To anyhthing, being won and survived, that detachment could be submitted to mind.
That mind is just mine, but as if it was other one's it, that awareness is there.

To anything what I wanted, losing to catch, only error approach was accomplished.

Nevertheless, still surviving as my being could be, and no expectation nor no hopeful aspect are attended there.

However, in life, probably acquiring somewhat does never mean wanting and getting directly, never yet, acquirement must consist in no wanting, just accepting to ordered demand around us.

In no assummable going, only submitting what all around us could be demanded and besieged in circumstance, in other words, own intension consists in no wanting, but being wanted by other presence, thereby, submission could be adapted to going into acquring in us.

Being identical to obtaining indentifies only accepting by demanding made externally to us, and abandoning any pushing devise. As if clouds could be moved and lighted with shiny beam of the sunlight as background to us, otherwise that aspect attending beautiful flamed frame orange along the outline of any cloud, these no voluntary stillness must talk to our really acquiring coming.

There could be conviction, but either worry and fright could never be spoiled.
Sound retreat must be plain, crushing even all regret, thus, in knowing no hunch around any outcome only leaving our all mind to be carried to guided direction must not be so negative.

Because acquirement is identical with submission of our all mind and body to submitting identity as not our present matter.

That must be truly signified survival. Because survival must owe symbiosis around any necessary demand and request.

Wanting, opting must consist in that pleriminary guided autonomous kind od providential blue print or esuis or sketch by God.
During our own life, we all are ours, nevertheless, also we all are never ours.

As if volcano instigated Tsunami and ashes all around the erupting area in the ocean.

Jan. 17th.     2022