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Mirage Out of the Blue Floating in front of My Eyes Part41

I at the matter of fact used my left hand’s ring finger euipped micro digital camera to shoot Charlie Craig’s profile when I firts witnessed his appearance, and immediately with my right hand taken into right pocket at pants, I sent Y, that his profile photo. I anytime had preparaed these all devises for emergently necessary occasion.


His driving car making me get in behind seat made transition to more empty and desolated one colder air tangible area, that must have been the hollow part and that depression’s extent was unexpectedly so larger, and approaching midst center part, any landscape confirmable at any hem of that hollow was hidden at being incapable to look around that location in the middle of mountain and mole, but unexpectedly larger extent gave that zone more so vaster, at least for me at the moment we arrived at several minutes later from my being attended moment.
He almost nearly mumbling by himself, “I just want the place invisibly nobody could easily check my appearance, still now, since so many earlier days in my life.” but obviously intentionally making me heard of it.


I whimsically questioned my wanting thing to him, talking to driving him, saying, “Do you like to play Pachinko? That was caused from your visit to Japan?”
To it, he easily replied to me, saying nodding to my suggestion,
“Yeah, I visited several times either Y〇k〇ta air-force base for business when I was employed at S〇l〇con Valley’s laboratory. downtown around that base, so impressive that shop was located, and after job finished one day routine, I frequently visited there and played so much, and went to drink nearby, ever in the period.”hand


He stopped his driving car, and looked back to me and started conversation with me subjectively before I mentoned something.
“You came here for reseaching my activity and get true verified data and transmit them and contact your clinet or the one’s dispatching ones and hand me over to them, right?”
To it, I honeslty nodded to his asking.


I after taking one pause to his talking, slowly made utterance at asking him, saying,”By the way, you were born at the same year with Bi〇l G〇t〇s, and you either were exprected and anticipated by many ones around your community and your settling locality’s fellows and citizens, nevertheless, you’d gotten so fallen into underground world, what had you made so?”
To it, he Charlie Craig showed his sneering expression to me sitting on his driving seat, he slowly started to talk to me like convincing me as if one great elder one tried to make younger one learnt by his correct guide.
“As first action you should take, look around these days’ worldwide situation, otherewise, our global community attending kind of so crazy all movement and publicized all precise data around this world’s any term’s ruined condition and circumstance.”
His tone and pace at speaking to me was very calmed, composed and mildly persuasive at least at that time to me.”
He once quitted his pace at taking his speech to me, and I urged him to continue saying,
“Then, what do you intend to speak to me, now?”
To it, he immediately nodded and resumed his speaking, talking like,
“Yes, that’s the point, you want me confess my all evil-doings ever I had done and these reasons to actuateb me at doing everything, you know, but that could have been some kind of my despair toward world by itself, because very consistently all communities could have done only instatnly easy procedure at assressing to anything, and only very lazy and so rude ones could have won any other employee and concerned one. That is still the absolute truth in world, and just they need us as so seemingly rude at being drapped out from orcinarily regarded so correct path or kind of orthodox regarded standard method, but actually that was completely illusion, becausr anytime only betraying and cheating ones could have instantly necessary team only for expeling anyone who was not attenind that main cheating stream they all implicitly have made at conspiracy, but when I made my feet head for truely downtown at the West side streets, there were so many honest ones who desperatedly had tried to go up for sustaining their families and beloved ones for them, you see.”


To it, I suggested him to make one small pause, and said to him,
“yeah, I see, please keep your talk.”
To it, honestly he continued subsequently serial talk.
“Those days, we all members at my belonging section, I was engaged in some very secretly running one grave project, and almost anybody were desperately addressing to each mission, that was beforehand of 1989 Tiananmen Square protests and massacre, we all sincerely engaged us in so necessary MS-D〇S pioneering, that term was impressed with our laboratory’s adjoining another it was engaged in next generation’s great scientific inventing idea around D〇ll〇, consequently died 6 years old at 2003, but in general very many outstandingly wonderful scientific and internet and cyberspace’s fields’ popularization and its advancement was anticipated those days, nevertheless in our very limited professional programmers’ circle, everyday, only very harsh cheating, betrayal to former fellows and only the pullout from others and the fierce industrial espionage competition between rival companies were overheating. Eventually anybody were feeling that yesterday’s enemy is today’s fellow, necessarily contrary cases were never rare in our circle. And necessarily either I had so strongly positively regarded ambition with those days’ team member, and I just took charge of scheming that team’s upcoming future prospect, however, that team’s one the best comrade at least to me, one day he suddenly submitted an event and was pulled out by the same s〇l〇con in the valley to a higher position, but the model he presented in his department was exactly the same as the model I’ve been working on and desperately developing.He was also an industrial spy who had infiltrated by marking me for a long time, perhaps to develop it ahead of me in the other person to put me on the front.
After all, my elaborating schemed any project was stumbled and any other one around me left me alone, only I was left behind in the abandoned department. At last I had no one who could sustain me and I subjectively expel my position to other circle and reached to that position now we’d preserved since those days, and when I entered in that next my nest, consequently, 1989 Ti〇nmen Square protests and massacre was incidentally taking place at global community and 11 years later MS-D〇S was successfully released to popular market, those days I had been obliged to engage me in another top position at smuggling underground business, necessarily very many oldest my fellows could provide me many information around circulation circle’s human network, because eventually either my country’s worldwide political status could have relied on either so blackened markets’ conspicuous and impetuous schemes, because any major country’s economy and world credit could have been gotten only at mutual concession around negotiation, and expedient behind agreement, if our business could wither, either frontline at orthodox business circle and government could have ruined at economy and financing, that was and even these days the truly convincing truth for any global stage to now world, you know.”That time he gradually summarized his confession around what he’d stepped around entering into underground world, according to his subsequent explanation, afterward 1989 Ti〇n〇nmen Square protests and massacre could get solution so far, that incidents’ pulling one so symbolic refugee W〇’〇rk〇〇x〇 and Craig participated in his lecture at L〇, and through his human network, he established more gigantic syndicate network with assorted concern M〇sl〇m’s them and he had fallen into darkened business circle.
I several times, “Why didn’t you cling on other rescuing person in your laboratory circle?” To my that earnest question he constantly responded only telling me “Just anybody around me was at last cheating me and only I was left behind in the darkest position.” in iteration.
I at each his that talking, sighing so much, but my memory at these serially recollective contents was suddenly shredded, because my consciousness was out of the blue cut at around there, with my so dull and damned pain at my back of my head.


(to be continued)


Dec. 3rd. 2021