I don't want to watch illusion nor fantasy, as long as I live and survive time and own space.

Because watching illusion or fantasy in daytime awakened consciousness means approaching my death.

Emotion for not accepting death in daily consciousness on the contrary dying moment's own approaching proof.

That idea is definitely gapped between adults and children.

Fantasy means that life alival time definition in running makes us own mind not strictly following reasonable time running.

Because our mind must have both legally followable own conservative idea and not that mind motivated riot emotion acceptable imprudent idea, so simultaneously. 

Those mutual contradictory combination can be suddenly broken by birds flying impulsive noisy feet and wing movable friction echoes.

Spatially tearing own straightforward transition making linear move makes us dreamt illusion's breaking moment and vigor.

At this extent, space means more conscious breaking power, against it, time running abiding own lazy change means fantasy's hotbed.

Anyway, I want nothing of fantasy dominant time's lazy accustomed daily spending.
But to some extent, getting naturally lazy time inserting wisdom will mean moreover than these days consciousness.

In the end, the emotion wanting to get rid of any illusionistic consciousness proves me of own alival emotionally persistence, so honestly.

How can I accept fantastic welcoming for clearly sunny daytime? Because fantasy and perceptively assured consciousness are mutually incompatible.

Life will goes on around denying any unnecessary fantasy and illusion, in meant perceptive awareness in affirmative mind.

(Irregularly continued)

Aug. 2nd.   2023