Illusion, very exceptionally can be made truth. At last to me, meeting to blonde lady at each occasion, the truth was evidenced. 

Gap or difference between truth and pretending and honesty and falsehood are in frank mutually very unbiguous, you know. 
And unexpectedly, only fantasy tasty own accident could be carried into genuinely clarified own truth.

Vaguely regenerated appearing nuence indicates me that is only recollective mind prompting own daydream. But that is never so satanically dangerous. Rather so nice and easy. Actually associably recollective content constantly makes us own personal smart at viewing the content and remembering traumatized feeling so severely stung to mind.

Blonde impressive female presence illusion drifts all around my locomotion made route on road and time running. That occasionally makes me bad effect, because almost nobody tries to get blonde lover so personally. At least around me, in my own home country. Except Tokyo districts actively pedestrians can move.

I had been constantly lavitating in any square only for needing blonde lady at each occasion.
After all, I had never been forgetting my younger days' own meeting to H, as the beautiful blonde lady,only one second, thus, my immanent mind had been constantly thinking and imagining, picturing only blonde beauty lady in any moment and only the desirable necessity have been my mind's truly craving identity.

But, unexpectedly, I have some unidentified hunch around meeting some beautiful blonde lady in relatively upcoming near future, so strictly again in my own life.l

(Irregularly continued)

Apr. 5th.     2024