Mat was in his home country, but at that day, he mourned his dead lover. He lost his preciously beloved one who had intimate relationship with him several years only with accidental meeting to a woman who had only intimate three days relation but at fourth day after meeting together, had been robbed by other man’s conspiracy and six days after meeting, being dead, that six days changed Mat’s life, and lost things were extraordinarily bigger than he would imagine.
On the hill of the local area Lily was born, her funeral was proceeding with her family and friends.
Mat looked at every participants of her funeral, at a glance to each one so rapidly.
Lily’s brother, sister, Jeff, his wife, Tim, his colleagues with the same mission to investigate missing middle-aged woman who was dead at the same day of Lily’s anniversary day of her death, a pastor was read one passage from the Bible, and every participant listened to it, so quietly, many ones closing their eyes.

Mat remembered the few ten minutes ago, when he first arrived at her new grave marker, he was with Lily’s brother and sister, and soon Jeff arrived there with his wife, looking at Mat’s face, and said soon after greeted only with eye contact and face moving,
“Only a week I’ve never seen your face, but your it was so changed to be drawn, haggardness of you makes me imagine how tough your travel for the days was, but what the hell did your way-worn travel give you something? Possibly nothing you know, rather, you lost everything, didn’t you?”
Mat was saying so slowly to his saying,
“I know so well, but now I have no words for the present. Just…”
“Just what?”
“At last everything may had been a destined thing to me and Lily, either.”
Mat after deleting any misty mind darkness said to Jeff, he responded with his honest question,
“By the way, how precious was your meeting to that woman? Was that that valuable to the being of that woman daring to cost Lily’s life so precious of you, essentially? Costing your beloved lover for getting strange woman you’d never met ever.”
To that question of Jeff, Mat had nothing to reply.

Lily’s brother as high school student next year would graduate, Lily’s seventeen sister was weeping so in sorrow but voiced nothing next Mat.
Mat was in an idea how he would sustain her left brother and sister.
Mat was making up his mind to keep his detective job also from that moment on to the long future.

After expiring her funeral pastor’s greeting, her coffin was buried to her graveyard, and before burying, at a glance everybody as the participants of her funeral looked her face, it was so beautiful as she was so usually.
Some colleagues with the same mission to her was devoting bouquet beside her face.

After every process to morn her death, Jeff approached Mat and said,
“I can understand your mind being in a strong emotion to revenge that one, but even if you did so successfully, how would Lily’s brother and sister survive from that moment on. They were raised by Lily.”
After sighing for a second, and he continued,
“If you are willing to continue your job, I’ll help you as I’ve done until now, but if you try to revenge him, you would never return to you as honest lover and gentle citizen, as you are now. In other words, you must bring you about the road your target old man who killed Lily, you could never help but following footprints he must had left in his lifetime.”
Listening to his saying, Mat for a while silently thinking his saying meaning, and urged Jeff to continue his claim to him,
“ In other words, you mean you walk in the toughest way on thorn road, that old man has walked ever, as long as you are doing job of private detective, as I did, I’ll help you from now on, but so risky revenging act would never be accepted to me, possibly, of course that old man is just the share enemy also to Lily’s family, but how will your revengeful mind share them all, so easily, it must be so risky.”
He who was whispering his saying words, tried to soothe Mat’s resentment.
However, also Jeff was in so entangled emotion, that emotional contradictory atmosphere was either shown to Mat, and he was ascertained to it, either.
(to be continued)

(Jan. 19th. 2019)