Anytime love emotion is out of the blue.
If past love passed away and only hurt and broken heart had been left until now, again in meeting strongly stinging love at my heart would be the one if I’ll be losing again, from just now on, so frightful hell like imagining that day is soon getting unendurable to me now.

Why do you give me unimaginably happy joy when you make me meet somebody in love, but at the same time do you either do me losing definitely aftereffect in my injured heart pulling smarting?

Once caught in love, losing everything in imagining all the day of it would annoy me taken to my nightmare all nights since the losing moment at any sleeping moment and mind’s visibly appearing hell in again meeting to losing its love would bully me for a long time, its duration must accumulate moreover the broken heart never be forgotten everlastingly.

Please, stay away from me, my losing everything after meeting truly strong love which would appear everything in my nightmare, thinking it again, I could help but feeling me to be just poor missing sheep from belonging herd.
But possibly you I met was either never so different situated to me now, how were you?

Once caught in love, what I felt nothing until I met it, would become unendurable hell in mind.

Please, Lord, sometime, please make me free from that sort of hell again, if you’d never do the same to me, I’d never destruct me by my situation again, but at the same time, meeting outbreak of love again makes me obliged to destroy all future prospect and scheduled everything, it’s irresistible force to me again, so making me exhausted again.

Only it would never be so easy, would make me never stand up again!

Why do you get me that sort of life destiny?

Oh, Lord, please do me nothing around love once again might have caught me, but in time staying away from me, coz it’d neither be putting up with it anymore.
Now I want is just only never losing any love once met to me, but so stable love eternally being beside me, Lord, please give me only it!

(Oct.15th. 2019)