If you want your mind integrated at no contradiction formally and privately, as anybody could try so, just so far trying to make ends meet for arranging own course, our obviously never denial own wicked nature should be admitted so earnestly.

That mind must be, at least for articulating our true figurd and substantial personality, necessary for convincing our own mind, just our secretly accompanying anti-social disposition for effectively keeping away from self demolishing mind and acting false socially.

And necessarily, literature and philosophy must have been readied for our daily necessity around evading derailed personal demolition in keeping reason and socially appropriate manner practicing.

Though, very paradoxically, just anti-social ideas' emission could be forgiven only for stemming us from only unsolvable frustrated mind in our own publicly taken social life.

Though rather abstaining us from only trying to pretend perfection, daringly, blantly playing everything at taking only indifferent and irrevant evasion not at committing anything so irresponsibly.

Though, rather from the beginning, only taking so sneering manner effective intentional scheme must be safer strategy at least than only appealing to be a good and correctly smart one in displaying to any people in any social site.

There must be some very skillful camouflage not making any other one know our own timid and unnecessary chicken-hearted essence in mind.

That must be cynically anti-social idea attending some grouchy at forgiven degree manner.

That must be previously taken almost civilized citizen applicable preventive pretending, meanwhile, it'd be either so harshly potentially preserving true mind simultaneously to us, you know.

Because we all are synchronically good boy, good girl, and either bad boy, bad girl at the same time.

Kind of cynically taken defiant critic to all good regarded orthodox idea, ideology, and action, daring to show only twisted and refracted anti-socially ideological stance pretending so wild radical.

 

But all these actings must be shown so smartly elegant and effectively acquiring own respect at convincing anybody that acting is persuasive for any occasion. Though that manner absolutely needs own sophistication, and that element lack playing rather is opposite effect.

Though, unexpectedly otherwise, as kind of scheduled harmony, anti-social manner is so difficult at doing so smartly and elegantly at least in public.

Anyway, sometimes, we consciously should take so anti-social sensitively thrilling so dangerous trial mind scheming for a change at getting so refreshing own adhered emotion with social convention.

For doing all, we should be anti-socially actuated mind with so many uncertain domain for taking advantage of our private time managed with just so social sensitive mind so personally.

(Irregularly to be continued)

Jun.1st. 2022