Duelly was talking around these days unexpectedly sufferable own Ms. Billa Scottish talk as response to her own rescuing sign, said like next, "You are so marvelous one in our own circle, thus even if you this time had very out of the blue harder time, even the thing and matter should be replaced with your own wonderful songs expression, so easily in no hesitant mind of you, you know."

For Duelly, these days own Ms. Billa Scottish respect back stage visiting and mutual own commradership among musicians are very significantly cheering experience and daily view switching occadion provisionary things at least these days her own life apperance. She had gotten already very stable singing and composing in pioneering singer philosophy, nevertheless, she felt that even if she had so many stages carreer, she still had own fearfully terribly tension holding mental depressed mind as well, that was never so easily diffuse, but at that thing, occasionally mutual talking friend was made in her life, that was the presence of Ms. Billa Scottish. Surely these days are to anybody, very individually freedom guaranteed daily life, nevertheless, extremely optional freedom generously given to anybody, necessarily some own afraid mind or kind of own anxious minded time sometimes, or sporadically assaults them including Duelly. To some reasonable extent, she at some days spent her own home visit so intentionally, and in it, she certainly discovered those days own her besieged situation in terms of deva own mentality and her independently held circumstance simultaneously.

She watching herself occasionally dressed apperance of her, at another time, naked apperance, in the mirror set at her own room, as reflected her own figure, those days her own spent life apperance e.g. with meeting older friend or so, she in objectively regarding recollected and had own introspective mind as well. And unexpectedly, the visit by Ms. Billa Scottish and her own encouraging words and each her depicting term were all seen so impressive and encorragably thankfully felt at those days her mentality and spirit.

She sometimes impulsively in her home's the most relaxing room for her by herself, shouted by herself at the moment to know something new, originally very natural, but with some social hindrance never do esdily confirmed truth in her mind suddenly awakened from dormant inertia manageable period, but necessarily nobody can be heard the voice made y her. Her own the best hit song, "My Amor Once More" overpassing new song in frank she craved to come th her mind so naturally, but more thinking so, less approachable to her, the typed new wonderful song to her. 

She was with general fans could have own image around her, she was severely criticized by many ardent fans to her since her debut was made, but even to it, lately Ms.Billa Scottish have suffered from was on the contrary encouraged her mind so strictly and very strongly positively. Because anytime Ms. Scottish was honest about her own mind distressed ideas around dealing with by herself so earnestly. 

After all, as long as anybody is only accompanying own mission feeling around what the one is engaged in for livelihood, anybody's mind is after all only stubborn around it, after all, nobody is distinctively particularly given gift, we can say so either around all us in the circle, world on the earth. To it, Duelly who had been singing in front of any fan to her on stage, was very consciously noticeable, she had strict self confidence around the fact. 

She after so long period days passed by herself, she had some another feeling around creating new songs, some very useful chips for encourraging her to create new value songs. 

Ms. Billa Scottish in talking with her or so was very contributing her to switch her own consciousness from negatively attached mind into some positively regarded creating stance acquisition.

(Irregularly continued)

Mar. 11th.    2024