Even if you try to come up with something very enthusiastic, it must be something that has been created once someday.

Rather, that's what we do and create, I'm sure.

Because, after all, I must be doing it in the same way that someone was doing it someday elsewhere.

All of our actions are probably in that sense, all of which are only confirmations of any past events, actions or ideas.

But that's not a sad thing, it's just that.

This idea is not positively nihilism. It's a completely natural idea.

All human beings and their thoughts and actions are only confirmations of what countless people have done in the past somewhere in the world, not only that they are not bad, but that they are the truth and trust in life. That's a sufficient fact.

The idea of ​​being new is no longer completely worn out.

Therefore, it can be said that the new and the old are essentially the same.

The only thing that matters is that for every individual, it's new or old but nostalgic, and it's all about feeling something with your own heart, and that's fine.

I say I can feel something because I feel alive, seeing and hearing things.

Therefore, life is always in the present progressive tense, only now each time. Therefore, it can be said that death is only the disappearance of it.

And that's certainly not a bad thing.

Whether it's natural or unnatural is just what I'm trying to understand later in theory.

In a sense, it can be said that the most fulfilling way of spending life is to minimize the time to reflect and to increase the time that can always be felt as it is now. But it probably conflicts with theological ideas.

However, the time and space of theology, in which the past and the future are bitterly united into an eternal phase, can be said to be a world that can only be felt bitterly now. In other words, the present is always a conflict between the past and the future.

Only now is it never boring.

Therefore, it is deduced that new or old things are not really meaningful.

Yes, the fact that you can enjoy yourself now is proof that you are alive.

I want to spend the whole day like that today.

Apr. 9th.    2022