At the matter of fact, how we interpret our surviving reality for making it useful to our life, and having ideal and pursuing it could have no essential gap, rather both ideas are at mutually collaborating device, because truly creative collaboration must be gotten at mutual hard struggle.

Anyway, when we personally try to address with something, actually we have also afraid mind or anxiety, or kind of hesitant emotion abstaining from stepping forward, even at having enough convincing around what we do.

Nevertheless, having that mind could never be so negative.

Because nobody could survive without anxiety, worry and uneasy mind.

Uneasiness means probably that having self-confidence could drive our actuated mind, but simultaneously it could have no braking sprinting, thus, some controllable mind either are demanded, consequently having conviction at doing anything or starting new thing means having hesitant emotion toward it, that synchronically mutual contrary things could make no contradiction, never yet, rather these mutually criticizing relevance should be regarded so positive. Because just sprinting absence from consideration could affect our completion.

Then after all, having uneasiness around what we personally do means so much, just with regard, as what we can accomplish at our aiming idealized outcome, we'd have so appropriate job mission with satisfied content, and proper running to the one mission goal.

Really, almost all older ones have either uneasiness, even if they pretend not to have that mind.

In conclusion, for getting our new life phase done so well, the kind of another life we'd have previously tells us that mutually seemed so contradictory and symmetrical both minds and complexed mind with them, at having hope and self-confidence versus negatively association driven worry simultaneously means so much. At the matter of fact, we could never be defined only one creed accompanying straightforward personality, never yet, we all are very ambivalently complexed personality, personally admitting it on ourselves, first we'd get what we should address ourselves to complete suitable running.

Because our mind is anytime questioning to mind and responding to it, at try and error. 

Rather when we have so tough and troublesome process at doing anything, we'd get so fruitful outcome. Because we are presence stepping forward bit by bit at any try and error almost filled with stumbling, very occasionally so smooth running.

(to be continued)

May.  22nd.  2021