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Mind Jihad Makes Us Head for Out of Africa Part1 Requiem and Songs①

Plant tasted behavior is always pretense in hiding all beastly screaming smart.
Her usual stoic behavior anytime intent pretense.


But it is so naturally savage human appearance. Her bodily smarting is so smart.
Coz we’ really never plant just animal, as beasty being, we officially pretend to be honest, obliged to hide it so smartly, its act must be caused from own shyness, Eva’s eating apple in heaven, but we should never forget that its knowing of us by each myself must make reason.


Thus if we lazily neglect seeing its truth, we could easily forget our own mission, coz Lord must have given anybody distinctive it.
We all can never where we are born individually, as selecting before being born, when we are born, selecting age or anything.
Great philosopher Heidegger called its truth Geworhenheit.


However, we where we die, when we die so privately could be chosen, of course even principled it must be prohibited with the idea and ideology of religions.
We each myself, with knowing its candid factual truth, can have convincing idea that just freedom could be accompanied with us so individually, so spontaneously, with its fact, and its cognition, we can deliberate truly meant things around our own mission each of us can have cognition how we can execute our particularly gifted selecting capability as reasonable acts by us in possibility as the gift by Lord.


We’re human-being originally were probably close animals took grouped only for survival, it must have progressed to be our tribal society.
With its cognition, we can deliberate and contemplate truly meant things in terms of individual aspect or group’s it either around our mission.
Ongoing our issues are anytime so urgently instant, only to these, our mentality and interest must be concentrated, thus, media reporting must have no leeway to report all reported matters’ sequel or result, outcome afterward it first occurred.


World without Lord must work and function only according to arbitrarily expediently made idea or sort of temporary or instant deal.
That Lord absent society must move only with human’s discretion, it has lack of moral nor morale.
But that society must make it into never so fair ruled idea managing situation.
Its mind must be compatible with only fiscal issues’ solution, it either is so crucial, only solving it must be incomplete, coz only human carnal idea must bring all people to obey momentary advantageous ideas, but it must be fragilely immediate satisfaction, that sort of society must lose justly struggling to get freedom. Practicing it in executing with our consensus is intrinsic and necessary.


Stagnant atmosphere must be derived with our neglected eyes to every compassionate idea to every issue. Society losing ideological evenness must make it with that trend.
For freedom, never hesitating any struggle must be justice and our reason, of course even with that mind we are all apt to make a trip to all over the world, so unconsciously to meant mission. But with a corner of our mind if we can find some burnt out something, let’s rekindle it and keep it for so long duration as much as possible.
But individually broken hearted of us must reflect any individually belonging group, nation, faction, organization.


However, sometimes social sanction must lose society’s philanthropically motivated pity nor sort of affection.
If somebody has that sort of mind state, nobody could never see that one ‘s individual mind, in addition to it, only publicly admitted or authorized ideas or care would be given, any other individual pain would never be taken it into account, that sort of spot is never so few.
That society must be netted with unseen barrier.
It means that rigorous blockage set only for securing conservative ideas.
Our mind travel, we, unconsciously, must have started to begin in mind of pilgrimage but at a degree it means unconscious vagabond.


But if we find that act in ourselves, we should make it so conscious to our mind. And sometime, it becomes so intentionally perceptive act to us, even if it was never noticed to it first.
What we can see from the beginning must never be so preciously crucial to us, intrinsically.
Eventually it must head for our mind origin, as our each ancestors must have had in their mind, it means absolutely our shared mind home, of course it means not only reasonable but also so savage and roughly done things in try and error so infinitely in repetition.


Of course, it would be relevant with out of Africa, and its first spirit needed in transition never settling hanging about anywhere in no destination, jungles, deserts, or bushes in oasis or so. In addition to it our ancestors were all destined to disperse with each segregated group, thus anybody had only restricted view and idea around own circumstanced situation.
Hence, out of Africa must be the sole shared with all of us with each distinctive context. This meaning must be own home country’s meaning, with the meaning any group is so particularly circumstanced, we all so even, in terms of notional understanding, we could say either so.


Just only chance to go out must have had each distinctive timing and with its factual truth, each distinctive destination must have been given to each ones.
There our ancestors have had own ethnic identity, effectively.
Even if they had no idea to their own destination, they all conclusively settled to own estate, that is human history.
Our brain silently makes it mobilized to keep going on the road to shared sacred place, holy sanctuary must have been found to any group, that factual truth would be so universal.


Originally, it must be so individually present on own mind.
But just as soon as being awoken to it, any our ancestor of us must have had own necessity to struggle around own freedom.
Every group with own circumstance must have had so distinctively unique freedom’s form. Loving emotion must be either unexceptional.
But if we as contemporary citizen feel own sentiment when we suppose these their destiny, everyone must have had another mind around journey, journey means so unsettled reality.


Coz our ancestors no matter group each one was belonging to, anyone must engage in exploitation to another group, at each moment, even with plundering, killing other group ones, we all potentially know it so well implicitly, although we usually are in justified automatically spurred mind unconsciously implanted by social power, half so forcibly, unconsciously we are tempted to own idea, and usually that sort of reflection in mind could never be seen so better to all one except each myself, thus it must be so implicit and never talked.


Everybody pretends to be obedient, making one shown to all the others as social member, hence we are all sleepers to all the others.
That sneaky character or nature must be seen just honesty to national standard.
But when we are never be in working time, our own mind with country home with generosity to all other ones must be derived so easily, our personality must be in pretentiousness and honesty simultaneously, to all the others, coz society must be the field to praise any effective race and battle only for advantage of society.
On holidays, or being in the bed we are usually shouting to own mind in regarding own redemption, many nightmare must be colored with own atonement emotion.
Redemptive potential righteous idea in our mind with memory around our own ancestors’ mind promotes us to listen to music with sad songs or so in midnight either.
Sad songs must be listened to all our ancestors either with reason to soothe their exhausted mind caused from so tough struggle or battle at fields.


Listening to them, many of us must be noticed to far sounding to each one’s mind with their ancestors’ screaming and shout to the skies, forests, or sea in the ocean or either to their mind.
It must have meant either the requiem characterized to moan to their soldier pals or enemy sided ones in bilateral relation.
So, when we listen to sad songs or elegy, our mind unconsciously need an emancipation from bound nightmare in midnight wanting to get so deepened sleep so individually. Coz we all truly know own sin at daytime in work or society, even if so completely unconsciously.
Thus, we sometimes impulsively want to listen to sad songs or elegy even in midnight.
It must mean our potentially holding mind to moan to all departed as not only fellow soldiers but also enemy soldiers.
Even if seen so enjoyably vivid songs are either for that effect.


Thereby, when we listen to all these sentimental songs, we can know that private state to listen to them reminds us of scapegoat one at last moment, even if we’ve never seen these spectacles or spots so actually.
To all ultimately scapegoat one’s life with general citizens, when we listen to so impressive music tunes and songs, we make our mind reminiscent to our own idea once we privately held in own past.


That must be unconscious demand to derive our own requiem so privately.
All great songs have souls with the moment when all ones died, that must be correct, melody itself has that sort of character.


Where have your souls gadded about, still now?


How long have you felt that sort of it for long periods of time?


We’re all surviving only with subjective mind and idea.
Even if we think we privately are so careful to all the others.
What sort of destination does your mind assume when you hang around anywhere ?
For listening to it, we might have substituted our own making sad songs for listening to your original gentle-minded scream and make up for lost own minds and recover our will to the future.


How could you tell us your true mind around listening to my story?


You must answer my question another day in my future, I call my mind to convince it so exactly.
All of wounded ones to death of you in screaming, I feel so exactly heard from you.


Who sacrifice you to death, and how do you feel around my suggestion?


How did these sacrificers justify them in their acts?


Possibly, you despise an opportunistic behavior in doing hegemonic race’s victorious desire so instinctively in tradeoff of commerce’s advantage, don’t you?


And you had to know that all human groups just first dispersed with original home of Africa, as starting location and any group had each gapped timing to go out from Africa, all problematic issues were just caused from its truth.
Thus, if you listen to my saying, please take your ears to be directed to my mind voice ! And please make me listen to your true mind, all sacrificed ones for us!
(to be continued)
(Sep 23-29th Oct 2nd,4th, Nov28th.)