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Mirage Out of the blue Floating in front of My Eyes Part14

Akerlof's Lemons indicates asymmetry between seller and byer, if we compare it with my standing reality, Y as beautiful A🔲menian L🔲banese immigrant jeweler pretending agent must have insurance to secure her life not telling everything at keeping only her secret even to her customer C🔲A. If she was stolen of it by them, her life's security could never be kept so stably.


Eventually that mild tasty the world top assets holding billionair CEO's financing power and right can be symbolized as individual freedom and liberty's the most regard, meanwhile C🔲A's them can be symbolized as national advantage's the most regard, but possibly even they who are regarding group acrion as the most important could even abandon their nation, e.g. to some case, their loyal country could be occupied by another country, because their the most mentally and soritually precious value must be their membership's pride and honor, their the most respectful object even could not be nation, presumably their task executing pride and honor, then they must assess and evaluate the occupying one or monopolizer to their loyal ex-their home country, just that possibility must be infinitely nothing, because their loyal nation as their home country is the most powerful in the world in terms of financially, politicallty and even at citizens' economic activity level, ordinarily we can presume so, but very exceptionally personally each agent could have anotjher idea, if the one could have some mean idea to get the one's profit so privately, the one could practice betrayal even to the one serving country as the nation for the one. 
And that factor making the one execute must rely on their pay, allowance level and the nation's trust to them. And these things could never be identified to any other one, because it must be just personal mind matter.


After passing of hospitalized term's expiration for me who came back home country, my idea after very long business days at absence from home spinned around these speculation for a while, at not so short period, and that presumptive idea could never be so nonsense seen  so to me.
Eventually whom we should believe relies on what course, ideology , idea of justice we should believe. Because our world must never be operated by human individual mind and idea in thought order for the one, but being operated only by law, and its execution could rely on only their loyalty, ordinarily, at that reality, probably C🔲A's agents, Y, that handsome the world top billionair CEO and me are all at the same condition, if we regard our personal mind as the most integral value. 


Just each are at each distinct idea, course, advantage and belief with loyalty and personal option and probably each has each gapped intelligence caused from these diffrences and that each unique asymmetry with public servant, man of property, pretending jewler agent, an d their dispatching me, then, these all gathered realities otherwise should be called H🔲ry's Apples, if we compared it with Akerlof's Lemons.


And if these all so miraclous balance was broken, all ones must be ruined to the hell, in other words, each of them just only for pretending it from being done, keeps own secret and preten d to be honest, not holding any problem, that must be our society, worldas the true appearance or essence of human being presence.



I easily walked around the riverside paths of S🔲ine. those eras, very many painters of Imp🔲sionism had drawn the landscape around there and very many masterpicies of tabreaw was created, but to me, that river was consistently so dirty with water quarity polution. Very misty invisible impressional these landscape must have me only gloomy since my puberty periods, then those days I wnet to highschool from vicinity of P🔲is that time I came back and stay. My mother was still alive but so physically weakened, then helpers in turn came home and massaged and helped to walking so smoothely with tools for rehabilitating her. I was infromed by her that my female teacher in kindergarten was alive and my mother met accidentally at surgery waiting room in the city hospital and she was told that my those days female teacher was living beside the S🔲ine, then I got an idea to meet her, then I looked up her phone number of landline, and after greetings that I heard her voice after a long time, asked her to meet her if she agreed, and she was willing to accept my offer. through telephone conversation, then I a little earlier went out from my mother's home to S🔲ine and for a while took walking around there, and I went to her home near the promised time of afternoon. 


When I pressed the doorbell at the entrance, she replied that she would go through the intercom to open the door now.
And she showed me her smiling face to me after a long time, saying ”Welcom to my home.”
She was almost same generation to my mother near 90 years old. 
”byer, if we compare it with my standing reality, Y as beautiful A🔲menian L🔲banese immigrant jeweler pretending agent must have insurance to secure her life not telling everything at keeping only her secret even to her customer C🔲A. If she was stolen of it by them, her life's security could never be kept so stably.


Eventually that mild tasty the world top assets holding billionair CEO's financing power and right can be symbolized as individual freedom and liberty's the most regard, meanwhile C🔲A's them can be symbolized as national advantage's the most regard, but possibly even they who are regarding group acrion as the most important could even abandon their nation, e.g. to some case, their loyal country could be occupied by another country, because their the most mentally and soritually precious value must be their membership's pride and honor, their the most respectful object even could not be nation, presumably their task executing pride and honor, then they must assess and evaluate the occupying one or monopolizer to their loyal ex-their home country, just that possibility must be infinitely nothing, because their loyal nation as their home country is the most powerful in the world in terms of financially, politicallty and even at citizens' economic activity level, ordinarily we can presume so, but very exceptionally personally each agent could have anotjher idea, if the one could have some mean idea to get the one's profit so privately, the one could practice betrayal even to the one serving country as the nation for the one. 
And that factor making the one execute must rely on their pay, allowance level and the nation's trust to them. And these things could never be identified to any other one, because it must be just personal mind matter.


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After passing of hospitalized term's expiration for me who came back home country, my idea after very long business days at absence from home spinned around these speculation for a while, at not so short period, and that presumptive idea could never be so nonsense seen so to me.
Eventually whom we should believe relies on what course, ideology , idea of justice we should believe. Because our world must never be operated by human individual mind and idea in thought order for the one, but being operated only by law, and its execution could rely on only their loyalty, ordinarily, at that reality, probably C🔲A's agents, Y, that handsome the world top billionair CEO and me are all at the same condition, if we regard our personal mind as the most integral value. 


Just each are at each distinct idea, course, advantage and belief with loyalty and personal option and probably each has each gapped intelligence caused from these diffrences and that each unique asymmetry with public servant, man of property, pretending jewler agent, an d their dispatching me, then, these all gathered realities otherwise should be called H🔲ry's Apples, if we compared it with Akerlof's Lemons.


And if these all so miraclous balance was broken, all ones must be ruined to the hell, in other words, each of them just only for pretending it from being done, keeps own secret and preten d to be honest, not holding any problem, that must be our society, worldas the true appearance or essence of human being presence.


             ✽       ✽       ✽


I easily walked around the riverside paths of S🔲ine. those eras, very many painters of Imp🔲sionism had drawn the landscape around there and very many masterpicies of tabreaw was created, but to me, that river was consistently so dirty with water quarity polution. Very misty invisible impressional these landscape must have me only gloomy since my puberty periods, then those days I went to highschool from vicinity of P🔲is that time I came back and stay. My mother was still alive but so physically weakened, then helpers in turn came home and massaged and helped to walking so smoothely with tools for rehabilitating her. I was infromed by her that my female teacher in kindergarten was alive and my mother met accidentally at surgery waiting room in the city hospital and she was told that my those days female teacher was living beside the S🔲ine, then I got an idea to meet her, then I looked up her phone number of landline, and after greetings that I heard her voice after a long time, asked her to meet her if she agreed, and she was willing to accept my offer. through telephone conversation, then I a little earlier went out from my mother's home to S🔲ine and for a while took walking around there, and I went to her home near the promised time of afternoon. When I walked around S🔲ine, it remided me of my highschool age that already those days I felt it so dirty and did not have any beautiful impression, nevertheless I frequently from the highschool so nearer to it, and I sometimes went out from school site and waliked around the riverside and listened to my radio on air of S🔲ft Machine or G🔲ng as E🔲ro Rock Music units and after graduated from there and since I entered the university of p🔲is, those days I listened to Techno-Pop with walkman. 


When I pressed the doorbell at the entrance, she replied that she would go through the intercom to open the door now.


And she showed me her smiling face to me after a long time, saying ”Welcom to my home.”
She was almost same generation to my mother near 90 years old. She used her wheelchair.
”Well, you have become a very respectable adult man, too.” She said so to me standing there, and she  invited me in in a wheelchair.


(to be continued)



Mar. 19th.-21st.  2021