We are never able to know us as absolute subjective being, although when we are moving or staying at the location midst in largely opened space, we only can know our own presence as so tiny small point on the field.
We only can see us so minor presence, with its empirical daily fact, we can easily be noticed to that we are so powerless and small being, in its cognition, we know the reason to have own shame or shyness, in daily life.

Shyness is made of human’s consciousness held in relatively thought and assessed idea and spirit, thus it means social consciously reasonable factual truth.
But shame is very different from it. Coz shame in consciousness originates in moralistic view with reflection toward past acts of us, so privately and if we have more ethical view around our life, we can have so religious reflective mind, and we can make sure of mind so knowledgeable and perceiving sinful regret in emotion and with taboo we can insert it into our so tempting all things to us, and there we can find shame as emotional way to feel to own thing, private acts.

As I emphasize, we can confine us in a room when we need deep thinking for doing some so crucial issue in life, both publicly and privately.

But simultaneously, we can have mind wanting to open each myself, we sometimes make us opened to open space, for diffusing mind deadlock, we are often needing to stay at open space, in larger field for a change ( it could be found not only in local zone but also in the city ).
For its our necessity, we can define us as so in both senses with one as so emotionally we need us kept in door, but simultaneously we at another chance need us emancipated into widely opened space, freeing from our spontaneous confinement, it means.

Of course, we need to be blocked breathing in open air, either, coz we need spontaneous confinement to us because it makes us concentrate our consciousness in thinking mode and have a good idea, that trial must never be done in opened air, coz it threatens us have infinite information with nature and artificial temptation to be attracted to them.

In other words, we dare to have mutually contradictory heterogenous co-existence with opening our body to the air and closing our body in small space repetitiously, its turn and switching must make us shyness and shame synchronically with each distinct role to us in emergency or danger, crisis in daily life.

Its automatically drive our emotionally natural mind is caused from our potential need to evade all monotonous feeling in same situated with our own body, as if we feel us with it, we want to diffuse it to the air.
Eventually at this thing, private-ness and publicness are never so dividing, coz its definition is just only for our situated discernment when we debate around our acts in life with civilization and society, of course private emotion means publicly secured never to disclose all in mind, and public emotion means that private things emotionally disclosed situation must never be forced nor for it any forcible menacing must never be provoked to anyone, these ethically guaranteed social order implicitly and consciously.

Thus, individual and public character are mutually crossed in proposition and mutually arbitrarily taken in turn in our mind and consciousness, and consciousness means that we all are social creature and for the aim to keep it secured, we need it, so certainly to our own mind, so privately and to any other one, so publicly.
These things are so metaphysical ethical issues invoking incentive, to us in daily life and for keeping a consciousness to have own personality as being myself to all other ones.
(to be continued)

(Jan. 31st. Feb. 14th. 2020)