in front of My Eyes Part13

Villa D🔲dati has its location by which my home country's border, then CEO as billionair of the world top had his kindness to prepare for me a jet plain to go back to my business base, but I felt some necessity to take holidays, then I respectfully declined to his offer, I nervously and spiritually worn at serial mission, just I wanted to have some enough holiday only staying at home, fortunately my home at P🔲is vicinity was so close to that villa I was invited for CEO's wife birthday celebrating party. That lake was intriguing me to walk around with sunny sunshine enough to ease my exhausted mind and body. After waking up at CEO procuring my hotel near that villa, my eyes confirmed very brightened sunshine stronger than the day before the day spending almost at that villa.


Looking over J🔲a Mountains which seemed to be so blue misty fluffy colored made me purified mind at walking time.
I made sure I had been engaged in cheating to C🔲A targetting persons of special interest, and that necessity around mission has given me many occasion to approach patsy customers from billionair with extraordinary financial ability and power and personal richer men with nuclear shelter desired persons, specifically for them I was engaged in also placement of nuclear shelter, consulting with beautiful L🔲banese immigrant jeweler Y.
But these all businesses made my nerve and spirit so, the job description left my mind and body in tatters. I absolutely needed rest.


Then I decided to go home at F🔲nce, then the day bofore that day, I told him it after he offered me his will, I had to spend a grace period for immigration procedures and virus prevention at the hospital, so I decided to go to customs first, but because it was sunny that day, I decided to walk slowly to there.
When I took a picture with my smartphone, suddenly from my behind someone's voice called to me was heard to my ears. That was A🔲bid Al-H🔲im.
He abruptly talked to me saying, "That villa's heros and heroines were all so genius, but they all had mentally and spiritually very hard weight at some dimension. J🔲hn W🔲liam Pol🔲ori as author of "The Vam🔲yre" was obviously gender minority, at my home country cultural zone has intolerance to these ones, then if that kind of dispostion could be held at somebody, the one must continue to hide that fact, otherwise, the one could go to foreign country, but that power holder is so few, then many ones are executed. "
To his narration, I got some very nervous emotion to him, because his expression was so seriously convincing to my that time emotion. I am never gender minorty but their mind could be sympathized so much. Certainly this world must have very many contradictions enough for making our mind and brain so confused, but at each thing anybody could never be responsible, that thing could deepen our annoyance. At the time I thought so, but he ceaselessly continued his talk and said to me, " By the way, you seem to be J🔲w, not completely white, I usually contacted many ones like you, when I was staying at I🔲ael at R🔲adan."


As he said so, I cenrtainly saw that he and other all A🔲ic ones had no liquer, instead of it,  coffee or so was served by the villa butler to any guest. But simultaneously I was a little shocked by his a little rude but honest confession to me about me. Surely my face is identified with J🔲w appearance despite of my blood is One of the four sentences. Those days, at Freedom Respecting country, many customers were murdered by white man only for that their ethnic identiy were just almost only A🔲an, at the matter of fact, they were seemed to be accomplice of pandemic virus sprinkling to the one's coutry for his crazy thoughts filled head. Those days, ver frequentlly perfectly innocent A🔲an citizens were hit out of the blue by fanatical racist passers-by at FRC.


I just bluntly responded his saying to my ethnic identity, "Just surely so, But I am not formal J🔲ist, nevertheless, today's news that ancient documents was discovered as being excavated from a cave in the J🔲sh desert. I am either interested in the matter, and you?"
To my question, he immdiately replied to me saying, "Yes, of course, I just tried to mention it to you."


Additionally he astonishingly had been accostomed with knowledgeable intellect explaining Book of Zec🔲riah around that discovery news, talking
”Zec🔲riah could be regarded as mainly sin and repetance, then that could be one of typical C🔲istianity's origin source, but that notion could be applied either to I🔲am, you know." to me so, then I just nodded,"Hum-hum, it's an eye."I just responded like a growl. He continued saying "Prophecy on the main theme of temple reconstruction by priests, but that could be interpreted either to Qu🔲n." 


His talk was interesting and simultaneously bored to me, he seemed to be suitable for Bible salesman or so, I could have that impression, but if he had the gems I deal with at his someplace of his body, I either was been a target by C🔲A agent, eventuallly anybody is spy and either targeted one for inspector, that contradictory destiny could never be evaded to anybody at this so entangled contemporary society, because surviving this world means so passing through strangely ambivalent reality, those days I anytime had that idea to myself whose life was seemed to be controled by somewhat so unidentified, but seen so beautiful view at lake and the mountanous zone's distant view made me easy for a while, then his talkative speech was either heard to me like a Mantra. 





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I was alone in the hospital bed where I was housed, and I thought. If they tried to investigate all suspicious targeted persons for indentifying their true it, C🔲A personnel by themselves, because if e.g. I were getting idea that I confess all their conspiracy to that billionair CEO, he has so enormous power with financial mobilization, additonally he must have so minute intellgence around all over the world with his own network for investigation to all, then he must be able to denounce so smartly to C🔲A's conspiracy both publicly or secretly. Nevertheless, what made them dispatch me as not so powered one for their conspiracy as mission transaction through beautiful L🔲banese immigrant jeweler Y ? That idea could never stay away from my brain. Why I thought so was caused from that my impression to his personality as CEO was enough seemed so honest to convince me his personality.


Ultimately for us which is so integral, nation's security to keep safety, but insted of it, all nationalities have necessity to put up with some incovenience, or each individual's absolute freedom for taking human fundamental right, but intstead of it, all nationalities have necessity to secure own safety with each individual's effort and ability. That issue is stuck either to me, around my mission thing as doubled spy to customers with C🔲A's agents and cheated investigated target as jewlry buyers.


Thinking around those, occasionally I had occasionally recollecting about A🔲bid Al-H🔲im's talk at lake side path in hospital room bed, that sunny day was certainly so impressive to me at the hospital in my home country. After spending that hotel some day, I am leaving the hospital, then I intend to go to Ly🔲n, and from there I take Super Limited Express train to P🔲is. 


At the time to sit down for looking over the most beautiful view scoped lake side bench with him, A🔲bid Al-H🔲im additonally talked to me saying, "Anyway, those days villa's heiday either for G🔲rge G🔲don B🔲on, M🔲ry Sh🔲lley, her hus P🔲cy B🔲she Sh🔲lley and B🔲on's gay partener J🔲n Wil🔲m P🔲idori would have been just temporary fantacy but for them so dense time for them all, but afterward five years later, P🔲idori was dead with his weighed down by depression and gambling debts, either with trustworthy evidence that he died by suicide by means of prussic acid, sebsequently about one year later, M🔲ry's hus P🔲cy B🔲she was dead of water accident caused from stormy weather at the sea, and G🔲don B🔲on afterward engaged him at G🔲ek War of Indep🔲dence, midst it which caused him a violent cold at raily soaking wet during the voyage, and he was dead two years or so later to Sh🔲lley, eventually their souls were pulled to each other at heyday and even the last moment with the way for being dead process." We walkd around very beautiful lase side walk heading for border to F🔲nce, by the way I had no idea where he headed for, but I had no necessity to ask that thing to him.


His speech was continuing, but that tone could not be so unpleasant just with his voice's very mildness to me, then his saying " B🔲on must have had his so ambivalent idea on his brain and mind, that taste was like your home country's so great filmmaker Jean L🔲c Go🔲ard's several masterpieces, that hero or heroine could have an emottional phase "Almost today is at wanting to be dead" or so. Actually E🔲nest H🔲ingway could have the same feeling at his writing novels as auther of literature, you see." and he once sighed and continued, saying " B🔲on could have that feeling anytime wanting to be dead, but simultaneously he anytime tried to nagate and delete that idea with extremely passionate will so necessarily, that was his footprint of all masterpieces, you know."


Anyway his knowledgeable ideas made me astonished at his suprior penetration, but one question was raising to my brain, then I said to him, "But your country U🔲E relatively generous regulation ought to be legally implemented either around religion, nevertheless even to gender issue could have been so secrecy so formally, is it so true?" to my that asking, he soon respoded next, "Yeah, what you try to emphacize is convincing either to me, of course relatively freedom is secured at my country except several areas, but in terms of these sensitive gender issue, my country has not so opened minded generosity, then eventually if that kind of tasty idea so sensitively somebody has, the one must go abroad or if the one still stayed my country, he could keep that thing in secrecy for so long lifespan, that is so necessary, you know."


His very profound knowledge must be evidencing that he either was occidentalized at his n ature and idea outputting dispostion, but that fact either seemed to show either that he knew everything so evenly then its thing could imply that he is foreigner to occidental culture countries, I thought so either.


I at the time in recollecting my several days earlier daytime conversation with the U🔲E oil business richer investor  A🔲bid Al-H🔲im, but unconsciously fallen into so deep sleep and never awaked again that night even if I had once wakeup by nightmare, and after awakening myself, next morning came to me and I was noticed to it, that day was my day of discharge from this hospital. 
(to be continued)



Mar. 16-19th.   2021



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