Guys generally, pretending so detached adult, but truly so meekly sissy minded one crying dog, thus externally showing stance, or kind of bluffing posture and true mind are mutually very gapped, and the thing must be noticed to their true mother, or almost same generation female ones.

Nevertheless, to them, time's going and passed time's length must spend in consumpted to the last time, mercilessly. Though, anybody could have a mind to recollect youth ages' some memorable days, or those days' mindset or so.

My life was not always so tougher than truly suffering done ones in this world, nevertheless simultaneously, neither specifically wealth opportunity given one in world whole assessable level.
Surely, youth, must be to anybody, never so trivially tiny thing, never yet, that impact to anybody's aged days' life means so much.

One human's mind has consistent context at recollecting anything around any tiny thing once came up to that one's life span, because for the one, serially ordered one certain conviction must be there.

Nevertheless, the one does never return to those days, once upon a time, US's so famous Rock, fusion, or pops tunes providing unit Chicago sung "Old Days".
Yes, old days are now already just illusion, nevertheless, to anybody, anything around what had come up to the one could be easily reproduced in mind, that thing could be so nasty and kind of troublesome mind's nature or dispostion which could never be overcome so easily.

Eventually, mind's identity is just memory dragging own mind.
That essentially working power is extraordinarily stronger, though, anybody must never survive that impact to the one, because that decisive fact's presence or so could have made religion's history at any region, any ethnic unit in human's history.

What makes anyone's mind so easily reproduced any kind of memorable thing?

I am at the matter of fact, kind of grouchy to anyone as the same generation ones, I know it so well, nevertheless, I neither could get my identity replaced with any other one's it, everlastingly, and the thing is ultimate truth to anyone.

Youth must be lost in so long period to anyone's life, nevertheless, to anyone, no matter kind of life could have been spent to the one, that one's younger days' memory could never be wiped out from the one's mind.
That thing necessarily is noticed and enough consciously known to anybody, nevertheless, anyone must pretend not to notice it nor conscious about it, and as much as possible anybody could try to shield and keep that thing seceret.

That character anybody could have must be kind of own carnally reasoned some social shyness, and it'd be necessary, nevertheless, essentially that thing could be what we should overcome for watching own life thing which must be deeply indwelled idea in mind.
（to be continued)

Jan. 25th.       2022