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Mirage Out of the blue Floating in front of My Eyes // *Epilogue 7.

After all, I previously announced that my visit to R◯ss◯◯ will be my last mission and through I claimed Z, my the last duty will be the country truth report. And necessarily my swearing message worked positively at least for my direct superior officer Z. And only to Saddham and A'quil, I sent precise report around my own resignation reason and own life circumstance and to Z, I precisely asked around Sophia, Vito, Amburtsum and Armad, necessarily with Saddham and A'quil for their own future in having no worries. Only Saddham was asked by me in previously entering in my aiming Borth hemisphere country the second city S◯nkt P◯t◯rb◯rg.


I collected very many data around inference for whereabouts of Tania, with Saddham's own cooperation I asked him previously. Also to Saddham, I dispatched him several locations. 


Replaced with my own selfishly circumstanced own resignation and what my role will be handed over to Sophia was already accepted by Z, thus, for thanking emotion, I promised Z that in any information after privately will visit R◯ss◯◯, and get by myself will be informed to Z without any sealing. That was my missioned and commanded ex agent despite of expendable highered and temporary one.


 
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Saddham was going back to J◯p◯n, beforehand I arrived at Russia in locomotion process of mine, he will help Sophia and any other member under her control.


In the end, to me, what does mean these four years missioned task persecution days? The kind of questioning consequently regenerated at walking time in S◯nkt P◯t◯rsb◯rg.


Nevertheless, the city view, landscape by itself was seen so beautiful at least for that moment's me. At least at watching that beauty, this huge country executes war now, the atmosphere is not that remarkably noticeable, but after all, this country is on whirlpool of contradictory warfare. And in this city's someplace, my ever loving that Tania lives and breathes in and out. Anyway, watching the city's own landscape as one free journalist travelled, in one hotel room, with my attending all data around Tania, I analyzed her settling probable any zone, whole branch of probable location, I investigated each location and I I used hacking technology to local police stations' own name lists of settlers and focused her probable settling zones at last only three locations as own address places. And any address was not that remote place from my staying hotel, thus I made up my mind to roam about those three addresses. 


She for the beginning term as she found out the settling apartment, frequently had sent me the picture through her own site as SNS, and with my attending those several precious recorded photographs as clue for identifying her settling location, after corresponding Map indicating place and really walking in the city residential zone. And at one her sending photograph landscape and my really walking zone were mutually made accord. 
That was one Middle Ages gossip architecture mode one apartment residence. Several floors height one. The day's temperature was around 10°.


I was not that younger generation guy, and she had been constantly beautiful lady than almost ordinary other women, thus I had not anticipated that she lived by herself, though I only wanted to express some old days, only inmanently, because she gave me some gentle mind and that was not lie, thus if I could see her again, just I wanted to express thanking mind around what we together had in Paris. Though, unexpectedly I was not that desperately searching her whereabouts. Additionally, from my younger generation days, I had some adoring idea to Sankt Petersburg. I had so much money for being more than four years' agent commanded by professional U◯ agent. Though I anyway only enjoyed the beautiful city even at warfare executing situation. Including the money yet I was not given, but the last month first day Z will deposit, probably, my life finale days will be held at relatively no anxious life mode around spending daily livelihood until I die.


Not like so younger generation days, even ordinary landscape could be seen at another impressing material or kind of simply wonderful apperance provisionary presence at least to me. After so long days as absence of my mind around taking picture as any impressively beautifully confirming any site I could witness accidentally, I took serially photographs with my camera which built in function only professional agent necessarily needed, but any apperance of outside manufactured performance was like ordinary one, walking around so many impressively photogenic locations. After so long period absence of doing so passionately, I continued to take many pictures with it. 
In doing so, I very tiny momentary at that time, had some visually memorable one lady's momentary walking appearance around there I sgot the photographs could be grasped at least at my heart and mind. That was surely that those days my beloved Tania. 


(To be continued)



Apr. 25th.   2024