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We All are Given Only on Forward to Future

We all could never return to our own past, coz ever felt time is so few, we all are given only on forward to future, even a few moments after we know we will die.


Tough a minutes ago, I felt some pain in my body, its thing is never so serious, now I feel nothing, that thing must evidence that all so tiny memory would disappear soon, and eventually we are anytime in now consciousness and only though it, we feel everything, of course, memory thing must exist, but even it is drawn by now sensation, if now feeling it was never present, either memory to the past was seemed so ambiguous to us as sensation, in other words, all memory content is called by now feeling thing.


But all these things in our life make us tense and noticed consciousness to all matters around us, its truth does never give us any room to demur its now leading changing thing around our life, coz if we are anytime in only remembering only past thing, we could never do anything and any hope nor wish could never be composed.


We all just are real time reactors in directing our consciousness only to the future, and its future thing must be regarded by us only at the view that this future thing is shared to anybody except own myself it must never be present only for each oneself, anybody could get and welcome, that thing is absolute condition, then we can follow anytime time’s shifting and changing date or so.


We all always in no having rest eat newly coming now just a few minutes ago it was, making it now and just making few second ago what we feel past, and with these conscious switching, we can perceive the time’s running.


And its duration is never shredding itself and next to next, running must go on and we are anytime naturally riding on it so smoothly, hence if we feel we can never do so, its emotion must be caused from our obsessive frightened somewhat we can be in extreme anxiety or past so distressed thing’s drawing flashback or so.


For accepting these chain shifting from now to past, future to now, in no room nor no power to refuse all these process, we can never refuse all transiting time’s running, only it we can look at everything, observing anything and witness all processive going to the conclusion.
We all at each moment unconsciously kill so tiny memory positively having an effort to forget so many things, coz if we would learn by heart all tiny things in our memory, our mind must be managed by all memorized tiny things and we could never be perceived any now going matter, now watching consciousness in our mind.


Eventually, we have no room nor need to remember so small things so all, so we just look over, can do it so naturally, on forward to future from now as next moment, we can regard a process we can stay at a while to far future, and at somewhere in our mind, consciously we are cutting every time’s running step next to next so disconnectedly in throwing all few earlier now away from our mind’s focus as unnecessary things in a view all these are the things which should be forgotten from our mind.
Certainly we can remember them all in never so further passed things, but if we could never accept all next coming now as just little bit earlier close future they were, and with the consciousness, we can have some sensation to be positioned at now we all share as the public criteria’s so important component and we can have a consciousness as one time riding member of us so personally as one person identified in society, namely if we could never have that consciousness, we could never have consciousness and sensation to be a social member, in other words, time’s perception means our necessary synchronicity we naturally need and must be integral to see own our myself as one person in society. This synchronicity is so critically grave perception for all of us. In it we can remember all tint things a few moments ago occurred in front of our own eyes, that consciousness must be held in our own mind.


If we are aged so much, individually and personally, the quantity to be remembered would expand and many reminiscent moments would frequently comes to us, though we can never go back to any close past, and it must evidence that even if we can remember even so tiny things we’ve seen in past, all these things could be only important things at a rate somewhat relevant to now concern thing, the matter occurred at few moment ago, except so impressive things, we can remember all what was never so irrelevant to now things. Thus we have own capably organ and consciousness to forget all unnecessary things so autonomously in having no consciousness, in other words our consciousness has the ability to be noticed to only things with relevance to now as focused matter, and other all things would be spoiled so intentionally except so remarkably outstanding change, if we remember all things so evenly we could never remember all so comprehensively from our own mind, just coz our organ can never learn them all by our heart, we can remember only all necessary things from past matters with our brain.


In these relevant chains’ consciousness, we can have factually our own identification as time running’s attendant.


In other words, selecting only important things from past and we can remember all, in its truth our human thing’s identity’s character, that character consists of human condition.
And consistently future thing anytime in no ceasing, thrusts or points us directing us only to future and its coming in our consciousness, in forcing us conscious toward all changing matter as so phenomenal characterized, and anytime our consciousness follows to next moment so expectedly regarding it as soon coming thing, if that capable consciousness was absent, if we look at any animating images, we can never be cognitive to all transiting image’s meaning, namely just because we can know all changing’s meaning means vanishing something is equal to never appearing ever must come to us switching ever existing thing, namely one appearing must mean ever existing thing’s disappearance, as vanished and deleted from the spot, that perception makes us perceive all changing thing’s meaning and we can regard them all as so natural phenomenon, if that capability was absent from our organ and body, mind, we could never comprehend all changing things in world.


Hence, at a degree, we can define us as some sort of time’s slave, coz time’s cognition of us makes us understand all shifting things and regard them all so natural phenomenon. Its factual truth means that we all are necessarily and inborn missioned as so smart and cleverly wiser forgetter to all unnecessary disappearing things in focusing only important things occurred in past with our rationally functioned memory, and it works along with our brain’s autonomous namely so unconscious to us, order or command, in other words, if these things was present according only to our logical understanding, our all perception includes affordance or so must never functioned, namely that process is done so immediately making us never be noticed at its process, we just can be perceived only with already changing things from past to now or so.
Eventually we can define that we all are autonomously controlled with our own perception necessarily and so naturally guided with being noticed only to so noticeable matters neglecting all the other unnecessarily matters, and it means that we are taken advantage only made to be consciously to future as the most held propositional attentional thing to us as only its thing could be allowed to pay attention coz only it must be common shared to anybody because all past things passed ever would be really share to anybody, coz they all are present only in our personal mind, thus anytime we are forced to be attentional only to the future, for its meeting only now is contributed to our consciousness and exploited to society itself coz all social group must be military hierarchy presence coz it is composed with organizational classified order, thus when we make our consciousness to the past, only publicly recorded matters are regarded as integral, coz other things are belonging to only personal memory items. Thus, in conclusion, reminiscence only must be personal mind working and its content must be only personal and nostalgic emotion is never formally credible only belonging to personal emotion. Thus, ordinarily at all works, remembering mental activity must be exploited only to group’s profit, and all individual impression and memory around past things are anytime seen so subjective and unnecessarily around socially common shared time’s run. Eventually remembering so individual memorable things are reminded only at holiday or so to us.
Conclusively we all are mobilized to own work and its time must be devoted only to society’s whole advantage, thus remembering mind thing must be restricted only to what we all can make it so useful.
Thus, we all are so trained smart forgetter so officially, and that truth must deduce that just coz of it, we can have so privately own memory and impression externally to recorded items and date credit or so.


We all are never be allowed to remember any unnecessary things we personally have met in past, these things must be the personal things for each member and in premise never regard them as unnecessary, we all are mobilized at work so individually and needed to be a so wiser and smarter forgetter to past thing and only noticeable to the future for all of us as the sole publicly meant and significant item for human society.
But being a good forgetter of us means immanently anybody is simultaneously so persistent reminder to past things e.g. so slandered by some ones around never so smart job practicing or so. Never in meaning to have resentment either so positive things we meet at work by chance must be either the example contrary side of our officially superior forgetter as so romantic or so sentimental reminder to ourselves, we could say, that is our true reality for any individual person.


Only restricted remembered things must complete our own memory and it must have gap to all recorded and analyzed factual truth to the all past, namely only officially recorded facts must become the official history to us as legacy of us, as in the premise all personal impressions should be neglected to society itself and smart social citizens are just only smart forgetters and never so ones are outcasts, as they only are favorable to spend reminiscent habitual life to produce nothing but literature or sort of sighing, coz when we remember only so humiliated contents of us, we make us unconsciously loser or defeater, when we remember so honorable contents of us, we make us unconsciously the victor as smart forgetter, that is so necessary social mental tacit rule for our mind.
Eventually society itself as the thing so personal person get togethers mutually and they make so spontaneously would regard personally learnt by heart matters toward what occurs in past as so personal, coz all these are just exist in individual memory which are seen personally impressive, thus society must see them so things never made use of doing in future in public meaning, that so rational arbitration must be made so often in society coz it is just commonly public organization and it can only have an aim to future and only for it all past things could be reviewed. Those decision must be anytime so speedily done then so necessarily these acting are so compulsively done so officially, but at setting these publicity all participants are subjectively attempting deleting and neglecting all personally remembered thing, it means our society’s character so necessarily and we very naturally do it. Coz we know we are all so mortal, thus making our own private time so precious, all publicly done workings are necessarily demanded as so rationally summarized in no inserting any private memorized things, that is our true consensus in society, thereby any member could do the same idea and have an act and behavior toward public meant job and recording. And its acting propensity induces it as characterized rationalized military thing if we admit all so rational economizing need to have time’s shortcut. This would be so general society’s organized group mentality, in no border, universally circulated tacit rule for human-being.


Public mission feeling is caused from our hope to make our personal things hidden to mind, thus any social judging is apt to be military order, as if any construction spot is so.


That is almost all about relevance between publicity and privacy to us. And unexpectedly out own personal time must never be provided to us, so free time is accelerated to be so personal according to the work’s environment which must be so rationalized, as done degree, then all free time’s spending way gets becoming to be powerfully consumptive, that is the character of ordinary capitalism society’s individual activity. And its character must be secured with the principle only building everything could be devoted to our descendants only for it, any arbitration must be allowed with background of social value founding. For realizing it, any personal remembered facts only for any individual must be apt to be spoiled so plainly, that appearance is in no questioning toward its evaluation, so ordinary prospect or aspect we can easily confirm.
In this reality, very skillful forgetter is regarded so superior social member by many members. And all these phenomenal social acting’s tendency must originate in the truth that only to future, all better forgetting skill could be seen so positive and society must provide us a mission given only on forward to the future of us at any time in no questioned to particular epoch, era or so, that endless repetition only would be remained everlastingly, we can suppose so further future for us as our far descendants’ building society. At this meaning, we all are all commonplace runners in symmetric freedom stolen time transition!
(Apr. 14,15th. 2020)