Scared to sleeping at night.
Coz nightmare strikes me every night.

But I don’t be scared to awoken myself.
Then, are the ones having that scary can sleep well having no nightmare?
I have no idea.

But keeping company with nightmare is never so ill to me.
What nightmare tells me is so better instructive and I at least to awoken myself have never remorseful anything.
My distress is never belonging to carnally deviating it, more my issue is anytime theologically meant and moreover so ethically responsible, coz so stronger responsibility must infringe ethically prohibited boldness in decision but with so remorseful emotion to the ones I denied and negated.

Mentally so refreshed means deleting remorseful emotionally in oblivion, but probably it must have never been eliminated from my mind, then I again see my nightmare occasionally.

Sun rises and sets every day, but our brain has no recessing even at sleeping time.
Are you alright with your brain?
Is your brain fluently talking to you?

Our heart is made by our own brain.
Our brains decide all our minds.
But each one is completely private and individual. And we know it so well, but either it brings about so collision and conflict to us.

Managers and team members are in different playing mutually, of course occasionally turning role together must be allowed, and really met in our social reality.

But eventually, we all are taking same ship, steerer as captain and other ones as sailors, and passengers.
We all are in the same destiny on voyage.

When another ship passes by our ship, let’s greet that ship with own siren!
Mutually heard sirens together make us in the same bigger ship as the earth of us, as one of creature in world.

If we listen to these mutual sirens, the ones who are scared to active themselves in daytime taking it into account of their nightmare time in sleeping could regain them in anxiety, but simultaneously diffuses their scary.
But possibly if they do so, they either get to have nightmare in another phase on their mind, at sleeping time they must never have completed peace, as long as they are alive.
They have an idea with policy live and let live, but at the same time, from another angle, an idea with policy live and let die.
That’s so necessary. We all are compatible in compromise and conflict, fellows and enemies, loving to each other and objectional to each other, so synchronically, but its thing must never be contradictory, rather having contraction in ambivalent ideas must be so insanely contradictory.

But if the one is on an anxiety with lack of any anxiety and no expecting in nightmare distressed, it means nightmare’s out of the blue assaulting to them, either, thus their diffusing daytime’s anxiety in scary to nightmare means their only effort to forget it, then their nightmare’s advent must be so possible.
But it’s no my business, coz I’ve made up my mind to enjoy all nightmare, coz being able to encounter all nightmare means only surviving as being alive in the world to me, of course, any other one’s mind is none of my business.

Just now, I have nothing but enjoying a ocean view on the deck.
(Jan. 26th. 2020)