To human, so violent nature drawing out desirable mind could be sustained with kind of antipathy to very orthodox justice, correstness, courtesy, as kind of regarded proper things.

And that emotion is easiyl found in any society and any age in any domain we human-being think so integrally indespensable.

Though, what make us pull out our own personal antipathy to orthodox and seemed correct idea, or idepolgy(this vocabulary shows own stiff association or kind of typically not interesting things, only formally neatened things in hateful emotion, dull impression, disgusting mind atmosphere.

What makes us those mentality means what our spirit has both polars' judging and assessment toward everything we are having relevance, concerned with in daily life, and to those realiteis, we have own introspective ideas, emotion and own personal stance to keep up with contacting or so.

These impressive approaching modus ponens and our own ideas around world trend, social stance and any kind of criticizing mind to world's anything are necessarily generates at each occasion, in daily life, at any site, any timing, to any concerened matter.

Just to me, only not formalized fixed form could run in my noticed field, or site, any situation to me as I am concerned with, or having personal concern or intrest is potentially equipped mind's atteding idea's inclination is just what I want society in a way it should be as my basic hope to public things.
Because formalized typical orthodox items, regulation or so could drag my own antipathy.
That reason is unidentifed, but only very instinctive my mind shouting something.

Nevertheless, only demolishing stance and the kind of tasty performance in society we can easily witness must never attract my interest nor concern, that very twisted mind's circumstance is really indwelling to the bottom of heart, soul, mind, idea, brain.

In other words, not fixed nor not only following correctness nor regularly recognized formal convention, and habitually seemed appropriate any idea, thought, habit, custom, all these things must drag my naucea, nevertheless, that mind must be sustained at taking no only pose, artificially made posture, gesture nor so. In other words, superficially taken daring pose, performance or kind of propaganda must never attract my mind.

Rather anytime unexpectedly only formally done, performed and completed stance and these all processes' keeping some idea or throughout appearance could get so occasionally resisting nuance or so must attract me to any other person, any other not my interest dragging domain, or anything in world.

In other words, very calmed, silently and composed and rather so normally done and realized but essentially very resisting mind and spirit must be preserved at so deeply implanted somewhat as kind of more demoniac hatred, rudimentary very besically sustained persistent disagreement or so is just what I want in me, and any social movement, that basic essence, though they should never be instantly made fashon nor kind of superficially produced cultural decoration.

At the matter of fact, our mind hodling kind of not solved so unidentified enmity to being itself, just what being just itself must have irresistibly and not be freed everlastingly in own inertia and to these things, we are obliged to get some own mind noticing gap, or kind of not fitting nor not matching somewhat, so destined at being accompanied with our mind, and in spite of our doing so faithfully and so obediently following, we could get so frequently unidentified own dissatadfcation, own irrationally renegeting neglecting impulse, desirably motion driven, the kind of so still protestation, the thing is just what I want.

Certainly, any deviant act must have the maximal effect at keeping so stiff normally done acts in accumulation and that thing outcoming kind of very calmed stillness and very silently kept performance and completion, but these ordered kind of form must be present for personally demolished at our mind, but so personally.

Because if we really realize arson or so, that is just offending act, just breaching violence, and only making us criminal, but that must never have merit to our own life presence.
More sinful crime must be done only at mentality to anything including any other person, any fixed, regulated convention or so, only silently pouring so cynically cold attitude, that behavior is crafty and cunning and not so gentle, nevertheless, only these not creative resistance is only allowed minimally in social site, so universally.

Probably any kind of profession field must have that so cynically ill-natured but essentially arrogantly taken socially shown manner, kind of etiquet, or so so often we can observe, and only in controlled reality, very occasionally, we can have some creatively regarded demolishing effectiveness, and regarded good deal performance or so.

Our life span is so short-lived, at a blinc several decades must pass through.

In galaxy time span, our life whole appearance and its essence is just like flea's them, not so distanced to their all realities, you know.

We all are just pretending poker face Satan in acting correctness, social justice but once peeled substance must be magma tasty flammable kind of screwed up only disorderly unsolved very many dissatisfied mess-up are just pretending so good and well-trained like walking dog. But essentially very anarchy and disrupting motion full-throttled conditioned standing by our mind's reality could be easily found by anybody, and what is that identity, what does it mean to our life, own life, publicly shown to any other indisivual?

What makes us lovable emotion to some specified ones in world?

We can exactly remove our pretentiousness, ostentation, own decorative hypocricy, yes, our human's disrupting historical somewhat as our one essential spiritual inclination, kind of component to get us for the present complerted, or composure in doing everything earnestly, but all those formed or harmonized organized order or so is even so said to be ephemral, so fragilely incomplete, we immediately get awareness around these kind of nature falsehood, only formilized completion, that mind impact and detachment, interpreting modus ponens are just kind of our inescapably grappled obeject at analyzing, very occassionally reorganizing, but simultaneously taking error, mistake, even so irretrievable setback or so.

But, eventually, only very composed, calmed mind could be the most demolishing nature attending identity, rather anytime so violently emitting dirty words, immoral ideal or so is the most honest, the most diligent attitude, we could regard these actings as natural, though very long period only persevering acts' running is the most demolishing, destroying intentional somewhat, we could take so, necessarily.

That paradixical kind of life view and our reality's irresistible realized aspect could tell our mind what road shold be built by us, because road must be what we should mandate us to build for our survival, but necessarily our own survival must depend on the earth wholness in nature balance or kind of eco-systematic draft made in natural selection, and universe's physical regulatory mechanism.

However. how we could arrange our heading direction in this earth in harmonizing wholeness of nature, unverse, and these destined period to survive?
Yes, anybody could get the emotionally inclined so pecimistically dragged to what we all are drifting in gigantic graveyard with any civilized junk, all completion, all pefected correctness, or so could be seen only pretending kind of mimic to providential creature or kind of only pretentiousness ornamented falsehood or so, either.

Yes, nevertheless, we could never stop walking, advancing ahead, of course sometimes taking breathing in and out, for neatening our bodily normality.

By the way, ahead we can see kind of complicated crossroad, what angle, what road, we shoud select for us all?

(to be ccontinued)

Jan.  13th.         2022