To us, day by day, easily switched situation, any news content but to any generated, done matter, nobody will be interested in each, because at the future already that will be wearisomely exhausted as the news value, thus, fundamentally to us, any thing can be given only passed and valuably invalidated item, the view after all obliged to be fixed. 

And, to our own that wearisome nature of us, but never ceased harsh stream to attack us so constantly are the most typically awful item and to our own mind, some irreplaceable own proposition, u know. No attached to any matter no matter what it is grate nor tiny, everything can be fragile and ephemeral like a song by Sir. George Harrison's "All things must pass" and "Living in the material world".

To all those, we impulsively can be ejaculating like next, "So goddemn, bull shit!"

After all, to us, only hoping, wishing mind can be left, no other matter is not that integral. 
Because we will never abound on any wishing, hoping, wanting mind so forevermore,  you know. 

Somewhat, your own country has only delighted light and darkened shadow, on the other hand ours have only have murky neutrally given state constantly overshadowing reality is dominant. After all, not only logically, mentally, spiritually anybody can be "Po boy" like Sir. Dylan sings, we all can be Po boy or poor gal, you know.

By the way, it could not be directly concerned with upper those truths, but somehow, we can say that we all are never mono perfectly united personality, even if we are not multiple personality, but somehow, we all are plural personality one personally. And if we were never so, we will be so seriously heart broken.

In the end, your own mind and idea around surviving must have own deadlocked at least at once, and another fantastic idea must burst into your daily normally kept mind and idea, and gradually that sound form could be melted into own disorderly despairing mind swamp. 

After all, not hastening your motivated mind and not sprinting around having any thinking circuit in your brain, that calmed, settled mind and the mindset around what you should do next, you know, it's so integral. 

And as much as possible, you should soothe your own irritated insanely confused mind into so calmed down state, and once breathe in and out so dynamically to the skies, and restart everything, relaunch all what you should do now and the next!

In frank no other thing must be left on your own side anymore, because, any relaxation possible state on you is so stiffly realized, rather you had not done anything at least on now you. Thus very upset Ted mind on you now rather is the proof of what you had addressed with everything so honestly and desperately, you see. 

(Irregularly continued)

Apr. 29th.    2024