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Toward Myself Enchanted to Clouds

All clouds’ shifting aspect usually interests me so much.
However, that position changing must never interest especially the ones who are business concern and so busy at dealing with management or so, too busy to appreciate them, but I am never so, as much as possible, I frequently confirm the position changing of many clouds.


But anyone could be awaked at own only busy life in the one’s past and feel empty after released from active service with retirement or so, knowing their life was only with busy working life, of course either it is never bad thing, but sometimes keeping empty to mind is never bad thing for you either.


By the way, even the earth’s highest mountain has a limit of height degree according to physical conditioned law, coz probably even mountains have restricted condition to get its height, at the view, nothing could exist to never be controlled to it with clouds.


Meanwhile, respecting parents honestly costs so much at a degree of what to affect injecting cost to own family to spouse and children could get to be paler, everything in contacting and heading for with own honesty is never so possible in feeling never so compatible to all ideally met situation and condition even we privately hope, in so tough life spending, complete compatible state was to be hoped to us, anybody could be smothered with its strong mission feeling, thus we are obliged to select the most important thing in many selective items. That’s a reality to us.
It’s too tough to meet all simultaneously, only it is our absolute truth in survival of our own life.


Surely, we absolutely need passionate mind to anybody in family or kin, but all maximal attention is actually impossible, thus we are obliged to measure all proper balance, in this index, we are obliged to make an effort of doing everything, coz unless we get be millionaire or so, that all compatible attention must be impossible to meet, otherwise, even if we can meet that richer status, all things must never belong to what we can solve in money nor economical stability getting situation, it must be false, attention or sort of gentleness and kindness is never dependent on those factors.


In conclusion, just hoping all wish realized state must be stumbled someday, we can just do all so expediently according to each situation reacting so effectively, but it must never be met so ideally consistently knowing that all hopes could never be met as we have pictured in mind, rather only what the effect and hopeful picture are in gap is the absolute given our truth.


Just we are controlled in our set need and necessity only in pretending of being satisfied with all things so well done and met according to our first wish, making us arbitrarily convinced.
In other words, all first wished are just mind hope and in being obliged to be reviewed to another form is just our truly met life, so actually and substantially.


If we do something, so ardently, other things would be lazily done, all these things could be conditioned to our own will, at the rate, clouds have nothing of it as all our worldly hope and wish at a rate so selfish wish to us, really.


Although, why am I interested in all clouds as long as clouds current, and there’s direction to be transported to somewhere as different location we first confirm them.


As long as we are alive, probably I could never be as if clouds are, needed and questioned what we will have individually must be present and hence I’d be enchanted with all clouds changing location we can look over the skies.


Clouds are coz it is nothing in having will, I can feel that all these can tell me something so unknown and unnoticed things for me.


However, all clouds are infinitely changeable in no moment completely same shape, shown to other clouds, that thing is so similar to number, with rational and irrational numbers or real and imaginary in number, or so, every moment has each own aspect as if all numbers are conditioned so distinctively to other all numbers.


Of course, at the same time of it, any different clouds are conditioned with same aspect shown to other all clouds with particular angle, that sort of both meant reality must remind me of social things as if these clouds are reflected by our worldly and carnally ugly and comical realities, of course it must be my mind having illusion or delusive idea or so, but that feeling must be so stronger attracting when I watch the changing shape of all clouds.


Although, it doesn’t make sense that they all can observe their all aspect, they have no eyes nor ears, nose, thus they could never do all physiologic reaction, however, that no capability in reality rather makes me imagine that we either are in just universal knowledgeable reliability to our own body’s organs, just trustful mind would make us feel and be tangible to all things, but these all aspects are just our perception, really truly substantial things as absolute aspect might have been present at completely different and unknown dimensioned world, you know!


Of course, they have no idea as if we do, either toward what now I suggested on this sentence, but we are all known to us, as the view seen to myself and shape we individually find out around all around of other clouds, and strangely I can find them as so similar to the scenes in real city environment as I cross so many strangers for me mutually any other guys and gals are the same condition, otherwise, when we see some intimate and close friend or pals, fellows at the same work or so and we individually are having own idea to anybody with each different brain and mind with heart’s emotion.
Substantially in front of Lord, all differentiated items are either in even relevance or the ultimate in synchronically unified or assimilated one thing, even that expression, we can offer here either, so naturally.


All difference must be in the same aspect if higher classified position view could be supposed here.
Although, all clouds are above us with no idea, as if e.g. I now have that speculating idea anytime possibly.


We just are all ones with own idea, all ones have clouds, people or so, and we make group, and sometimes dispersion from it, making anybody alone, with gathering, crossing at a crossroad or so, isolating, turning to be busy at being surrounded by many ones, or being in absolute solitude, all changes could be done, arbitrarily, but clouds are never seen so, all these are just accidentally done so with no will nor intention, that is so fun, but even we are presumably the same to clouds, if we can have an idea that all things are done with our assured will and intention, but possibly we could be controlled by unseen power, anybody can imagine either so, but as far as concerned to clouds, just they are all materially particles in naturally conditioned to be in mass, but so changeable, that sort of fragmentally things might have own mind, that was never like ours, but it would be assured to them so completely, that possibility we could imagine must be so intriguing, to us, but at any rate, clouds are at least for us, unknown in their minds, of course, it must never be like ours, but presumably possibly being it must be own to them, and that must be so wonderful, and we could never be so unless we die privately.


As long as we survive as alive person, we could never see their mind and their heart, that must be so fun and so annoyable and irritating us so much.


Presumably all of clouds cynically look down to us, of course in another way to be perceived to us of them, unexpectedly possibly they either have own mind and look down on our acts, we all just below them, it is so certainly what we can admit.


But we see all of them do so, just accidentally, we have no particular attention nor vigilant watch, that matter is so strangely but so funnily enjoyable.
We are in deeply connected relevance but simultaneously so irrelevantly no intervention and mutually negligent couple, but either it must be so fun.


They all so easily accidentally positioned according to each time different climate condition and weather trend, at least for us, they have no mind as if we have and are annoyed with it, of course essentially it could never know to us and presumably to them neither, even they’re correct that they’ve no mind, never as well as we do, its thing could never be so wrong, what we regard somewhat wrong or good must be our own expedient judgement, coz they just are drifting above earth grounds, and streaming in own current, of course that current has no identification of promoting, just according to each momentary condition, surely we are all arbitrarily move and stay somewhere and occasionally look up to the clouds, but it’s never scheduled nor particularly so intentionally done so, it’s okay, just we have changing location and long staying at the same location in repetition, but its thing must never be reflected to our own mind unless somewhat so emotionally big thing takes place to us, privately.


Just we are anytime with and beside our own will and intention, that reality must never be wiped out from us, absolutely, thus our seeing clouds sometimes mean so much to us, it’s certainly.


Because our life spending appearance could be seen to clouds even they have mind like us, just we can look up to them, look over clouds so consciously as we like, and to clouds, possibly we are seen above on the contrary to us, you know.


In conclusion, at any epoch form, each one’s way to be completely the sole, but simultaneously constantly any epoch is on the same condition, as we are all here and there, and elsewhere, and with some clouds in each accidentally conditioned, these mutually co-existing matter has been so universal, we can infer so, it’s never false, and it’s so fun.


At the matter of fact, we can never have any completely objective view to us, presumably even to clouds, but clouds are never us, thus we can regard you as other ones as if we feel strangers in city so completely other ones. But to clouds, their own view to them and us must be present, it must be distinct to us mutually unseen what it is, but it must be preset as it is.


All components drifting in space with universe’s it, and the earth’s it is just fragilely at a view to be deliberated so deeply. But its view is either just so emotionally held to us, coz even we are destined to be none, another day in future. Either our mind with own idea as much as any tip or dust in universe and even the earth.


All ones in the earth are partial one as point in vast flat surface, and they anytime are drifting and moving. Above them, all clouds anytime are doing as well as we are.


Bellow all clouds, we just are drifting to anywhere, so easily never bound by anything, but nobody is accepting that anybody is just only a tip of the earth, as if all clouds’ every component is, coz not only us but also they either have no room to take them a tip in universe, you know.


All tragedy contents and comedy them consist in its truth. The earth itself consists of all these contents with ours, clouds, or anything.


(Dec. 23rd. 2019, Feb. 3rd. 2020)