I could be going to be squashed by my own shade, if I was filled with thinking only around the past.

Being filled so much with only memory.

Assorted memories in me is so heavy.

I have to switch my mind mode at replacing persistent memory with the idea of tomorrow.

Constantly recalling something stems me from going forward to the future.

However getting me in having no recollection is seen so painful for the present.

Even if at a flashy moment, never recollcting anything, that'd be no problem, if I'd do so only after a while.

How could the one survive at losing everything for recollecting since this time so permanently?

Human could not recollect because there could be something to do so, just in something worthwhile for recollecting, he must find out some value.

Value must be made only by the particular memory worthwhile for having recollection.

Even completely forgotten thing could be regenerated also in recollection, in it, we'd discover another value.

There are never forgotten words.

Because it'd never be forgotten, we could like to find out some valve.

We dare  not to say it, "value".

There's words we unexpectedly suddenly recollect.

I'd never always be so truth telling thing.  Unexpectedly some convincing truth whispering words or so.

I'd be either very trivially small one.

Just because of its nature, it'd be so impressive.

There is nothing to stem me from recollecting it.

Nov.  15-18  2014 written in Japanese, translated into English at June 15, 16th