According to the poet Shuntaro Tanikawa, the older you get, the longer it feels. Certainly the day feels longer than it used to be. However, looking back on the year, on the contrary, it feels shorter than before. For example, the cherry blossoms I saw last year seem to be just recently. Does the long time that is put together feel short, and the time that is divided into small pieces feel long?

I'm a person who can only make literature, but that's what the person who chose it is doing, and I'm writing it because I want to write such a thing, even if it is a sentence that makes the reader immediately understand "You should do it". And that's the power that makes me think that if you're an actor, you're trying to show the greatness of the acting that this actor is doing and to attract the viewers.

Viewing must be impacted by own past impression. Past things generally reflect our that recollective moment's now tempting kind of another appearance toward that now giving us as present aspect. In other words, because we personally had completely differentiated appearance in some own past date, through these memoraized items, on the contrary, now specifically tangibly visual or auditory sensed perceptional appearance could be done in our own consciousness.

Those all totalized truth could be that we all are conscious about anytime relativity abiding measure in mind and in it, both past impressed memoraized things and each now only supplying own appearance are stuffed.

Though, really we all are in time running in own concsiousness as one straightly serially streaming transitive moving but not according to materialized dimension, only at accompanying all materiaized phenonena.
And, anytime our hoping mind, wanting mind must be swtiched on own gradual shifting.

Nevertheless, our mind can be aware of that our will wants to have something as a value or trustworthy belief in not swtiched, fixed idea's sustenance. In other words, probably only that idea and mind could be said "Our own subjective will".

In other words, just in anytime consistently not ceasing and only running passing through any our arbitrarily setting date as time must be beside our presence as what is accompanying us anytime but only in transition ceaselessly including our all consciousness.
But just because of these never swtiched truth, we can have to that anytime switching reality, rather not making transit only constantly still present thing could be demanded to our mind as one fixed idea and one completed form.

Consequently, to us, any our doing into one arbitrary completion means our own resistance to consistently making transition by time's running(shifting).
And in these complicated realities, also our memory, memorized mental mechanism by brain's functioning must be present.

And our mind fixing one form must be time's not fixed nature and arbitrarily fixing mind devise in our own fight against fragility.
In other words, fixation to one completion in complered order signifies us a presence to make wedge in not fixed capable time's own neglection around leaving us some own form, though consequently only we can leave formed order, because time is dominantly only neglecting all leaving will in perfection of whim otherwise perfect negligence around leaving anything originally set conditioned form.

Yes, time must be absolutely consistent demolishing presence to fixation and leaving anything as ever it was.
And, otherwise, only at limited and cut time runing as scheduled term, we could tangibly feel it so longer in aged season for us, but that lazily only serially streaming conditioned in time, we only feel so unconsciously lazily passed afterward it'd been done, we'd be notice and awoken to that date shifting fact. And totally, in recollectiong whole shifting span, we only feel just already passed factually given strict reality. At that introspective mind, we can feel it so easily faster and emptily only rapidly passed.

Though, that aspect can be like a bow, but at each personally cut and segregated time running, it could never be only so fragilly passing, because our intentional will attended mind makes it that fixed gradual running or slowly shifting.

In other words, our mind notice and attention makes any time running appearance so sufficiently slowly and abundantly precisely shifting in regularly set sreaming speed.

(Irregularly to be continued)

Apr 5th., May. 1st. 2022