A decade or moreover ago, I wrote at my notebook that "being in life must have almost only painfully bitter things though we have nothing but opting to enjoy those all harshness".

That idea is not converted completely even now.
Really, even one moment later, we have fundamentally no idea around it'd be going on in what pace or what aspect could be attended.

That expressive impact must be to me Jean Luc Godard directing movies or so in my life, for the first time to get me impacted with, was really so.
But since that idea could have been revised with any other socially movable impact and other so many great ones' enlightening impact through many books or so, very basic uncertain elemental nature is still preserved in my deepened part for my brain and mind idea.

However, that idea is not always interpreted as what only demolishing sensitivity could catch my mind, and just only sprinting is my ultimate aim, that idea is not neither so appropriate.

Rather so plainly converting course and basic stance is not so bad, never yet rather that flexible very easilyconvertible stance and daily strategy is more advantageous specifically in these COVID overshadowing so harsh reality, you know.
I rather could have conviction that in setting and premising only not so strictly fixed plan nor scheduled preciseness, more to me, very simply basic stable so cardinal idea or world view only should be kept so preciously, any other so partially necessary elements should be so movable.

In other words, our mind and its heading direction consistenly is just like amaba, and that not stiffly loosened and leaving plainness in mind could be profittable at trying to do anything to me, that idea is constantly dominant in my mind, then that true reason is that if I'd fix from the beginning, gradually at proceeding situation, that first premised my mindset could rather hinder my running pace and taking swtichable method at meeting so unexpected never presumable development.

Easygoing mind stance is very useful at creating so drastically deplpyable expression and that so dynamic progression and durably kept advancement at not being stumbled at suddenly coming up my questionably distressed interrruption or suspension.

Necessarily occasionally the kind of stoppage is not so disadvantageous, but at least to us, so personally encourraging our own mind and promoting our own better running in sustantion.
Some envious or kind of ill-natured rival ones or hostile some presence could try to disturb my advancement in my life either, nevertheless, at least to myself for me, as my fundamental course, I could be better at easing my progressing mind and trying spirit should be urged at riding on the best timing and ideal proceeding mode, that thing's creation is the most important, and indespensable at setting my standard pace for making me go onto my aim for the present.

Hurrying completing and forming so rigid order could invinte so unnecessary jumping at the gun at least at selecting next phase, though in starting something after I decided some basic course, speedily and rapidly swtiching the phase and its content is so integral, but at the same time of it, either not hurrying unnecessarily and just being in kept considerably waiting for mature rippled or creatively swung and siginificantly biorhythmically pacing in grouping the best game in unidentified domain I'd never tried to invade or kind of plunder my unpioneered just barren and wild territory even myself could not be so conscious about that presence, but certainly and definitely it must be equipped or prerserved so originally and truly from the beginning.

Though, after all, destroying intentional ongoing stance must be so necessary at keeping my pace at very useful moving, and that moving act must include not certain but exactly necessary and vitally demanded kind of indespensable mission and intuitively rudimentary element and our essence must be organized in mind and spirit.
Because mind and sprit inborn gloping machinery useful and appropriately suitable fighting phase and that opportunity at riding on in no procrastination.
That so subtle decision and departing is absolutely needed to create something newly necessary and demanded by worldwide requesting from anybody.

Of course, that motivated mind's necessity must be interacted with so academic approach, but at entertaining devise or kind of amusement thing or pastime necessary contents.
Yes, probably only demolishing desirable and only not worrying mind at assumed failure or default stumbling situation, eventually only so decsively bold and roughly dynamic challenging sprinting must be the most suitble stance at starting anything, having some swtichable watershed met for advancement or running the best tone and necessary pace.
Unexpetedly, omly improvisatorial keeping in randomly inserting unpresumable converting the current or so, even these so disorderly ongoing could be so correct, even that thing could be orthodoxically justified at our daily trial, you know.
(to be continued)

Jan.  7th.        2022

Memorandom; Another series, Own Thinking Neatening in Subjective Advancement is just aimed at confirming my own academic inclined subjective trial in reviewing, but this series is just headoing for not formutating intention, rather it is just for making "change" itself and very inimaginable unexprected outcome and performance. Because entertaining creation's mindset is basic target for researcing to my work.