Truly, only I want to get normal happiness, but another me anytime shouts wanting daring to resist all normal that idea, and only calculating mind wants to sprint, that kind of momemt is surely present.

Reason, mind, emotion, feeling, all kinds of things are confused, however true my decision occasionally, unidentified, so much, but it must be fixed anyway, at the time, how should i do?

Eventually, I always try to diffuse that mind holding content.

That kind of me is very nasty seen to me, but that me is probably the naturalist of me, you know.

True honesty is like the idea, but it could be hidden by my sneaky mind, either it must be looked through by somebody.

(to be contined)

Dec. 8th. 2020