Now our social stumbled blockage to our practicng free action means payoff of our and our ancestors' past acts, in no way but doing so those days, certainly we should make harmony in group, and coordinate the unnecessary imbalanced circumstance at each occasion, then we must  have mutual concession to the others, and compromise or kind of conscious sympathy to each other, however, we personally should never switch own course, then, at this view, we can have a chance and occasion of reviewing all our act usually we see so necessary in having no doubt, in other words, we've already known and familiar with that society itself must be not pure fellow nor enemy, or arm nor cradle.

Just, if we have only honesty, or kind of pure-hearted motivation, that mindset is certainly so integral personally on our mind, but actually social issues are all so entangled with many unpredictable factors both internally and externally, then we can catch up with socially shifting and removing intention like Ameba, in other words, the character of society is based on indifference to each our individual circumstance, and apathy not reacting to any private matter for anybody, thus conclusively society is just gigantic never stopping machine, just with unidentified precise gadgets' organized very kinky combination and immovable mission submitting speaker with amplifier with a help of mass-media and proclaiming noisy reportings with TV news programs and rumor and calmination gadgets of terminal in website of internet.

Very many swindling acts, fraud, in other words, society by itself absconds from the position we publicly stand by with its demand, it easily neglects all securing acts to each of us, in other words, society is on basic idea that only society must be secured by anyone, but each personal matter is just up to each person as a citizen of society.
But that very formally official precedure biassed character frequently flubbergasts our mind, when we are in trouble, so personally, then we originally should keep our mind not to rely on society itself than necessity, and do all things with our personally given responsibility, unless we infringe social rule, in other words, as long as we personally do all thngs in our responsibility and showng it to society, society must be helpful to us, that would be so necessary, although we are apt to lose that indentifying to it, namely we being caused from our own problematic issue personally, unconsciously tend to be so selfish for society itself.

And in that unawareness to our own relation between society and us, we can feel so evil-minded intention to us personally in having subconsciously functioning fantasy.

Eventually, society itself having so apathy and neglegence to us, means our lazy neglection in contributing with our own duty or mission to keep society cooperative to each of us.

In conclusion, knowing social reaction to our own behavior or posture in taking individual stance means our own missioned keeping our personal realizable act to society, that might be a little bit so blunt, but rather that stanced work must convince society, it means either that just showng our honesty or kind of pure-hearted posture might do all the other member of our society an annoyance.
However, that our acceptance to worldly society's essence or substantial character is never almighty in taking stance to society, at this term, we'd find essential difficulty around viewing society.
E.g. even very infantile children have already implanted and learnt their idea that society must be a form of falsehood, society is never ideally realized thing for anybody, and before anything else, it can only show posture of expediency, and very many ones as citizens are getting profit in really harmonizing all regulation set in society in having personal honesty, for them all, never having personally honest emotion means just the correct behvior and act as the way it should be.That claim must get another fairly legitimacy, but for very younger children, we should not promote them have flattery nor only affirmate now powered idea, eventually, making our society trustworthy to any citizen and child would be submitted to us as our moralistic mission and consciencious motivation in taking part in social activity, probably to any individual citizen in our society.
( Sep. 3rd. 2020)

Boiling hotness makes anyone have a bad condition, from the beginning, even at a day we cannot spend so easily, either with not so well functioned brain state, additionally abnormally heated temparature rather makes me so unexpectedly, so remarkably spiritually surviving though in dullness.

Only the time nothing but unpleasant duration keeps so inertially, additionally its drivng exhaustion turning to sleepy consciousness manages me, I'm relucutant to making Haiku poems completely, at the result, only unknown logical yelling unidentified kinky melody nor shouting is gradually heard, making it disorderly sophisticational crying turns around.

However, only a scream caused from ultimately wearily bodily fatigueness is projected certainly to my mind.

Never completing, rather I need a crystal tasted pleasant destruction, very aggressively, upheaval tempting collapse, breakup, crevasse, division, dispersion of fragmental mind element, though very cooler and composed yelling turns around.

From the moment to wake up at early morning already very numb at my legs and hands, but after checking them with fMRI, only no problem was found.

That so particular sensation is never yet managed by completion, but done by confusion and even languor could be tangible, creative, finally, even death could never be felt scary to me.

Die! Kick the bucket, hey, completing, be none, wipe out, even these feelings come to me.

Afternoon only keeping with own laziness so inertially.
Gaddemn, bull shit, I'll kick you around, get away from here, I'll never die yet, ass-hole!

Dully lengthy keeping time never generating any better idea on outputting words, in it's extention, whole time so sleepy, though in hotness unpleasantly even blocking me from sleeping so well, although, only strangely very flamvoyant  ideas, next to next, emit to my mind, then after all, wholly my mood is absorbed into anarchy spirit only confused with punkish derrogation, and abusive languages on parade.

Death frees from me, but it must come to me, again, showing smiling face to me.
After all, I get screwed up condition to my brain, and getting confusion at arranging them so neatly, although I want to leave them all, in spite of these facts, only very regurarly, diligent spending of time is kept on my daily life.

Although I cannot help but laugh loud about all these things, though simultaneously come near weeping so sentimental but after all, only choosing is shown in me, physically.

However, so paradoxically, very enfeebled my it at early morning, out of the blue at a moment, so actively reacting to somewhat, in exciting, oh, so out of control to me.

Although, I want to speak out so loudly to my death, die out! But only it so rudely must  indwell my body and spirit, mentally physically on mind, either from now on, so persistently.

Then, I want to scream and conclusion would be accomodated into mad house, and I fart so limitlessly.

Eventually, for the present, I'll be heard so cerefully, all of my body's crying certainly heading for my death, only my ideas emitted from my brain, I want to sprinkle it to and fro, anywhere-else I can, hey mom, bull shit gramma, shabby grampa!

(Aug. 22nd. 2020)

At former part, I described that getting freedom costs having responsibility so certainly, then at some rate, we could judge that as long as we can get ease at surviving, even we want less freedom not daring to cost so heavy responsibility, that was generally so many countries’ common sense, however, nowadays, very busy reporting of many countries’ autocracy and demonstration with resistance to government and dictators as top leaders.
E. g. Middle Eastern, ex-religion museum facilities turned to the Third theism religion m●sque, the vastest country’s very long ages’ one President’s monopoly to governing, their ethnic group is contained one peninsula adjourns the vastest country and sauna favorite using ethnic country which adopts electric government with IT technological transmission, Genesis Original Theism ethnic country hostile with their once outing Third theism one ethnic group, the biggest ocean as ex-colony of Freedom Respecting country, the vastest Latin country, and ex-Silk Road famous carpet producing country, these examples are seen afterward, all citizens were obediently pious to all religious authority and government, but nowadays, equivalently IT technology and very many worldwide information have gotten to be flown into their daily life, then, any citizen was awaked to receive freedom, then very subtly controlling intention by their government could be seen so extremely autocracy, then controlling sided top leaders would be obliged to intensify rein to any citizen, that intention must be caused from very typical citizens getting freedom and individual capability around transmitting to whole over the world, there, almost top leaders got lost of any other ideal government method.

To some extent, otherwise, very remarkable cause to all these phenomena must be, one is Freedom Respecting country’s movies supplied to all over the world, and described contents of them must have given them the extraordinary free images any citizen necessarily have in the country, that illusion must be had held by many countries’ citizens, but actually Freedom Respecting country is at very severe competing society making winners and losers in heavy gapped wealth, and the country has so higher procuring costs of every commodities with personal expense kept by managers, necessarily the country for spreading their authority, then had very many reporting networks prepared for informing whole over the world, but actually< every citizens are so busy and work hard, meanwhile their general creed or religious credo is so pious, e.g. Amish people, Evangelists or so. Eventually that country came to have screwed up caused from police organization’s governing to all parts of country accidentally racial discriminating deal to suspect, with gun shooting, and their liberal citizens stood up for active protesting demonstration, and consequently several victims was produced at crash of mutually hostile demonstrators, then getting these information through TV or so in reporting programs and these contents, impacted by them, very many countries citizens were excited with these impulses. That very typical vicious circle was made necessarily.

contemporary society could never free from all informative notion next to next forces us update every common sense, and its speed to urge us to do would be accelerated, then e.g. if we translate some strategical messages in another language, now translating machine is so progressively convenient, except so attached language, very easily anybody can do, then e.g. except English, we could never learn so passionately, more and more, only Freedom Respecting country would have informative hegemony, Planned economy country would be involved with the hegemonic race and profit competition, then, consistently elite ones, and skillful engineers in the country would have mind stress for mitigating it, the country must have the entertainment strategy for providing violent action movies, and they could give all citizens in world, freedom and free social choice is wonderful, and eventually, informative network with website and e.g. you-tube animation must provide so many media illusion. then, once upon a time in the earth, so restricted number of people could debate and consider Nietzsche’s evil and individual passion to resist all conventional meek religious manner and go against dogmatized ideas, however, nowadays, almost ones in any country must have very anarchy ideas includes online flawd or any kind of cheating to honest citizens, then moreover crimes must increase in any country, consequently, almost politicians as top leaders would never abandon their autocracy forevermore.

Inherently evil presence of us in premise to be in awareness toward us must have been fixed to any individual in world, this politically top leaders’ autoccacy, and enterprizes as congromerates’ very smart strategy must trick very many ordinary citizens in world, and these vicious circle must have many freedom needing citizens agitated to have heavily radical demonstration to their government, then this vicious circle and each country’s autocracy would be even rigidly fixed and never disappear so easily, we can presume so, for the time being.
(to be continued)
(Sep. 1st. 2020)

Note; This time view about political top leaders in taking autocracy was suggested by my closest friend and guru to me, Sir. Hiroshi Kunii(1940-). Eventually, very many countries’ citizens have not accustomed with freedom practicing life than Freedom Respecting country’s citizens, that phenomenal omen is regarded to be necessary in now world society.

In other words, yet very many countries’ citizens might never have so smart controlling technology to top leaders than Freedom Respecting country or older allies countries.
＊Hiroshi Kunii, ethicist, social educationist, researchist of philosopher, John Dewey(1859-1952)