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Sea of Woman Part4 Swimming in Sea of Woman③

The first woman whom I hold in my armes with streadily love to a different sex person was named Sumire, but my impression about the intercourse with her must give me a realization that her response to me as the one to be different sex one to her was the same to any other women who are raised only by the world real truth that any male sex person’s being was never known to them and any male one’s absent infantile and adolescent days of them, and only its realiy was the natural one for all of women in this world, what I’d gotten at this world was the my experience to get to know only its strange fact was the sple natural truth in this world.
Eventually, but I got to be in an emotion never forget any matters about that girl’s meeting to me, only it got to be never unforgettable to me, after all even that I experienced so many meetings to any other women with steady body relation
except meeting to her, afterward I met her, only she’d never leave from my brain.
In this world I warped to stay in actually suddenly, my impression since I was staying in the world about the different sex person in my palpitating emotion was a little bit seen similar to me to my or to say our world in so old ages I was in originally for now me, it could also another world, coz only I was shfted into here world, despite of that this world is completely different from my original world, when I met her Sumire at the first chance. That was my true mind.


However, this world had no man except me, I was never treated to be natural monument as discovered and captured by the national officers as animal or so, in no suffering, fortunately, then with its previledge, I continued to hols so many numbers of women into bed as if they were just prostitutes, only with cheaper spending to her, I went to the motels so often in those days.


But after a few days, I suddenly got to be in so empty feeling to my routine habit in those days myself, at those days, I have also a feeling to have a privilledge only I had in this world as coming to this world with warped travel.
But those days, I had no idea what this world’s motel was used by any one, and as if I was just a fossile as the remained original formed one but it could never be collapsed by anybody, just only it was the truth, I even thought so, either.
And moreover, I was never having any mind generosity to myself as witnessing so carefully to my actuality and reality until the days after coming to the world must never had by myself, neither, those days.


I was never regarding my only gal pal who was named Sumire who was the first steady lover to me was never seen to me so sexual than other any woman, of course any woman was never always with her womanish name, however, I was never forgetting her presence in my mind, she was utterly never different any other women as if being prostitute, with piling up the chances to meet mutually, as the sole one whom I loved so many times, sometimes I had a sexual intercpourse, but also the chance only to watch the movies a day long togrther in cinema complex theatre with no sex, only spending the restaurant having breakfat, lunch, and dinner, either.


Necessarily, those cases were completely absent toward any other women I met by chance until I was switched to stay here world, especially toward the prostitutes I bought impulsively.
That kind of role, I did never need to her, and it was awaked a long afterward of my life, I arbitrarily thought that simply the women I bought as prostitutes was the same to the ones who were in my original world, so long long days passing, I got to be awaked only that it was completely misunderstanding


“To me, it was so necessary, but I watched the man for the first time when I met you, in so ancient days, as what we lost as the exterminated ones as the different sext to us, I got to be assured of it, I was so flabbergasted so much to see you the man, when I met you.
But you did never inject your it into my own one. Possibly we are no longer able to give a birth to our own child, namely that ability we are no longer preserved as degenerated instinct or physiolosic ability, even it was true, but I wanted to try my it either. Coz if I was do so well, I would become the first challenger in all of us, as historical matter to be survived at the far future in the world.
In other words, I even if I was excuted by government, though was eager to want challenge to its ability with my body, thus, even from now on, if you are changing your mind, try me, so easily.
I always standing by your temptation, waiting for that moment from you.”
“Even so, what you emitted from your body was so warmer and made me so relaxed. I was in an emotion to be pleasured with my lifetime spending was never so futile to me at that moment.
Thereby, in your origilal world you used to be staying, that matter must had meant to be pleasured, so fascinatingly better feeling, mustn’t it? What a so strange I’ve experienced with you.
Coz in our world anybody could have spent those empty lifetimes in no holding that kind of feeling.
I got a so strange feeling, if you injected your it into my one, I would make your own itn indwell in my body for ten months and 10days long, and new life would be raised in me. It must be so pretty and beloved to me.”
Listening to her that speech to me, I not only understood her saying meaning, but also was tangible to be especial hornily smart in my body making myself to hold her body tightly responding my underbody’s hotness.
Then she was vigilant to watch my center position of my underbody and trying to make me relaxed in her carefulness to my body obvious change, and she conclusively started to toy with and rub my vertically hardened one with her hands so gently.
I losing my reason said to her,
“Don’t do this to me, you are the first person to meet to me in sympathizing emotion in this world, coz of it, I do never want to make you to be excuted by this world law in tough reglation. I can do is by myself, stop it, I would be going to never put up with its reason suppressing to myself!”
Near coming to shout and if I was in the world as original one, her lips I must had rob her of, and overturn her body and make my hardened thing inserting to her it, invoking my reason so desperately and make my attitude and behavior to her so official and only with it, I tried to contact her.
I’d never held that emotion as being enthusiastically craving for her body except at that time, ever even once even in original my world neither.
Coz I desperately suppressed my desire coming near ejaculating, then I started to hold unnecessary stress.
Originally, I wanted to stay with her for a long time but this world in completely different order to our original world, then if I was spending with rare bodily woman, I came near dashing in my original world common sense, I made up my mind never to see her again.


And if someone was noticed to that I always deal with solution of my sexual desire, my future life must never be guaranteed to be safe, then I started to never think about that kind of mattes in my lifetime, desperately oppressing all those desire in my days.
Therefore, when I sleep at night, if I was tangible to be expanded naturally in my thing, remembering women in my dreams and take tissue papers with one grip and make my face contact to the bed with comforter for killing my yelling voice, and simultaneously I made also my hardened it to them and dispose everything, that habit was set in my routen work.
Then since those dats, I was getting to be unable to watch that woman’s eyes directly, then for never having especial emotion to her, I made up my mind never see only her again.
Yes, she was. Sumire was the different to any other women except her, it is still now the truth to even now me.


In conclusion, only Sumire was the exceptional one comparatively to any other ones whom I regared them as just the object to utilize their body for only pleasureing, mentally, spiritually, and also bodily, Sumire was perfectly exceptional one in this world, so surely, to me


(to be continued)
(Dec. 8, 9, and translated from original Japanese into English one at Dec. 28. 2018)


(First, upped at another blog examplewordpresscom 1616 at Dec.28th. 2018)