Probably, in any life, no strictly definite moment is almost none. Even if so long years we can live, the same consequences must be provided.

Because in fact, to us, substantially any totaled reality's important truth could never be easily found nor known to deeply minded part of us. But that impression is not nihilism, but very realistically not lying strict truth to us.

Probably, in life totaled summarized own significance must never be present to us, if some author could express that impression, that author must never know life essence. Because life means each very mutually gapped scenery necessary reaction and concerning thing, in other words. At each scene, at very mutually differentiated situation at each occasion, how we can deal with or not must be our true doing must. 

Probably, though lifetime totaled universally effective method for dealing with must be none. Only at each moment, each different reaction and transaction should be opted and no other effective way for surviving each difficult situation to us, indeed. 

Though, necesssrily, at each scenery reality, we according to each specific situation's nature, each different method or transaction should be taken. Or not, rather the method except it must never be found so fortunately. 

Our life must be one very long each different typed scenery running and really standing by each it, only those definitions could satisfy life general running essence. Nevertheless, each scene was each specific, never again indentifued scene must never be made nor coming to us, so definitely, nevertheless, occasionally, we feel the similar typed past experience at watching something in one scene. 

After all, with our own body, we only have reactionary doing according to that each own scenery situated nature which must contacts us as some specifically featured interfaced reality. 

Responding to each very gapped reality and very specifically featured appearance. No other integral strategy and transaction for reacting each emergently made necessity in whole life. 

And after all, at any situation or occasion, life runs so serially not any essential cut inserted, because sleeping time must have own sleepy mind of us in our own brain, then after all, we are merely just no meaning given only definitely breathing in and out in lifetime running.

We are never facing day by day only fine line, but any other not that finer own troubled situation and so hardly realized time in painfully annoyed and own fatigue given in daily exhausted reality and almost hardly be accepted our own demanding from any client, any loving one, and any facing reality in daily days. 

Though, to us, some eitful poetic notion must be necessary for breaking through any difficult situation and own hardships in lifetime really empirically given realities. 

Afterward passing through any necessary process at our daily necessity, we for the first time can have some easy time running only for a while. No other very smoothly run thing hardly be met to us nor found for us personally. Because being personal means not knowing so well except our own thing, in other words, everything must be almost unknown, half barely known identity. 

(Irregularly continued)

Dec. 15th.     2023