After all, I previously announced that my visit to R◯ss◯◯ will be my last mission and through I claimed Z, my the last duty will be the country truth report. And necessarily my swearing message worked positively at least for my direct superior officer Z. And only to Saddham and A'quil, I sent precise report around my own resignation reason and own life circumstance and to Z, I precisely asked around Sophia, Vito, Amburtsum and Armad, necessarily with Saddham and A'quil for their own future in having no worries. Only Saddham was asked by me in previously entering in my aiming Borth hemisphere country the second city S◯nkt P◯t◯rb◯rg.

I collected very many data around inference for whereabouts of Tania, with Saddham's own cooperation I asked him previously. Also to Saddham, I dispatched him several locations. 

Replaced with my own selfishly circumstanced own resignation and what my role will be handed over to Sophia was already accepted by Z, thus, for thanking emotion, I promised Z that in any information after privately will visit R◯ss◯◯, and get by myself will be informed to Z without any sealing. That was my missioned and commanded ex agent despite of expendable highered and temporary one.

　
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Saddham was going back to J◯p◯n, beforehand I arrived at Russia in locomotion process of mine, he will help Sophia and any other member under her control.

In the end, to me, what does mean these four years missioned task persecution days? The kind of questioning consequently regenerated at walking time in S◯nkt P◯t◯rsb◯rg.

Nevertheless, the city view, landscape by itself was seen so beautiful at least for that moment's me. At least at watching that beauty, this huge country executes war now, the atmosphere is not that remarkably noticeable, but after all, this country is on whirlpool of contradictory warfare. And in this city's someplace, my ever loving that Tania lives and breathes in and out. Anyway, watching the city's own landscape as one free journalist travelled, in one hotel room, with my attending all data around Tania, I analyzed her settling probable any zone, whole branch of probable location, I investigated each location and I I used hacking technology to local police stations' own name lists of settlers and focused her probable settling zones at last only three locations as own address places. And any address was not that remote place from my staying hotel, thus I made up my mind to roam about those three addresses. 

She for the beginning term as she found out the settling apartment, frequently had sent me the picture through her own site as SNS, and with my attending those several precious recorded photographs as clue for identifying her settling location, after corresponding Map indicating place and really walking in the city residential zone. And at one her sending photograph landscape and my really walking zone were mutually made accord. 
That was one Middle Ages gossip architecture mode one apartment residence. Several floors height one. The day's temperature was around 10°.

I was not that younger generation guy, and she had been constantly beautiful lady than almost ordinary other women, thus I had not anticipated that she lived by herself, though I only wanted to express some old days, only inmanently, because she gave me some gentle mind and that was not lie, thus if I could see her again, just I wanted to express thanking mind around what we together had in Paris. Though, unexpectedly I was not that desperately searching her whereabouts. Additionally, from my younger generation days, I had some adoring idea to Sankt Petersburg. I had so much money for being more than four years' agent commanded by professional U◯ agent. Though I anyway only enjoyed the beautiful city even at warfare executing situation. Including the money yet I was not given, but the last month first day Z will deposit, probably, my life finale days will be held at relatively no anxious life mode around spending daily livelihood until I die.

Not like so younger generation days, even ordinary landscape could be seen at another impressing material or kind of simply wonderful apperance provisionary presence at least to me. After so long days as absence of my mind around taking picture as any impressively beautifully confirming any site I could witness accidentally, I took serially photographs with my camera which built in function only professional agent necessarily needed, but any apperance of outside manufactured performance was like ordinary one, walking around so many impressively photogenic locations. After so long period absence of doing so passionately, I continued to take many pictures with it. 
In doing so, I very tiny momentary at that time, had some visually memorable one lady's momentary walking appearance around there I sgot the photographs could be grasped at least at my heart and mind. That was surely that those days my beloved Tania. 

(To be continued)

Apr. 25th.   2024

Commercial to some exact extent spurs our own consumptive social circulation and promote exactly very easily switchable concern in having own stable life with livelihood and own promotion around life spending classified level. 

In other words, in relatively short term, very frequently switching any our daily necessary catchy phrase, the reality on the contrary proves our own fragile reality's powerless nature. But simultaneously it draggs us have some own solidarity. 

Thus, Capitalism by itself means some doubled edged sword. In replaced with easily convertible stance and catchy phrease content properness, we on the contrary prove our personally necessary own easy spending time mode, spending money for obtaining own convenience around doing anything necessarily with job and holiday amusement as well.

All those own catchy phrase producing own Calitalism money circulation makes us conscious about what social interlocked reality had own disabled running around anything, since the moment whole social order will be crippled and we from daily reality should take care of smooth switching from one fixed pattern to another so frequently. 

In other words, interlocked running failure consequently makes us own not well running state and it makes us own frustrated mind and emotionally down to the deadlocked corner and the state will continue, necessarily, constantly downward running tendency will be fixed at our own reality, thus, beforehand that omen is visibly confirmed, we should coordinate any running state so carefully and at each occasion, we should coordinate any subtle functioning nature so precisely. 

In the end, we can deduce that socially movable own nature teaches us that we should be vigilant at noticing any small symptom around upcoming future abiding own correcting necessity so at earlier stage previously around watching totalled move toward future and at each correcting necessity, we should check and revise already set standard around any item, and next running course and object should be made so conceretely and focused view should be preapared for revising any move and temporarily set upcoming course and aim so arbitrarily, indeed.

(Irregularly continued)

Apr. 24th.    2024

Concrete thing and notionally abstract thing in gap is never so obviously proved nor interpreted. Because from the beginning, to us, inmanently conceived idea is never completely segregated from externally our confirmable everything. In other words, as well when we consider something so imminently, we constantly have own spatially given condition, thus, basically even very notionally given idea is never perfectly segregated from our empirically cognitive concretely besieged own spatial conditioned world. Necessarily as well dream or imaginable minded time as our own brain working with recollective idea or so.

  
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At that day, I was at not obviously mutually border regulated nor jurisprudential set zone at one jeep car. Attending stuff for conveying me was one Ch◯n◯s◯ ex-national people army troops soldier, but those days already retired as old boy. But according to each occasionally situation, otherwise he could quit guiding me into R◯ss◯◯n border approaching zone, because necessarily, very unstable and not formally regulated vacuum zone for any visitor at locomotion, nevertheless, at least since the expected kind of very dangerous situation will come up to me, unexpectedly not that unpleasant situation nor not that seen risky one was never done on me, at least for having locomotion until I will approach the zone R◯ss◯◯n soverignty could be effective. Necessarily, at each geographical condition, I arbitrarily switched guiding driver to my hoping route for stepping into R◯ss◯◯n politically dominant zone at eachgeographcal condition, after all previously what I investigated as geographical condition had worked so effectively.

After all, on very rugged field my renting jeep ran, occasionally I and my employing Ind◯◯n driver in turn drove the jeep,  after asll until we were arriving at Shimla after arrival to Delhi Airport, almost ordinary route easiness, but after departure from the city, gradually very severe condition to us for advancing was welcoming our active power held condition. And in fact, that rugged zone was so strictly touturing our own advancing will with own effort. 

In fact, after arrival at Chandigarh, until Karakoram range's own ridge pallrelked locomotion, watching down Indus River was relatively easy with very superior Shelpa old man attending. 
But after departure from Hunza, Afghanistan, Pakistan, India, China and Tajikistan whole ones mutually had been at not that clearly border consensus held zones, we almost any moment had been given only severely noticeable and strict attention to whole angles. Thus I personally procured local sturdy macho men for girding me. They each held machine gun, rifle or so certainly attached own protective suits. We all used only very simple words with English, sometimes Chinese, to each other, because my instantly procuring guys were all mutually different ethnicity and language were held.

After all, we all arrived at Tajikistan, Dushanbe, at May, the beginning days with route owning some harshly switched climate condition, we were obliged to take pause quitting advancing for several times. Local shelpa ones were all well known own danger around easily passing through those zones, thus we were obliged to stop at one relatively safer zone. Necessarily Pamir Plateau was as well not that easily passed through zone, but local Shelpa guide had very usefully steady geographical knowledge, thus I was very convenient,t helped by them all. And necessarily in the locomotion process, at car, mule or so frequently in turn, mutual joking conversation had so strict role for easing us in mutually healed emotion. Human thing even with mutually not that well precisely told to each language, at emergency, anybody can have own collaborating stance so easily, we all learned the thing to each other.

In conclusion, we all were mutually telling farewell and I used personally small private company airplane at Dushanbe Airport, headed for Sankt Petersburg, replacing R◯ss◯◯n small airplane. 

After all, since I was heading for the destination, a week was used as spent for locomotion, and after all,  not as well, known to Craig because he had many routes for knowing my own traveling footprint through his illegal syndicate network. Thus using only Airplane was necessarily inappropriate for me to arriving at Sankt Peterburg.

(Irregulaly continued)

Apr. 23rd.    2024