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Sleeper’s Shelter / We all are Powerless Part1 Deviant Trials Only Creation of Leisure Permitted to Us

If we try to hide so desperately on the contrary contraproductively erupting thing is our true mind, but it either could be empty if we try to confess all so plainly not leaving anything in mind. Then our mind as true aspect must be to some extent so illusionisitc and at anotgher interpretation it must be so neccesary, then we could never fix that definition so clearly and defiantly. 


Then, necessarily we all are unconsciously taking so personal diffusing method and amusing our mind so subconsciously even at work or job doing time. Then its thing from the beginning either has changing mind from holidy's amusement at finishing with empty feeling and entire impression no matter what we enjoyed. One our mentality means so obediently following age trend and make accord to these all movements, on the other hand we want so deviant way for making us so satisified at unexpected outcome getting after expiration not only at holiday leisure time and working time. In other words, both at on days of working and free time at holidys or so, we usually subconsciously discern each moment and each item we address with both so honestly fighting and very amusing us in entertainment mode and so relaxed emotion, we cold dare to opting at each occasion, very naturally we can swtich these discernement in option at every single day.


Assimilating Effort ⇨Amusing our mentality and emotion both at Working time and Holidays and Free time


Deviant Desire to Destructing Stressful Mentality ⇨ Both at Working time and Holidays and Free time  


Our acting mode could be pioneered by our midset and iterlation between so obedient following consciousness and cery radically defiantly executinf destructively anarchy method applying in turn and mutually progressed condition we coud easily get on mind at discivering each method so effectively.


Nevertheless, both at assimilating sensitivity or sensible harmonizing, we usually very smartly discern each specific interlocking reality at contemporary socially infra-structural updating and upgrading in really embodies reality of us. 
In other words, out half pbliged and half so spontaneous effort to assimilate us with social interlocking in reality makes our counterproductive desire in reality and iIt is counterproductive to create defiance, so necessarily in terms of our sensitivity in switching mode and favorite things in option or so.


E.g. music thing could promote an effect to ease stressful mind and emotion, but both so hard speedily running tempo music tunes and very slow tempo it could be heard in turn. Like these any choice as mentally motivated option could be at so combined nature of both asymmetric combination. 
Even if we look around our own idea about nowadays world trend and topical subjects, at holding views so persdonally, we to each case only subjective view could be possible at owning in mind, even if any opinion or so could be heard to our ears and brain so individually. Eventually how we should economize our consuming activity and deal with so effective financing in daily necessity. Certainly so many heard information around good deal aropund shopping and financing, in terms of politics, economics and any other subject, we could have only so subjective opinion and impressive emotion. Then necessarily, at listening to music, we need both healed mind by listening act, and stimulated mind with option to be heard od exciting hard rhythemic them. Destructive charm or mantra effective selection and gentle lullaby or so in turn in complicated modus ponens and motivation subconsiousness drives us to do so. 


Assimilation in effort drives us have deviant desire from all social regulation in mind. Probalby both perfction in embodying assimilation and deviation could never be completed to anybody, thus we in turn almost physiolosically make both objective act at listening music tunes with favorite songs sung by our idol singers or so and playing at game shooting soft or so in amusing us at free time.


Probalby these our serially and subconsciously done mindset and really practiced actings could gather so necessariyl in social aspect, that could be made of social trand and each mode and habitural trend could be at circulation and popularization at being embodies state visibly and iterpretvively at words information or so at heard news content and age necessarily needing information. We all are accomplice to make these interlocking in society and community in world. That all totalized phenomenon creates newly updated game softs and its spreading reality. 


Then, substantially we could never distinguish between so obvious object and vague it, so conscious choice or option and so unconscious it, or very intentional assimilating effort and just autonosmously guided it, very demanding healed necessity and unconsciously dirive it. Any switchable mind turning could be amvibalent mutually and both  elements could be combined together, we could say, and each border is substentially none.


Then, at each mode changing and switching, our unconscious social trtend following it and not so at so tough resistance toward all mode trend together. For making smooth running of everyday routine works and easing stress from mind at holidays or so are mutually blenmded and combined at our consciousness, even if we set obvious discerning at each occasion in mind. 
Then, necessarily our mind holding sensitivity  could normal routine and deviant challeging try and error must be naturally composed so unconsciouly at every single day.


But very occasionally, so aggressively violent expression, we have a time to pursue it in a paroxysmal manner. Very cruely discribed action and violent movie appreciation could be necessary, the kind of occasion must come to our daily life. Then its internally necessary awakening is hardly be so conscioius to us as very clearly interpreted with notional understanding, it must be done so instinctively and physdiolosically in mind.
Thus, of course very romantic tasty songs and movies appreciation could be neturally necessary at usual mind, we generally could say to our own life, but accidentally very hardboiled mind needing erupts out of the blue to our mind.


Normally boys and gals in romantic comedy and love romance or so could be rejected at our mind so necessarily and even wanting to watcxh so miserably cruel and pitiless murder and shooting scenes could be fit for our mentality, that moments' us as our mind aspect is so specifically sadistic to anything  but even that tasty could be premitted at watching movies or so as hobby levelled dimension. 


Eventually life thing could be like a short novel at one day, every single day we could pretend to be an actor or actress at one movie story so personally internally on our mind. When I walk around my fovorite vicinity at holoday, I have a mind to play a role my fovorite actor was playing at the movie I appreciated those days in my youth ages.


Nevertheless, acturally we could never realize those days' our own hero playing movie's taste, ours are almost more awkward than these movies' desctibing images and contents. We adore alll their very beautifully played performance but that could never so easy to do, reproducing more so unskillful aspect, that gap makes us laugh about own acting. 
If you have mind's ood space at daily life, you might creative challenging so strange words linkages or so at joking and disorderly violent movies scenes could be picutured at our mind so favorably. These trials are all so half intentionally done and half so autonomously come under to our mind's bottom parts so suddenly.


And when we perceive those emprically realized minds, we should not suppress so daringly to stop so morally, that must be only internal mind's mood or sensitive mode or so. Then at the moment, we should not obey formalized social procedure practicing moments' modes and rather we should cry out to the air silently "Fucking bery all so offical acting and so dligently honest myself!", then, all so pretentiously concting justice and mentioned debate subjects or so, fucking exclude from your mind! That screaming even is needed at that moment, so positively.
Get these all so not realistic flattery or tricky better words abandonned from your mind!
And throw away all of your not true thought ideas all so plainly from your dutiful mind!
Otherwise, you might shout so dirty slung words at a stretch! As much as so bigger voice but at so completedly soundproof installed room as shielded space at the building or so.


Sometimes, you might get so phantasm on your mind, you know! Because otherwise, you either would be fired so out of the blue by your presicent. For getting screaming those  imaginary strange words and making utterance with these stories, you should discover your own space at mountainous zones and deep forests nobody could approach, of course at the best conditioned sage weather day. 


Even if you are at so formally earnest job usually, moreover you need some radical change at your free time for solving tense and exhausted mind with stressful job duty or so. At that time you should create so destructive character on yourself so intentionally so effectively!


At the matter of fact, we need having so sharable mind's reality at diffusing object in doing and imagining so destructive fantsy so positively! That devise of amusing our worn mentality could make us renewed spirit and better idea around next phased creation to own life as reality and mentality. And that trial could make linkage at all sleepers in society so naturally, I suppose so.


Bring your all bogus just idea to graveyard! At so tightly shielded space or room in  buildings, occasionally turn on the radio with requested songs on air, with maximal volume andf synchronically turn on TV's e.g. online shopping programs or so or weather reports' announcers' voice at hard volume, or sports competition real time broadcasting program simultaneously heard environment, we dare to creating so intentionally for breaking so all stressed mind and fixed nerves. And dance darelingly to harmonize all these noise making so strange beat and rhythme so arbitrarily as you like!


Sing along them riding on so extremely noisy environment! With anarchy ad-lib words and lyrics impulsively you might create at the moment accoding to your emotional mood! And screeam so maximally loudly with the fucking dirty words, "Ass hole! Motherfucker!"


if it is so limited seen to you, temporarily you need mentally so wise using of medication!


If you are so cleverly stiff guy, that trial could be permissive to practice at so secret place, you know! Sometimes you need so boldly challenging act at shielded space e.g. once a month.


Wipe all your inner indwelling solidly stone head and all fastidious ofifcial nature from your mind so completely! Cleanse all your busy days' accumulating extremely conservative badly impressive ideas at your mind bottom as so sneaky establishing desire!


if you take only so conventionally commonplace methods so meticulously at your work with your fellows, that only so lazily formal cycle should be eliminated and you should replace it with another more creative idea, you know! Give its abusing so lasy life mode up from your fixed stereotyped mind!


For making the renewed reality of you, you need and you are given either so demolishing ideas at your leisure time, so secretly and so personally! Of course at so permissible range at your life reality! At that occasion, you positively should be champ at your picturing movie in your mind!


In Freedom  Respecting country, at fifle range, you can shoot targeting your daily facing disgusting superior boss's enlarged photographs, but if you are diffrent country one, you should take a stick or stone instead of gun.


Please, be so smart at inserting so easy amusement in your very nervous busy days!


I wish your good application for diffusing all your tense reality and mentality made by it!


(to be continued)



Mar. 30th.   2021