At the matter of fact, unexpectedly we feel so heavily difficult to find out any touched and so discoverable fascinated mind at doing anything, because we could either be tiresomely bored and occasionally even to very favorite things, we either couldbe fed up with, however we need so obligatory mind to get some useful job done at least one a day, but we are never able to keep only so tensely curious and palpitated mind, to be frank, so lazily only wanting to do nothing, the kind of emotion not so rarely comes up to our mind, but at the same time, we usually have surely deligently mission feeling to make some so useful work or job content, thus we sometimes need so daringly occasion and free time not to do anything, so intentionally, because only the time is the chance to reset our unnecessary excited mind anytime embed some useful act for achieving something, but that not so easily solving around not establishing so wonderful job in feeling imapatiently hastening, no affording room in mind to have any composed emotion and calmed state of mind.

Eventually our life's true competition is anytime toward our own "myself" and which we could have anytime so ceaselessly usefully advantageous interest and passion for addressing with anything, but if we try to anyway do something in no deeply desisive mind, our really done act could unexpectedly only beating air in no useful developing aspect.

Essentially, we positively need some so effectively functioning some empty mind and genuinely advantageous mind's blank for resetting anything in mind as accumlated dregs are left at no replacement of the air as so necessary our daily care.

Ultimatley because we probably could never have any introspective mind after we presonally die and look back to our own alive time's things, eventually that kind of our hunch could make us so impatient around doing nothing at having so anxiously and irritated.

Nevertheless, we are prone to invite only vicious circle at having so irritated and not composedly only sprinting desirable moment must make us only so disadvabtageous mind's aspect and only useless time exhaution, that running should be evaded as much as possible at our daily life as much as possible.

We are knowing it so well, but scarcely we only have some shortened pause but are hardly be satisfied with that our expedient deal, because we have keenly rousing mind to ourselves, at irritating our own resonable mind, eventually more and more so clearly motivated passion could gone to another place from our mind.

We anytime are surrounded by unnecessary obsession at arbitrarily breaking through at emergently desperate situation arbitrarily our mind could set, and we are obliged to have make clear white and black so plainly, the obessesive obligatory deligence certainly irritate our nerve and spirit.

Nevertheless, after all adter so enough rest and deep sleep, we'd have another mind rest at our enogh having so relaxed time.

Nevertheless, rather so obsessively obligatory mind could driven us have very fruitful fulfilling too, thus anything could not be expected so precisely and so correctly, in other words, everything could be left only to whim by God or so, we could say, either so.

In conclusion, we should have our modest lesson teaching idea, that must be that we all are so selfishly incomplete and very hurring at shotgun marriage, otherwise just jumping at the gun at rsuming or daily routine starting moment.
We should keep that our inherently unwisely hurrying and hastening mind so anytime, certainly sometimes only makeshift instant job could give us so great job so occasionally but that is never so constant.

Eventually, we need to switch our desperately jumping mind and we should make daringly very empty-minded and not so willing or never so excited very cool and detaching moment from any busily hurrying mind and spritually and mentally nervous duration, and these kinds of mind, thereby we must need either sleeping at night.

However, nevertheless, either I am obliged to get myself hurry up, that thing might have been caused from just what my the last moment in this life could be approaching me, or so, but either the thing could never be so worsened fact, because no anxiety nor no impatient mind could be some hunch to unexpected sinister future thing, or so, you know, anyway, take all these easy, I just want to tell you, for the time being anyway, now this time!

July. 5th.   2021