Listening to raindrop noise, there appears a landscape so abruptly so clearly in my brain.
But it only at a few second sprints in my brain, next moment slips away from my mind, I can’t remember its appearance in my mind again.

Of course, I need not to remember each thing in near past or not far past to me, for now.

Yesterday, I walked around street in my residential vicinity walking people were so sparse, for solving staying at home fatigue in long time physically and mentally, at the time I remembered each place around what visited ever, sometimes habitually, but after coming back home, I instantly forgot all aspect I’d watched at the spots and all could never be remembered again, about that.

Though if I go to these places, I could remember each of them so immediately.

At the same place, sunny days there and rainy days there are each distinctly giving separated impression either to me, as if at the same person, the one must have so happy moment and very bad temper moment with each entirely different expression.

Memory is set properly according to each momentary impression, thus if I visit the same place, what each time I witness is any chance so distinctively and that mind is memorized to me.

Thereby, either each landscape has own face, expression even as to say emotional somewhat must exist, at each moment.

Each moment, I don’t want to accept all aspect I can receive from landscape on the spot, but each distinct impression must be engraved to my mind, even it once was forgotten until I visit there again.

As I wasn’t visiting the same place, that obviously each different impression must have never been resurrected afterward, coz our mind is anytime never so the same feeling to all things around us.

Because even landscape does never mean only whereabout. At the same location it consistently changes by itself with each distinct weather, climate, temperature, moisture, humidity, sunbeam degree in infinite expressions, and that reacting must give us each different reading or interpreting its landscape’s character, as expression of spot itself with impact of all conditions, and these factors and effective impact was explicated or sort of felt in assuming to these could be sustained by our own life stance, behavior, or manner and act.

Though that changeable impression around the same landscape never knows at coming future.
Possibly in my absence from there, that place’s meaning could be switched so entirely to me.

Somewhat exists at where I did ever visit was transformed in destruction of building or facility and ever seen all landscape would be removed, or on the contrary, another thing was added to be built or so at a location ever was empty. That blanc could be discovery to me at these landscapes at the time I can confirm its change. But about a world I was belonging to with my perception and cognition to these aspects, now situation when I visit there after long period would be shifted to another it, I know some obvious change in now distanced state to the past it, to my emotion, completely different impact would be done to me, so clearly.

Made distance to me at one landscape when I confirm at the location from my blanc never visiting there makes me feel so long period so mentally and spiritually. It seems similar to our past beforehand of now virus crisis and now situation in time character difference.

But landscape I visit and look over is not relevant with my responsibility in society, thus I’m guided with assorted imagination, in other words, my impression to difference between past and now at one located landscape depends on my mind to be as manner and behavioral attitude to external space to me as social meaning.

What gap between past and now can reproduce is imaginarily stirred up in mind wanting to connect with world as my stance to externally contacting with my body and either an emotion wanting to forget past what past memory tires to blow my desire away to be cognitive just for now situated impression, both mutually very different meant things, though in terms of reminiscence mutually relevant, but simultaneously mutually reaction as being against to each other, but possibly, eventually I conclude that being alive, surviving my life means coming across these contrary minds mutually appearing in turn to me, that’s my life’s reality in terms of mind philosophy characterized with social philosophy.
(Apr. 27. 28th. 2020)

Memo: Zone I sometimes walk is filled with fields and other natural resources a little distance from train station, arcade of shops and bars, logistic warehouses and laboratories, institutes, or so, thus that area has only so sparsely walking ones, only what I can look over as landscape is working farmers at their fields, trucks and cars passing over the street. Then, if I don’t move three or four days continuously, I could never write long sentence in my room, then eventually I try to do so one three or four days, for getting my stamina, I walk wearing mask doubled and glove evading anyone walking down the street or so.