In the staying together with brothers or sisters, even with so familiar emotion mutually the most, but we must be in struggle in no noticed development, it’s really so often to us.

To any strangers, we are all so close and similar, but it’s irresistible.

Parents and bchildren are moreover, that reality must be applied.

Parents and children are just only in generation gap, but brothers or sisters are in distinctive character in same generation usually.

When Japanese learn foreign languages, English and Russian are the easy things to discover the common character to them.
We easiky find out even Alabic in the same origin in distanced kin relation to them.

When Japanese try to learn Hangul, they easuly discover the common points to it but, thus they are concentrating their consciousness only to distinctively distinct part in Hangul.
But for the ones who can discern Japanese and Hangul both as just a foreign language, for example for the US citizens or Russians, both languages are so easy to discover common points in each of them.
With some assured distance makes us observe both in objective view.
So closer relation rather makes us see both things so distanced.

Being closer together makes both minds so distanced.

Distance means so physically and even so mentally or spiritually.

We often have a moment to be able to angage in something so ardently with sharpened deliberation, never so rarely.
On the contrary of it, after so enough rest in sleeping or so and perfectly reset minded and so prepared but so murkily lazy emotion and feeling even manages us, never so rarely, either, making any our trial so never enough filled with good idea or thinking.

At any two things in the universe, analogy, opposite pole, antinomy, crash, sympathy, so diverse condition may have been possible

One is closer understandings but with distanced something, and one is hating each other coz with closest contact with each other.

Mind to be gotten to be bored despite of being in so enjoyable so much, and mind to be pleased with so painfully so tough.

What we have so leeaway to spend so relaxed time with richness in economical and time condition, but simultaneously so gloomy feeling manages us, on the other hand, so chased by many dutifully obligatory things but simultaneously so brave feeling urges us.
These are consistently never separated but never neither fused so completely.

Even in separated together, but only so analogous impression would be offered to us, otherwise, so in identical things but only perfectly distinct impression would be offered to us, both experiencing moments are existing to us so usually.

Oh, I don’t have any good solvable ideas for me.
Where could I solve any contradictory emotion in my mind?

It would never be solved, everlastingly, probably until each one dies including me, more and more unknown things must be propagated so much and but accidentally each one must die someday so accidentlly suddenly, only its thing must mean our surviving own life, I try to persuade myself as if God tells me, but its so strangely clearly abandoning detatchment is so mystical to me, what the hell is it?

However, probably I must have had known to its identity, so completely. From the beginning of my life.

In other words, human-beings are the things even in knowing it so well and so clearly but simltaneusly have an emotion daring to confirm it so presicely for satisfying our emotion at each moment we need.
Just coz of it, we bshould be in a time to think nothing so sometimes for us.

If we are mazed in bad circulation of thinking idea or consideration itself, better yet, only what we have completely unknown things, we should accept in our mind anytime that kind of moment comes to us.

(May. 29th. 2019)