If you do something you think you should do so well, around any your stepping trial, you must feel that any kind of troublesome circumstance and the idea of it which can torture your own mind, how can you react to any sufferable circumstance? But probably it only depends on your own idea.

In fact, at least I have no obviously credible idea, though at each occasion, I only try to evade any nasty problem to handle through no showing any responsible attitude to anybody. That could be so mean attitude, but no other better idea is made on my mind, so personally in honest.

No matter what we try to do specifically first trial to us, that own contradictory distress must attend our own mind and reality around us.  
And after all, in doing anything, not that well foreard only our expectable view can be seen, that case probably can be only the easiest and simplest thing for us as very accustomed action or habit. 

In other words, any new trial must have own difficulty and own hardship around the deal for newly pioneered path making to any other one whose idea is not always for us advantageous. 
However, at that card, we should have some course that to any asking partner, to the one, we should have so adavantageous condition as the material for consulting and trading or any case. 

In other words, no matter what we try to execute, the helping one's own power is so necessary, though to the one, not that worse condition should be previously prepared for in our own readiness around beginning our own project.

After all, we should do everything so well not at making any concerned one own antipathy, though in the end, to us, no matter what we try to do, only very endurable mind never to be pressured by any externally pushing threat not at better meaning, only interfering intentional harassing. 

Necessarily, only conceding attitude showy stance won't be good running mother, no matter what we try to do, though what we should express as the minimally not conceding condition, but excessively no generous only arrogant stance should be abstinated, though unexpectedly no matter what we try to do, completing our conceiving first idea must have so bigger distress and painfully exhausted reality to us, in honest.

Though, paying those all hardship could deserve the first pictured idea around embodying or not, that assessment in mind must be clarified so completely. No passing those processes must make smother our own neck and our own core idea attending heart. 

No matter what we try to do so challenging thing, we should assess which is truly practicing deserving thing or not so carefully. Because no matter what we try to do, first doing must have own troublesomeness and specific barriers to disturb our own trying act. Because first trial must make us know our own inexperienced powerless nature. 

(Irregularly continued)

Jan. 13th.     2024