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Golden Clouds Reflecting Deep Blue Comfort

I everyday wait for you even if you’d never come home again, I’d do everlastingly, you know, at the residence you left me built at cliff hem, everyday, I look down over flickering ocean deep blue originally so durably reflecting golden clouds at evening-glow, that orange tasty golden clouds has gone away to further land now you’ve been stayed, my settling white residence reflects these either and that lime surface with reflection of these in transparent visibly observable faint shady all attracts my loneliness.


And these pull my eyes to associate them with so lonely myself, I just picture your all indwelling with my mind. With my loneliness at my heart which must be filled with my own physically present all in constantly smoking embers together with persistently never extinguished your heat through your skin and meat, these memories of my mind and body makes me scarsely deleting my mind empty.


At the matter of fact, I anytime picturing your all try to sooth my mind using everything either for satisfying me of addiction to remembering your aspects, and these tools for getting the identical pleasured sensing rather reminds me of those days all, and eventually my emptiness must be stirred up so lasting for so long time.


My reminiscence of you with my given everything by you makes me usually write a letter not mail, because you very sometimes give me a letter to me, sometimes with tape your voice recorded. because you are always so busy at recording and inserting either composing song tunes for very beautiful solo deva as the best seller singer of your country. Then I anytime, have some afraid to you to change your mind to her, you know!


Occasionally, only seagulls comfort me from my unnecessary mind’s exhaustion caused from completely absent you from staying beside me.


Hey, golden clouds reflecting deep blue ocean, your comfort is anytime so plain, and simple, then with it, I can be so satisfied at my own soothing my all embers.


But I don’t want to get it completely, because if that ac- by myself could diffuse my embers, that deletion could survive my memory of you and its recollection could be reduced, and my it with itchy gotten and done by you is what I don’t want wiped out from my mind and body, eternally.


Your so gentle easing entrance to me at my unforgettable memory makes me activated at having hope to our future as you’d come home to lone me.


My path is kept only for your it, until you’d come home with me.


Then anyway I need definitely many tools and very beautiful backgrounds with recollective association in my mind. That set is suitable with this residence you provided me, as golden and orange clouds beam injection and reflection mutually with deep blue ocean’s water surfaces in that relevance makes me my picturing around your entrance to my harbor!




Apr. 22nd., 24th. 2021