Billa was surely aware of that for any professional artists with musicians as singer and song writers like her and Duelly Lipes are in some so certain truth that on the earth any credible truth is what could be believed and surely advocated by very many general citizens as ordinary sense credibly accompanying ones is the sole relatively long period credible, no matter what anyone who tries to make an effort of engaging the oneself in composing tunes and creating lyrics or so, the truth won't be switched. 

And, in frank, gripping the course in embodying their own daily actitivty must be more so difficult to anybody who belongs to the entertainment circle. But to her, Ms. Duelly Lipes was very reliably credible and helpful older sister whose own taste was helpful and bravely credible one for cheering Billa's depressed and losing mind for having self confidence. However, as mutually professional entertainer deva, two ones own debut date and activity length were almost so identical to each other. Though they two devas frequently through Instagram or any other mutually possible tool and their own measures, had taken mutual communication at any time they wanted to have so personally.

One day, after Billa had visited Duelly's dressing room for the first time, at second chance to have courtesy call to her, she visited her reporters' interview reception venue and after her duty to respond any interviewer whose curiosity was identified with what any fan of her wanted to ask, she displayed her greeting courtesy and kept silence for a while, then, Duelly said to Billa, "Your now not talk silence means your own trouble, doesn't it?"

After mutually not that smarter silence had inserted both devas conversation for a while, suddenly Duelly said to Billa, like next. 

"At the matter of fact, to me, beforehand I released my own "Amore again", I had some distrustful emotion to any ever trusting and at least to me, seen believable one had cheered me with some reason of the one, those days I had no idea, thus, my mind was at a stretch shredded into minced tips tasty interspersed minded, then, for recovering my own depression those days, I dared to name my new song of recovery necessity lyrical content "Amore again", in other words, that song was originally made by me only for encouraging my depressed days' me, then now, our own encouraging older sister deva, Ms. Adelee, her "Relax you in me" was as well her own necessity to ease her tense heart and mind, around that veteran deva was pressured, her own circumstance had made her write the lyrical song. At the matter of fact, when I was a little girl, my father at a time said to me like next, that was "You should not believe anyone so much than necessity, but at the same time, you also should not doubt so extremely, because nobody has so stiffly only credible idea or thought so confidently, thus if you'd have opened mind to anyone, the one must open the one's mind as well for you." In other words, people to the one whose mind and idea was once told so openly, can tell some helpful words or so, even it'd be so tiny whisper, some encouraging words or so could be done on you."

After all, after mutually goodbye greeting was done on them, Billa had some considerable recollection around what Ms. Duelly older sister deva said to her. That was at a waiting room at the Airport for coming back to her own home country and as well after she got in the airplane for coming back to her US, so serially with no interruption until she came back to her home and stay at her home recording studio again. And after getting herself in recording booth, her mind ordered her to say the lyrical words using no memo with her hand, almost adlib whisper, she from next to next, serially composed lyrical stream was jetted from her immanent mind at a stretch. 

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Certainly, to anybody, own ethnicity abiding idea and sensibility could be attached at immanent mind, nevertheless, it must have not so almost sensed dominance, but it'd never be perfectly excluded neither more. And to what we are never so surely conscious, we'd never analyze so objectively, but to very uncertain and vaguely never perfectly gotten rid idea and sense are never what we are easily neglecting, that own murky territory is so difficult object to interpret to us. And as Duelly said to her, the thing is unimaginably so enigmatically difficult object. Billa was feeling so. But than Duelly could do think it and visit some other country in Europe, she won't do so. To it, Billa was so consciously noticed at her mind, day by day after she was coming back to her home from UK. 

And at one day, at her home recording studio, with the motivation, she tried to make own recording in almost improvisation. As well at her beloved older brother absent time, by herself. That was almost the first experience for her music career. And to her beloved older brother she would like not to tell anything and her recorded footprint was clearly diffused after she did by herself, and she taking once recorded tape went out from her home studio and with her own car, she drove to one not that people visiting zone in her own state, and tried to seek after some so easy loghouse which will be used only for her and she had an intention not to tell anybody around the idea. 

(Irregularly continued)

May. 5th.       2024