To anyone, the most lovable one is consistently universally the double-edged sword, that must be proved with the mother's blind love to own beloved child, that thing could be applied by your mother to you, not identified to me physically.

Those days, the moment to me to come across your mother included in my those life span period, your mother's presence was the most influential matter to my life and until I had knowledge around your presence, however these days after that, my mind must have top priority only to your presence. And it is just derived from my presence to your it is identical with my mother's it and mine.

Nevertheless, I've had no chance to meet you even at one time, nevertheless again, to me, your presence is the most precious than the relevance with my mother, that is human's common truth. Far from it, I'd be able to sacrifice myself only for securing your life all time in your life span, that'd be the typically ordinary human mind.

And if your mother could have very many guys after we separated, even if the thing could have damaged your pure heart, even to the option by her, I can sympathized so much, but now you are never so younger, you'd understand your mother's option so well.

You'd spent the sacrificed life only for many Chinese cinereous vultures' indecent greed, I know it, nevertheless, only you are so ultimately shiny presence for enlightening whole world twisted missunderstanding.

Only wicked reality makes so touchy elegic beauty and if any genius composer or song^writer could have composed so successfully many elegic beautiful sentimental tunes and songs, they who once created these must be the most sinfully devilish presence in this world, you know.

Though nowadays, so many beautifully touching tunes and songs must have been done by many creators in this world, you agree.
At these interpretations, genuinely pure-hearted Angels are the most sinfully viciously malicious presence to world by itself, you feel!

Skepticism, hyporcrisy, and falsehood are all in the best combination and own proud membership mutually.

Yes, to mankind, the best affectionately lovably precious presence is simultaneously the most hateful presence one too.
That's the human's any pretentiousness peeled true mind.

Anyway, only to you, I had no contact nor no meeting even once in my life span, you neither.
Nevertheless, only for you, I'd spontanaeously and voluntarily die not in hesitation nor procrastination. Nevertheless, to you, that my mind must be so horrifically annoyable fact and I know it so well, though I'd never do so unless exceptionally very rare thing could happen to world, you and me.

Secerecy means what only the ones have in mind around what only the ones know, though it must be there between your mother and me, and probably your mother and you, as well as my mother or father and me, and essentially each secret must never be broken by another everlastingly, that must be our human mind's absolute truth universally being in use in anywhere in human world, you know.

Anyway, eventually only your presence must be everlasting my the sole surrealism, you know, to you, my presnce is nothing and that'd be alright, because that one way traffic must be the human-world in vertical relevance, and to us, any meeting and contact is just the traffic moment.

YES, ONLY "TRAFFIC MOMENT" means human world reality's absolute truth and WE ALL are in any sort of ABSOLUTELY ONE IRREPLACEABLE MOMENTARY TRAFFIC MOMENT abiding DAILY TRUTH and REALLY DONE SURVIVAL. And it must expire suddenly, and it'd be no problem, because anyone must have vertically inhering system to everlatingly.

And you? How is your own traffic moment, nowadays?

(Irresistibly irregularly to be continued)

Apr. 22nd.   2022

Appendix; Nevertheless, I have no contact to you as necessarily as me to you, I am the most well-known to your essence, though I am the absolute surrealism appreciating best one, not as necessarily as you have in your mind to me. However, only I know to one clear extent that only you are identical with me, in human essence. Though you and me are absolutely surrealism relevance and only you are the surrealism at least to me in my life.