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Delight hardly comes to us, but if it appears, it must be so restricted to be rarely gotten to anybody

Delightful encounter as a cloud nine to own property with interest and concern is always so rare.


Thus, in delightful meeting, anybody is in the sole touching experience.
Loving the one who comes to myself is consistenly so rare, as if the miracle approaches by itself, very unforseen meeting, unlooked-for crash to something.


Words itself is so interesting, why a meaning of something has own pronunciation is either my own curious urging thing.


Lie is pronunciated in Hangul, 거짓말 kojimmal, but in Japanese, 嘘(うそ)uso.
For example, cat is pronunciated in hangul, 고양이 but it could be heard for Japanese, koyagi (子山羊・こやぎ), it means child goat. By the way, in Japanese, cat is 猫(ねこ)neko.


Why a languge has one meaning with a particular pronunciation or one pronunciation with particular meaning must be in no meaning.
Probably completely it must be accidental to any speaker of any language.
That encounter with meaning and pronunciation means so miracle and very restirained chance, but it has no deepened reason.
If God was so actually present, its example must be the God’s mischief or so, we could say.


As if that exmaple can be set, our delight comes to anybody in so rare chance, and it means as if a word must be set only with one meaning and one pronunciation as correspondence, love emotion or meeting to language except own mother languge, if it could be possible to someone, he or she must meet the God’s mischievous trick and that one must be charmed.


Probably its kind of chance or opportunity, or fortune are all in no meaning, as if the combination or correspondence between meaning and pronunciation.
One small girl meets one sturdy big guy, it must be either so accidental, and it does never mean so much, but for them so delightful.


So, delight happens suddenly always so unexpected, to anybody.
Anytime, we can never mean any delight, delight must be so sudden miracle’s coming, it must never be meant so much, but it must be so inaccsessible to anyone but participant in any case.
And only it must be our alive truth, mustn’t it?
(Jan. 8th. 2019)

Narrowing own world means Expanding self subject and Meta-world’s Necessity of us

Encounter is utterly selected to anybody.
It must need speculation, but to intuitional, and memory brought back to the place anybody has haunted, but now never visiting or unforgotten words in inspirative deliberating.


All of these combined feeling must guide us to a renewed unexpected meeting, its trait is so unexpressive, but so obvious to our own mind as never lie, never illusion.


We must be aware of the discernment between illusion and reality.
If we could never do so, anybody is possible to be insane.


Namely, even so old day’s incident or event, accident happened to own life and mind must never be forgotten to the one concerned to them.
One meeting is absolutely so unexpeted seed to wonder, it is equal to trick by time, time must never involve anything, but anytime only time must witness all occurring or beginning, ending, any changing.


After expiring anything so routine and mission or so, then suddenly our consciousness must be narrowed so subjectively and its shifting must guide us meet some unmet thing or matter as shiny so impressive to the one who meets, and narrowed selected it must change us into unseen widened world, and so wonderful miracle, and we get to be assured of that we are gifted only so restricted view, but simultaneously we are imagining the meta world as only God knows and can see, but we must never be able to do.


Meta, and absolutely fair and equalified view is universally needed and that substance must never be explicated by anyone, but its necessity is consistently absolute, rudiment and so indispensable anyone could predicate so, but it must never be grasped by anybody as just human-being.


Narrowing natural transition is always the finger to us, then we should treat it so precios and keep it in our mind as so heavily honest something, it is equal to be absolute, worth to be reviewed so many times.


Expanding must never guide us to any expanding world.
Only narrowing our mind runaway must guide us to miracle urging expansion and extention to the universal space.
Thank, all of narrowed space and its possibility!


(Jan. 8th. 2019)

Escape Road Part 22 Junchansan

Terrorist Shocker making Mrs. Elegance for the time being relaxed for persuading her in the relationship with him exchanging for looking over her life, he responded smartphone call from his man,
“How are you doing that order? Is it so well?”



His man as faithful to Shocker individually and officially replied his question,
“Yes, sir, according to your order, three next boss’s men’s execution was expired through garbage separation plant’s and with waste treatment plant exclusively used only for corpse disposal you nominated as your acquaintance was successful to this time mission. And next boss’s the youngest man was in hospital and I made him make you understood in your ask to overlook anything about you, and he was able to survive in disabled facility you nominated with his poor family either. Everything was under your control.”


General Shocker listening to his report, responded to him with his smartphone,
“You did so well, then, please the return to your routine work of you.”
Said so to him, he was with Shocker’s smartphone made his clear voice to be heard to him that,
“Yes, I understand, General.”
He said and expired his speaking and smartphone call.
General Shocker next soon called to Dionisius Superintendent with his phone.


Dionisius Superintendent in his Metropolitan Room of Police headquarters answered phone call from General Shocker and listening to his report and said to him,
“I see, then do it as you like.”
He expired his phone talk.


Tim reported officially to his subordinates,
“Today is Christmas Eve, then the member of you who applied for your paid vacation, please take your holiday since today’s noon returning your home and enjoy your Christmas. Cheers for your hard work, doing well me this time, thank you very much!”
Then anybody in this temporary investigation headquarters’ waiting room all at once, said,
“Yes, I understand sir!”
They restarted to talk together after Tim declared their holidays and stated to play the game with his smartphone for a while, he received the call from Major General of his country’s Self-Defense Force, directly and was declared the expiration and dissolution of temporary investigating joint team with Force and Police.
That was caused from Superintendent’s demand, that Major General told him, either.
And after rest was expired, soon he again gathered his subordinated four persons with calling near them and said,
“This team’s mission was dismissed now by Major General’s order, then if the one with remained mission, please return to your own regular work, each of you. Then you don’t have to stand by until noon, you did the best work for this temporary team as emergent secret military work, I tell you the best thanx.”
Listening his saying, anybody in that team was responding to him,
“Yes, sir, thank you very much for ordering us.”
They are saying so, started to ready for going home.


Looking at Lily also readying for going home, Tim called her behind her,
“You did so well, that time, but you’ve been so anxious about your lover, but your man is never amateur, then you might stand by enjoying your Christmas with your family, and wait for his call from somewhere, if your lover would contact you with his phone, please report to me soon, I’ll go out soon for rescuing him.”
Lily was a little gloomy but regaining her small relief of her mind and replied him said,
“Yes, sir, I’ll stand by my home.”.



Meanwhile at the temporary waiting room of General Shocker, he confirmed her so relaxed after drinking coffee and sighing for a second, then he started to tell her,
“Surely your now man was rescuing you so temporarily, but it was just emergent impulsive love, as if Stockholm syndrome or so, generally speaking, of course, I advocate that your temporary Savior claiming justice is needed to us, but actually the society was never moved only with that kind of officially ideal, I know it so well and your husband is either, I believe, It is never so gentle saying, I know, but really your husband’s that capability had no longer so normal as he had before, then he was so honest and diligent to be a Superintendent, taking account of it we should warmly welcome his the last mission as Superintendent until his retirement age, so calmly and so easily.
Namely we have the best choice to keep his concern matters all so peaceful and generously, with a little mercy, don’t you think so either?”
Listening to his saying, Mrs. Elegance was a little weeping with so lower voice tone and said to him,
“Please help his life, please, he desperately rescued me despite of that he was just stranger for me and also for him I was just so.”
She sued him, and he continued to talk to her,
“Man has pride, that could be applied to your husband either, with that so shameful accidental matters, moreover you have no need to humiliate him, don’t you think so either?
Listening to it, Mrs. Elegance was questioning to him,
“How can I help him, what should I do for you, from now on?”
General Shocker as if standing by that questioned situation continued to talk to her,
“You are already known my will and hope to you, aren’t you?”
Mrs. Elegance said to him again,
“You need me, what you need is only me, isn’t it?”
General Shocker nodded and after a few while said to her,
“If you hope you continue to keep company with him also from now on, I would be okay, simultaneously you have him as a boyfriend, I’m not so unwise guy, no matter how you put it on me, I am so never ungenerous man, you know, if you wish so cravingly him forever, you can love him either, but it has an absolute condition, it has to be limited chance I can permit you to do so, if I utterly need you, you must be my partner, you ought to know it so well.”
He kindled his cigarette and smoked once deeply and said again,
“If you so ardently need him so much, I allow you to cohabit with him either, but I would be always accompanied with you, it’s just the condition, hey, that is the best choice to keep everything not so jolted by anything, it was the adult judgement together, don’t you feel so either?”



Meanwhile, Mat in Silo bound with iron chain, he desperately thought how he could be freed from that situation, he tried to make himself so composed as much as possible then he remembered his younger days than that time him, with the first meeting to Lily, that was so sweet memory to him too, and probably to her also she was so young, and he tempted her to be steadily loving him as a different sex person, he said to her,
“Your action in trainings is consistently has never futile moving perfectly, that was so impressive to you, until the first chance to train together.”
“Oh, it’s my pleasure to listen to your opinion like it, so pleased with you saying so much.”
Her response was so delicately womanish, he felt so, she was never the one who was so common, just familiar, namely it had the particularly fascinating it to him.
He knew that Lily was never so disgusting to him either as he was in never so bad emotion to her from the first moment to some days with many trainings with her.
Surely Lily’s poise was so smooth and so rapid with no vacant moving.
Then he had an idea about her since the first moment to look at her, her the charm only woman had was so captivated to him, any loving emotion was so sudden, not gradually, but now he was in perfectly different situation to any sweet memory about Lily, he seriously though the true reason to precipitate himself into so risky and endangered situation.
That was so extremely constructive to now situation, coz memories with Lily was all so sweet and enjoyable.
But he could no longer return to those days with Lily.
He made up his mind to even go to hell with Mrs. Elegance.


He tired to looked at everything at his confined silo and he looked at each material in that space, he confirmed the ladder near wall of that silo, it stands beside the window so near as if skylight effect to that space. But it was a little distanced to window’s position, he deliberated how he could move it by himself, he had an idea that these iron chain must be used for changing the position of that moment’s situated beside the wall, namely if he would try to fling over to that standing ladder’s foot parts and with these iron chain, he must be capable to make its position changed nearer to the window’s position.
For this, he must discover the material for breaking these binding his feet and only one long it must be left to change ladder’s position, and he discovered the stone weigh with net attached only for blocking any hay bellow them to dispersing to the air with wind when a window was needed to be open, but he measured that stone weigh was laid distanced from his bound position about his tall length, he was 5.9 feet, for touching it he must move his body whole to that position so gradually, he at that moment that he was assure of it, he made up his mind to do so step by step, what he could do was just only it, he abandoning any fantastic everything and targeted to shift his body gradually from that moment on.
He rethought that how tough his Christmas was, but all things around himself was invited just by himself, he knew it so well and he decided never to think any needless things also with sweet memory around his lover Lily.
(to be continued)


(Jan. 7th. 2019)