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Sentence Work Stance Part4 / People’s Relevance Part2 / As being Myself is Fantasy Part1

〇When I make sentence masterpiece of some genre e. g. poem with each distinct mood and emotion for making sentence of essay or poem content or chain, I gradually get unknown toward myself which is the true myself.
Actually true myself is none. At the same time there’s never fake myself, rather I can say that all different myself with own mood and emotion is each true mind, and either all pretending, but all are never lie, but neither genuinely only true mind.


From the beginning both things are nowhere, there are completely absent words so essentially, coz their words true and fake are completely absent from our mind’s mood and emotion, our own them anytime stand by as completely differentiated dimensional somewhat.


〇Building sentence means creation of somewhat different from myself, writing sentence means showing different thing to myself, there’s none of myself. From the beginning, myself thing is becoming never so important. Words itself is already completely public, expressing myself with words is contradictory. Myself is completely fantasy. People all survive in other person to all really other ones.


〇If there’s genuinely true myself in world, the one who understands it is just only my mind.
Because myself is just the other person for anyone but myself. Thus, originally myself is never valuable. Acting of myself means socially at this time, at only sleeping time, we all are just only myself as if Billie Eilish sings “When the Party’s over”.


〇Idea had by myself must stay away from myself as my body and my spirit with brain thinking in emitted sound of my voice or words pronunciation made by my throat, tongue, breath or written words or so.
If there’s myself, it means never showing any idea to anyone, being myself means only never involving society. People means erasing myself among people as the presence of another one toward myself, then having an idea means becoming other one from myself.
Since the moment we have an idea, we make own myself public. Essentially, we figure out us.
As its proof, logic does never include any myself as so privately and personally meant it.
Then, myself means never surviving without logic, surviving means we are with consistently logic in our mind and brain.


〇Poem does never mean writing myself. Content poets write and their myself are mutually irrelevant. Rather poetry means pursuit only of objectivity. Rather writing novel as fiction can express myself, so visibly. In all genre of sentence, poetry is the most objective, proses or papers can show myself of write so outstandingly remarkably. Thus eventually poetry means actually pursuit of only logic. Novel depends on rather pursuit of myself as view to the world and society, with human.


〇Myself as base in society means erasing myself.
In spite of it, for any other one except myself, its myself just only means one of the others for each of them. In conclusion we can deduce that surviving myself means surviving as the other one so logically toward our mind coz our mind content is the sole thing each oneself can know, but acting and behaving are different from it, they are constantly shown to anybody except when we alone e. g. walk around small unknown mountain road, and only shown posture and act are just publicly meant myself, thus all myself is just public in society, although we all are never known that we truly are seen so as it is coz we are just able to see other ones’ posture and act so objectively we are unknown only our publicly seen to us by ourselves. And anybody can look at and observe only all the other ones except own myself, so objectively and see them all objectively means that eventually perception means only logically understanding to anything.
Although either toward us as own oneself as myself, we try to regard it as objective presence in world or society so publicly, it means introspection to our own acts acted in our own past.
Either our own emotion or subjective acts are one of objective perceptive object for us.
Perceptive judging means so logically all things includes our own subjective emotion and feeling, substituting another thing to own thing subjectively felt by own myself, in other words, we habitually try to read our subjective all things we only privately can know but no one but own us could never know, it means introspective reflective perception as substitution even all immanent internally intrinsic things to externally extrinsic things.


〇Words, language, vocabulary are all logically objective. There’s no subjectivity in them.
Subject exists only in our own action as analyzed past motivation immanently. Action must be accompanied with our own motivated emotion and feeling only performer as us can know.
Because now that explanation is objectiveness, in idea originally subjective characterized things does never exist. Just only cause or reason to make idea consists in subjectivity. People are so subjective when they make up mind to do something as an act. And so personally our body’s feeling when we act consists in our memory with tangible understood only by us as performer or actor, but it’s not to mental, thus this memory must be forgotten soon after done.
In addition to it, our acts themselves are seen so arbitrarily even toward our own personal them so objectively afterward except when we do presently as real time in feeling.


In other words, in terms of body sensation, it means so subjective but in reminiscence we can grasp them all so objectively and understand them as socially arbitrary objective act in us as social fact even toward us as myself, just only what we privately felt or thought at the moment is another, but its thing could never be confessed so publicly somebody except us asks us so privately so reasonably. That thing is so exceptional.


Thus, in conclusion, usually almost all acts by us are so public although all things could be done by our own myself, eventually all acts are never so private, particular when they are mentioned afterward as past factual acts of us.


Then, after all our own myself is almost equal to fantasy.
People survive them as the other one so called just officially myself, and even myself is completely meant so publicly.


〇From the beginning, our own body is the first other person, to our own mind. Coz it makes us feel in no hope nor wish, so feels so good, pleased with own sensation in no relevance to our mind request or so painful uncomfortably against our wish or hope to own body. Being easy or painful are never decided our mind. It is dependent on only body’s condition, of course it must be relevant with our mind mentality and spirit, met felt thing is never decided by our own mind, mind is another one to body for us.


All sensation in body is never be controlled by our mind or will with hope or wish, irrelevantly physical sensation must be set previously to us.
Even if we have hope and wish toward body condition, its thing could never control whole body condition, e.g. chilly or hot as skin sensation either.
All felt them are beforehand our mind request as hope and wish, it’s so analytical, deductive and a-pri-o-ri.
Never yet, when we get to be in adolescence, even our own heart and mind are just like the other person’s it either. It often arbitrarily likes one different sex person, or adoring, all these are never our own control nor order, command by our will, subjective scheduling by ourselves, all are so out of the blue, otherwise so unexpected cloud nine either when we can get so pleased emotion and feeling to it.
Simultaneously, hating particular the one whose behavior or claiming to public or to us so privately could be seen even so correct and just so objectively by our reasonable mind judging. We can never stop hating emotion so easily. In other words, even our will or emotion in our own mind is either the just other person.
We can easily hate even the one who is seen right, correct by our reason. Namely we can never control even our own mind, so easily.


Conclusion: To our mind, the first person is our own body, and to anybody, the first other person is our own mind. And these two things are essentially inseparable together, but simultaneously we can confirm either that these things are each independent to each other, body and mind as emotional base must be divided mutually so easily as our understanding to them all in an order as knowledgeably cognitive to our mind’s reason as so objective thinking.
With these evidences, we can see that mind understanding or sympathizing and body them all in gasped relevance, either. E. g. we only to the one who enchants us so spiritually, our body could never react probably other reason must be present in our reality, so joyful feeling to close fellows and so respectful one as spiritual adoring is obviously different.
(Mar. 24, 25, 26th. 2020)