Being stayed at density of gathering in terms of spatial and time running extent, ever made me wanting to walk on the road by myself, beside big river, confirming surely shiny floating clearly watched clouds, or any beamed landscape talked to me, somewhat by themselves merely so.

Because、these days so rainy, those rather reminds me of those landscapes contrarily impressively.Ever, than these days, more scared feeling to virus infection, and that aftermath hunch was stirred up to climax, but at least at my country, those emotions gradually diffused  and positively opened air walking slowly conveys me some small wind from my unknown further location as place which some windy air's first moment was once made. As if only the air is seen neglecting all transition from epidemic to pandemic, again from it to no anxiously breathable air absorbing, that minded atmosphere could be composed on me.

I got an idea inquestining, "Why are we spending only busy working days day by day?"
And, additionally, "Why can never we stop once everything?".

With these our acts, we truly are assured of what we only deal with once set principle, only at own mission feeling around controlling, around our regarded own civilization by itself, and practice all customary routine works, but of course, anybody can neither be outspoken to it, but that'd not that be taboo nor so.

But how are we so ridiculously absurd?

When I walk along the river, very many things I can observe, at being in any landscape, because being myself is in one landscape. And each landscape's element reminds me of many personal past things accompanying each recollective landscape. They all are stocked in my brain, the thing is known in any landscape.

In other words, according to length of time running, quantity of recollected things could increase so outstandingly. Is that reasoned by my aging or not, for the time being, unidentified at least to me. Softened air conveyed from some other place touched my cheek skin, but either it could have contained some virus, exactly. With those all, I thought that even our trustworthy science can have very incompletion, never be probed nor comprehended through obviously interpreted theory. 

After all, all our socially made situations' outcome proves never capably explicated items' own quantity too.

Place makes us attached some elements in any landscape, there anywhere we can easily pick up on our mind arbitrarily.
But either it gives us selfish desire draggable own idea, as we are just personally in center of world, yes to anybody, we by ourselves are only the center of world. 

With its idea, and some convincing reason, our ancestors as the part of whole human beings could have made out of Africa. And long vegabonding had been the part of our history, at each different context in own running.

Necessarily, occasionally each once separated unit could have own crossroad, necessarily with either mutual conflict otherwise, exceptionally reconciliation together.
At one accidentally made crossroad, many individual gathered at a stretch occasionally, consequently one primitive social original was made. 
With some sustainable diminished or increased own in turn totaled form transformation was outputted at eac occasion, gradually immovable point necessarily demanded in closed consciousness abiding unit, sometime, one vague but to some obvious extent, fixed composed unit was compounded consequently at each place else, outputting not only solidarity but also simultaneously mutually hostile enemy relation.

One unity's compounded process on the other hand makes its unit some outed necessary enemy either. Basically, to left ones, outed and going ones must have become own enemies. And mutually remotely going ones were becoming necessarily enemies. Because each gathered unit's fixed members must have been identified with one mass soldiers.
That's the beginning of nation, nationalism birth moment at least at each member's consciousness.

Nevertheless, either troopers needed ceasefire, even needed time must be made necessarily. That was merely wishing need, necessary occasion, exceptionally, to pray for departed fellows souls soothing. Then they sang requiem. 

Any music history must have attended also marching tunes playing as performing acts with becessity to send deceased fellows into heaven, making necessity for requiem, music thing must have been comprised with those two main pillars as music theory principle. Necessarily requiem must accompany newly born life's easy sleeping for growing up as necessity to raise them as rapsody synchronically composed that field's necessity.

Those mutually set principle, and theory is inherent with contemporary 21 century musicians with singers, songwriters. They all younger ones must have made some 21 century own "Mind Jihad".

Appendix; People's gathering necessarily composing density is one decisive destiny for human being's survival.
Unity, union, association, all they make home, and each selfish evil-minded gadgets too. 
It's nation. And necessarily as absolute fact, the own internally present consciousness makes any member own discriminable consciousness to any externally different belonging ones so decisively. Only sometimes, sporadically, own reconciling approaching could be occasionally made, that's the truth. 

Because we have not only healed moment by lullaby, but also by brave march and violently jazzy running fighting spirit seductive symphony or so.

Just we all are ambivalent presence, because we certainly have the moment to be healed by Angel hearted mind, but simultaneously also the moment healed by Satan. Otherwise, also the cold-blooded one's cursing speaking or so too. 
We all are pure hearted ones, but either bloody minded coldest stone accompanying presence.

That cold stone nature attending our mind is though anytime very contradictories ambivalence by itself. Contradicorily ambivalent too.

Because we need warmth of others' hearts, but simultaneously want to free from the regulatory dogma. And sometimes, need own shelter as somewhat very selfish desirable hideout like rogues chased by police officers. That's the nuclear shelter, as we acknowledge already not to like or dislike through self diffence consciousness, also nuclear weapons only for gurdian as our security for lives of us. Not only these but also, we need nuclear shelter as selfish consciousness acknowledges consciousness, it shows our own nuclear weapons' presence. 
Because nothing must be so stubborn than truly affectionately heart warming mind, because what we need nuclear shelter means our own family's peaceful security selfishly, at this our hope fact, we all are wicked minded as sinful presence as Christianity defines as fundamental principle.

In frank, our own lovely emotion to families makes us positive recognition around equipping nuclear weapons as necessity evil.

We all are space for us, only for our own body. We basically each individually separated not as weeds, plants in general are never so, in other words, we always ceaselessly sprint from own selfish bodily attachment as the base for our soul, because our own bodily tangible sensed sensation and deployed world only by the media is all for us. 
 Our bodily limitation makes us own selfish wishing and occasionally cursing too.

Though, actually analytical philosopher David Kellog Lewis emphasized, thus according to the number of our own bodies, world exists plurally. 

And, as our the absolute basis, these all irreplaceably absolute facts derive us as proposition of each physically given place and in cognitive mind around those, we can be aware of 'second person' as each you, or absolute "You" as Jesus must come up to us, to some extent, miraclous advent, otherwise our divinity cognitive own small finding in daily life of us.

(Irregularly continued)

June.  15th.     2023