Generally, the ones who pretends so reflaxed sensitive dry and anti-hero guys and gals could have been raised at so well-intelligent and so richer family environment, and the thing rather has made their own resistance around taking life stance.

Yes, rather truly so poverty and rough home emvironnmental days’ veterans even as younger generation ones could pretend so well richer raised background, that paradoxical realiy is unexpectedly so naturally necessity.

Contemporary society forces all of us have some sensitivity personally around survival crisis.
That aspect must never discriminate anybody in no condition to give for anyone.

Orthodox value could be kind of generally conservative adult’s own pretentious propaganda for keeping commonplace adult ones’ stable life in preventing any unnecessary riot from being made by so opposing behavior and act by anti-orthodox idea holders, and their dangerous rebel against socially dutiful act and manner not damaging social peace and common sense.

Nevertheless, sometimes, not obedient guys and gals must appear in any corner of society, that’s the one never swtiched social appearance, necessarily only conservatively stance taking ones of ordinary adult citizens try to deny that spirit and movement.

Human mind necessary instinctive survival abiding scream immanently anybody holds is kind of demolishing motion and savagely equipped vigor, and that presence makes anyone have decision around leaping at some suppressed and inhibited in taboo consciousness indwelling immanently simultaneously the improving necessity and that motion frequently impulsivley unexpectedly erupts externally and very strange chamical working could be made, so irregularly, and that spiritual iginition could move generally taboo suffocating social common sense into pretending to be normally good citizen, however, occasionally that perseverant limitation could be outrageously broken.

And, necessarily, at conservatively regarding social sided ones could have some generosity and permission to make any violent spiritual rebelion abiding guys and gals emit any free speach tasty songs and dancing performance in their own resistant activity, then, after all, to their freaks as kind of cynically passionate fans and cool observers could witness all their performance and any relaesed masterpiece.

Even at harshly never cured city polulation dense areas’ own nasty phenomenal COVID infecitious pandemic and newly updated viariant sequence must suppress any ordinary citizen’s own healthily kept mind ever at ordinary days few years ago, nevertheless, probably anybody’s immanent mind has own frustration and dissatidfaction around doing anything so easily, that circumstance but has one unexpected merit at having mutual sympathy around having almost the same circumstance, nevertheless, one so out of the blue hard war battle was made at one region of this globe, and that could not cease so easily mutually at each hostile country.

Nevertheless, anybody surviving in the globe has not easily solved not diffused mind and only that cirucustance not so remotely anybody has in mind, the reality is the sole joining moment for anybody, because nobody could have so essentially happy emotion in period in which any miserable pandemic sacrifice and any war batlle refugees and death toll incresing unfortunately obliged dying ones’ souls could float in any downtown corner to anybody, you know!

Though, necessarily these days’ global current and own exceptional atmosphere makes anyone surviving in any region kinf of rambler in downtown corner even the one is so diligently clever and smart guy or gal, like outcast, yes, anybody could become outcast in downtown corner both in city zone, suburban zone, and perfectly rural zone.

Anybody could absorbe the one into eccentrically exceptional maditating mind unexceptionally.
The nature is probably so mutually segregated own defeated one’s mentality, loser mind or sort of unnecessarily drifting one’s mind.

And that spirit is moreover becoming denying mind to any orthodox regarded correct idea and common sense at ruler of measuring any just and suitable idea around trying anything, in other words, anything could be put on skeotically ironical biassed viewing stance, you know.

The kind of, nevertheless the one is not refugee, so sharing mind to any defector or outed one from stably credible organization and grouping unit as disillusioning mind attending drifter.

Rather that so refracted mind and smoldering kind of unsolved matters’ dragging own anger, nevertheless all these emotional ideas necessarily finds no direction and ideally set destination nor object, nor so, only that undigested emotion and feeling, only the thing consistently is left at deep inside of our mind, and accompanying only it, and go shopping for getting only necessitties, and eat something so refracted mindedly and gloomy feeling could be daringly denied arbitrarily and walk around our own home so whimsically.

And in looking over any refreshed flowers in vicinty of our own home and momenarily find some peace of mind, but not completely solved nor digested, that mind dregs could be attending our mind and spirit.

Though, sometimes why don’t we scream saying, “We all are just downtown corner outcast as descendents of Cain, thereby, anyway, we have nothing but opting being one of rogue, and additionally, not being satisfied with any educational idea, or classically better regarded songs, and only rebelliously refracted and darkside parts’ emphacizing songs in praise for our all presence in these days’ earth environment, you know.

In other words, we are just nowadats roaming about in any downtown corner being one of twisted mind attending only cynically crooked mind ejaculating lullaby favoritely loving ones, that sharing mind is anytime beside us, as kind of solidarity for all us in nowadays, you agree!

Just demolish, just destroy any educated intelligently regarded normal value and common sense, in putting all into hell garbage can, and pick up only demoniacally regarded negatively evaluated outcast’ lullaby so positively and whistle in our private mind, and as much as possible put our paradoxically regarded outcasts’ mind so affirmatively and rather creatively for looking for another so refreshed dark sided world depicting lullaby so personally and why don’t we take only it in our personal jewel box in mind, so secretly, you know!?

(Irregularly to be continued)

Apr. 23rd. 2022