To us, as Agent dispatched abroad, the most integral carefulness we must keep is simply, but unexpectedly hardly completed, at least to my own impression around my own mission, not showing any agent tasty atmosphere to anybody, even if the one could be only one moment crossing mutually stranger relevance, to the one, we have to be pretending only ordinary citizen, though to anybody, we have to display only ordinary citizen, and never making anyone know nor feel some exceptional atmosphere nor so. At this regard, we should be so strongly never so easily crippled, the true vigor and so bold spirit are necessarily demanded. However, in fact, pretending must be to anybody, for surviving this harsh these days reality, we can regard so, very naturally. 

Nevertheless, to me, those days, actually, imminently exhausted spiritual fatigue and another own empty emotion as well approached my own heart and mind. To us, exactly, some strongest solidarity was there to anybody. But on the other hand, to my own past relevant recollective mind, my past lover Tania's appearance was sporadically regenerated in my deeply immanent mind and emotionally I was sensing own heartache feeling.

Certainly, when Inlistened to Eric Clapton's song "Pretending", I personally had own sympathy, he is completely publicly front face, expression and publicly regarding own it has to be more procedurally consciously erasing our own personal mind and idea, but the totaled that pretending appearance by itself can be very ambiguously multiple signified nature, that is to our own mind, actually not that clearly known to ourselves, we could say so either.  Even if for the present jurisprudential justice pritectable we as expendable employed agents, in fact, if we have no easy mind as almost diffusing every stressful thing so well, we must have been extremely exhausted with mission giving own tension and dutiful emotion never to disclose our own secrecy, certainly occasionally, our mind holding tension was reaching to some unendurable limitation as critical point, nevertheless, to it we were personally unexpectedly easily diffusing every stressed aftereffects into only empty state, by ourselves, after all, that very instantly regarding easy mind had helped our own irritating realities into calmed and settled mind so stably and composedly. We team with Armad, Amburtsum, Saddham and me and also Ir◯n staying very severely harder loneliness forced A'quil all were barely evading the insane fantasy conceiving state at one step forward with our own conscious endeavor, to it, we all were having own pride. 

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After all, otherwise, Craig will have so tactful evasion to us as cheering to make us believe he will execute delux liner invited customers important possession items pickpocketing, in fact completely other operation e.g., in Mt. F◯j◯ foothills zone using underground tunnel for drag transportation operation will be persecuted by his own commanding. For that emergently cheering occasion of his, we had nor reducing around promptly converted another transaction switchable sound readiness were never reduced with our maximal vigilance to any angle at least we could took so as much as possible vigilantly and cautiously. Thus, after all, for reacting any unexpected switch made by him, we constantly move from East zone to West one in turn, according to each global situation with constantly unexpected sequence at reacting any unimaginable development around global each country's hegemonic move made by each political leader and those totaled reactionary agenda and policy switching in our own vigilance according our own professional temporary agents specific instinct around interpreting each irregular operation running operated by Charlie Craig. E.g., Isr◯◯l and H◯m◯s, and R◯ss◯◯, and occasionally Ch◯n◯ and H◯ng K◯ng originally autonomous government but still never emancipated from puppet government with Agn◯s Ch◯w, as an activist for anti claiming freedom right against puppet with powered dominance by secret Police organization to expose democratic idea activists as dangerous ones for Central government of Ch◯n◯.
Craig at some occasion, as robber, trying to rescue Democratic activists, but at another occasion, he easily helped corrupted government using behind the scene underground illegal syndicate with multi nationalities and ethnicity identity. After all, he had continued constantly front and back faces as true mind in personal honesty and publicly officially regarded justice protectable posture in each tactfully discriminating at each occasion. Additionally, even F◯I and our own boss organization C◯A could have used double edged sword very tactful ambiguous policy and sound justifying pretentiousness, in frank, also they  were not that perfectly credible organization at least for us all, because those organization must have own internally complicated each sect conspiratory own objection and mutual fierce internal struggle must have been done and clandestinely developed at unimaginably harsh wicked ideas to each other.

(To be continued)

Mar. 30th.      2024