Anything could be ultimately since the last conclusion so completely unpredictably.

Thus, eventually serially we're consistently, so only groping at try and error readied for keeping going on anything to either to me, only that feeling and emotion are seiged my mind either.

Eventually I conclude that only not so precisely strict behavior and so easily relaxed feeling must be suitable at my so toughly no exit situation, I only need me healed and comforted, because also I have no any leeway and no mind anytime could be relaxed.

Then, only that thing could be satisfied, rather no other thing could be unnecessary to me, that could be convincing so necessarily.

 

After all, any afraid mind nor any anxious mind could never be survived.

To at least me,  very easy mind must be wanted. Of course easily healed mind's satisfaction needs the done one demanded to heal and give charity and serving to healing one.

And I'm never the one who can be satisfied to the successful one's failure and unfortunate misfotune.

However I'm never be so perfect one neither, I know it so well.

Eventually, no easy fulfilling must be possible at being done to us, so necessarily, after all, only so negative fortune and abstinant positive developing must be normally necessary. That could be so sour and bitterly evaluated reality, but only confessing so is to some extent so honest.

Eventually only possible to recognize so could be necessary, I either say so.

(to be continued)

May.  19th.   2021