I don't want only my own haphappiness, so selfishly, nor only my advantage and profit.

However, even if I want the trutruth that anybody should be happy, I don't do that thing perperfectly constantly, neither.

Just at least to my own beloved ones, I want true happiness, even if I was never completely happy.

After all, I want more that anybody is happy than only that I am happy.

In other words, only I as myself could be happy and satisfied with it, that reality does never make me easy, far from it, I'd never survive the reality.

Necessarily, wishing only any people's happiness on the earth could be hit to setback, because very many evil doings could activate them in our society, you know, necessarily, I want either all devilish ones' ruin and extermination so earnestly, nevertheless, its emotional mood is not constant.

Even if I was a little bit less than ordinary happy ones, what my all familiar ones could be happier is better than what only I was happier than them.

My ordinary idea is that so.

Upper all truth at least to me could be seen so normal, nevertheless on the earth, completely different ones are so many present alive on this I can imagine so.

But that idea at least to me is not so important.

Because what all I want this world must be never desecrated of my precious belief, and only it'd be kept so normally, any other wish is not so important.

Words are gadgets or tools for signifying each necessary meant things at each occasion. But simultaneously, that's so familiar being to us, you know.

I'm never fanatical believer in the extent that normal ones could not with only the one's familiar thing must surpass anything but it. I'm just one of ordinary justice advoate. Nevertheless I do never wish only that embodiment, even at sacrificing my life for that reality' s acquisition, though in terms of that reality of me, I am only so ordinary guy.

One so exceptional language is the sole privileged at the most supreme than any other, the idea is nothing to do with this earth's truth, and this example must be applied either to racial identity, ethnicity, and idea, ideology, course, and sensitivity, too.

However, we'd never survive our own familiarity neither, because it'd be some indispensable our own lives' irresistible force.

Yes, surely, only knowledge is never panacea, nevertheless if we had no knowledge utterly, we'd never have that idea so correctly. But certainly, in fact, even if we had no knowledge about anything, we'd have so preciously merciful idea so positively, substantially.

That could be seen never only calculation around own advantage. Iwn other words, not only selfish but some kind of lovable items.

Necessarily, that thing could never be depicted at so clear appearance in our brain, so independently, perhaps that'd depend on each so occasionally, some kind of out of the blue, fortune or opportunities to anybody, you know.

Probably, I 'm never so strong as I'd survive everything, in the situation I'd throw wishing mind of mine away from me, and that's not that bad.

Nevertheless, I do never want my wish only preceded by world, necessarily I have not that idea, so really.

Nevertheless, exceptionally, even if I'd witness that so selfisih ones' act, so really, but perhaps I'd never curse the ones who must be punished by Lord.

Of course, either, very exceptional case could come up with me or my future, but I'd never experienced that case so far.

Though, if that selfish ones come up to me in future, I have no idea around what to do for solving it, so far, to now me.

Even if the one could do me the worst unforgiven thing, now I'd never have the most effective deal against it, for the present, even in imagination.

Nevertheless, I can feel that not suffering from the worst thing, but only so small stabilized calm life must be what I want me in my future. Though, even ideal could consist in its really embodied future life.

Though, necessarily, I don't want my future ending only in commonplace and bored person's it. Nevertheless, at the same time, I don't want future me belongs to so radically, epoch making great talented ones' them, neither, even so tiny degree.

However, unexpectedly, only spending so normally ordinary life is difficult, recently, I woke up from another fantasy.

Well, so far, what I can mention is only these.

Nevertheless, I'd never yet articulate that these now my ideas must never change, anymore, neither, you see.

Jan. 10th., 2022 written in Japanese, translated into English at M ay. 31st., Jun. 2nd.  2022