These days' own bizarre and spooky social atmosphere must be born with our own cognitive some implicit despair for tacitly knowing that our global community's contradiction and own sacrificed situation could never be oppressed, that only grotesque phenomenal topical matters overshadowing these days' realities must make us only detached emotion, yes, that seen so clever attitude must be the minimally dealt our own consensus. 

However, anybody must preserve own indigestible mind so secretly, you know!

Yes, let's say it again! S o surely only detached mind running our own mind is not that bad, but only a little so pitiful mind could never be removed out from our own bottom of heart and affectionate reasonable brain.

By the way, life is just kind of a party, that cheaper proverb tasty thrown words could be thought so yet effective these days, moreover, so heavily harsh and very systematically anarchy autonomous negative factor overspending own darkened shadowy air current is easily caught by anybody's dormant eyes, you see!

Where can we discover truly seen valuable beauty in this world?

Otherwise, is so utterly unsolvable contradiction God  for us?

Beauiful Madonna, what do your eyes gaze at, look over you?

So dandy Duke walking along that street, what makes you so maje me clear so rationally?

None the less, I can never wipe my dirty desire out from my subconscious mind, so honestly, you accept?!

Where does our tacitly prosecuted global voyage head for to us?

Anytime only empty glittering beautifully violent ambivalent criterion is running through any corner.

How can we keep going on acceptance around any kind of perfectly absurd realities for you and me, them and us?

What makes us aware that violence, beauty, ambivalence are each mutually neveq divided nor not so specifically independent to each other?

So any smart adult ones pretend to know it so well, you comprehend.

What direction will we all be conveyed?

God knows all by Himself, you know, but I'd never forsake that questionable mind probably everlastingly if I'd never die.

But it'd never be so, though surely no problem.

I know, l know, what i can do is only it at least now.

Beauty, please maze me, perplex my reason!

Violence, please do not seduce my potential mind and do not imply with the best occasion for cheeting some other easy duck!

Ambivalence, please show your true appearance so slowly and easy at least to me, now!

(Irregularly continued)

Nov. 26th.   2022